I am poor, but I am happy to write.

from the day of my divorce, I was penniless. But from that day on, I actually felt very happy!

because I was the wrong party, I was willing to pack my own clothes without asking for a penny, but that's all. I left my home where I lived for ten years empty-handed. Leave all the property. Two houses, a car, a small hotel and a six-figure deposit just left alone.

There is no regret, only guilt!

For the man who once cared for me with his life, I can repay his affection with the most thorough betrayal!

For my favorite child, I can be cruel and leave all my property behind, and I can redeem my sinful soul!

I know that no matter how much money I use to make up for it, it can't always replace the warm and harmonious home we once had. I know that no matter how hard I try in my life, I can't make up for the trauma that my departure has brought to my children's hearts. However, in the face of my truest feelings, I chose to face and be selfish. Me, spontaneous, selfish. But never hypocritical. I don't want to make the kind of decision that most people make in the face of similar situations: continue to keep a complete home and then continue to play their own love games! I can't face such a complicated emotional game. I can't pretend to love a man who has lost his love; I can't love two men at the same time. So, I chose to abandon!

of course, when I made that decision, I was also very painful and confused! One is a man who loves me with his life, and the other is a man who I wait for with my soul. I have no choice. Can't have it all at once! Or, in other words, I'm not so shameless that I can have both ends meet. Enjoy the care of the legitimate husband in marriage, and have the romance and gentleness given by the lover! Or, in other words, I am still poisoned by books and pursue the so-called purity of love and the sanctity of marriage. I am eager to be single-minded and pure when I face love; Ask yourself to give the last respect when facing a dead marriage! So, I chose to bear the most cruel blame, and chose to know that there was no happy ending. However, I have no regrets, only regrets!

It's a pity that I can't face my only flesh and blood in the world. My departure doomed his life to be incomplete, and the lack of affection destroyed the integrity of a family. That will be a scar that I can't repair all my life! The only thing I can do now is to make money hard, create a better living environment for him and lay a solid economic foundation for his future. Regret, already doomed, I don't want to say much, all I can do is to flood a heart with maternal love to satisfy his smallest every wish!

I am poor. Poor to nothing. All I have is a wardrobe full of fashion when I got divorced, and the rest is full of regrets and endless apologies ... < P > But I still feel very happy. Although, the price of getting this kind of happiness is too big! But I have no regrets!

I am so poor that I have no place to live. That man, for whom I divorced, silently bought a commercial house for me. So, I have a place to live, and I have a place to put all the sinful bodies. I am poor, and the hotel I have worked hard for many years has been left to my children. Since then, the man who can make me divorce has taken on the heavy responsibility of raising me.

Then, I lived a life I had longed for all my life: I slept late every day and slept as long as I wanted. No work, no living. The only task every day is to dress up and wait for the man I love to come and see me. However, I spend most of my time alone. So, loneliness is written all over my face, and loneliness is implanted in my soul! However, I still have no regrets!

Although the days of waiting are far more than the days of being together, I am still happy. Although the pain of waiting always accompanies me most of the time, the moment when I am happy with him is enough to make up for all my pain and hesitation.

how long the waiting days are, and the moment of being together is always so short!

people are strange animals, and they never know how to be satisfied!

So, I began to learn to complain and blame ... and he learned to escape and perfunctory!

The love building that we have worked hard for and painstakingly managed seems to collapse at any time!

I'm scared and worried. However, there is no regret!

the more worried about losing, the more unreasonable it becomes.

I started a lot of SMS tracking and phone checking every day. I stole his qq and tried to add his Q with many new numbers, in order to further explore his whereabouts.

as a result, it backfired. When he found out, he didn't blame me, and he didn't give me a chance to explain. He quietly avoided me.

Although, at the beginning of each month, I will pay a large sum of living expenses to my account on time, but I won't take another call. No matter whether I call all his card numbers or the landline in his office, I just have the heart not to answer my phone. Text messages are almost never answered, unless I force him repeatedly, or the text message is written in a way that is very touching and can touch his heart, he will lightly reply to me: Love yourself!

I don't know how I got through that time. Every day is almost Lacrimosa, thinking about it every day. I can't eat or sleep, waiting endlessly in pain. Bet your whole life on a man, and that's what you deserve ...

So you've been in pain for a long time. As time goes by, maybe he can't stand missing me, and the text messages start to reply one by one, and the tone becomes gentle, without the indifference of the previous period. Then I knew that I would have him again. Tears are still flowing in my heart, but the most beautiful smile has already bloomed on my face. Just to meet the man I love with all my heart, this rare and gorgeous high-profile turn!

See you again, we have been apart for almost one hundred days. For me, the days and nights of separation are different from a trip to purgatory on earth.

It was a warm and cold night in March, and he reappeared in front of me after nearly a hundred days. The moment I saw him again, the feeling of happiness filled my whole heart, and happiness made me fly. He is still so gentle and gentle, and he hugs me naturally and skillfully, as if we had never been apart. The moment I was hugged tightly by him in my arms, I smelled the faint fragrance of his thin cashmere sweater and heard his pounding heartbeat, and my eyes were blurred with happiness. Words can't express the joy of getting it back! At that moment, I secretly swore to myself: from now on, I don't want to lose you again! I will never give you another chance and excuse to leave me, never!

that night, we talked all night and talked a lot. I sincerely apologize, and he criticized it frankly. But he told me that he never wanted to give up on me. He gave me the cold shoulder just to teach me a lesson. With tears in my eyes and a smile on my lips, I have to thank him for giving me another chance to have him again. I used to be so proud, so humble in front of love! As Aileen said, loving someone is so humble. A flower blooms in the dust of humble dao, just to never lose him again!

Our reconciliation seems to have been achieved by stepping on my self-esteem, but I don't regret it!

learn from a painful experience and clearly know the sorrow of being totally attached to a man!

So, I, who already had a good wine and never worked, turned over a new leaf and returned to the Jianghu!

I have applied for several positions, but I have failed to find a suitable job for a long time. Also very depressed. . Every day, I spend a long time fighting landlords on the internet, chatting and kowtowing, and my life is very boring. I was so bored that I almost went crazy without his company. I said to myself: It is better to lower the standard when looking for a job now, even if I go to the supermarket as a shopping guide, it is better than staring blankly at home. I went to the supermarket to apply for a job in a serious way. I'm so good that the supermarket doesn't want me! It is estimated that the manager is short of breath when he sees the momentum I appear, and it is the wisest choice to shut me out directly. I am depressed when I can't find a job. Dear, he comforted me: Baby, a few hundred dollars a month's work, is that what you can do? What do you need that money for? I can't buy a dress yet. Just stay at home. It's not like I can't afford you! However, I am tired of this idle life. In the past, working hard for life was arduous, but it was also fulfilling. And the taste of being kept in a golden cage is so unconfident, so helpless and hesitant!

finally, let me see a recruitment message, an enterprise recruits clerks. In a hurry to apply for a job, Kan Kan talked about my sweet voice and outstanding temperament, and the proprietress immediately hired me. So, I bid farewell to the life of doing nothing for three years, regained my confidence and found a full feeling. This job has given me too much. Learned a lot. I have also achieved good results and won high bonuses. The most important thing is that there is no extra time for me to pester my favorite man all day long. You don't have to focus on him every day, adding countless troubles to him. Let us have a relatively independent space for each other, and thus regain the happiness of being together!

Facts tell me that love is conditional. You can't rely entirely on this feeling. Emotion is actually very fragile, and you must always maintain it carefully. Just like flowers in a greenhouse, you have to keep watering and pruning, and you have to be just right. Moreover, the reality has taught me that women must have their own independent economic ability. No matter how strong your man is financially, you must have a job that can support yourself. Not being attached to anyone is a prerequisite for women to maintain their dignity in the new era!

yes, I don't earn much money, with an average monthly income of nearly 3,. Maybe it's not enough for me. But I'm satisfied. All the money I earn goes to my son, which is my duty as a mother and my pride as a mother. Spend the money you earn and raise your beloved baby!

then, I still spend the money of the man I love, and I spend it rightfully! Because he is my favorite man, there is nothing wrong with a man making money to spend it on his favorite woman ... Actually, I am very conscious. He said many times that he wanted me to take a driver's license test and buy a Peugeot 26 for me to walk instead of walking. As for me, I still prefer to take the bus every day, refusing his kindness on the pretext that I am highly nearsighted and timid. I understand that it is not easy for everyone to make money in this world. I want to know how to be satisfied and understand. He always bought all the luxuries for me on his own initiative, and I never asked for money. Maybe that's why he has never been stingy with me. He can understand what I want and what I like without asking. Every holiday, every anniversary, every birthday, he will remember to send a delicate gift. Although sometimes the gifts are not very expensive, I will still be very happy. As long as he bought it, I like it no matter what it is. And I haven't received a gift from my husband in my 1-year marriage. That's probably my biggest dissatisfaction with him. It is not enough for a good husband to know how to make money hard, but not how to spend money, let alone how to express his love. It will be the biggest deficiency for a petty bourgeoisie woman like me. Therefore, personality disharmony eventually leads to the dissolution of marriage ...

Now, I have learned how to maintain our love, learn to retreat, learn to forbear, learn to make concessions and learn to tolerate. So, I got more love. On business trip, he will remember to call me to report his whereabouts, and when he comes back, he will remember to buy me a small gift. When you have a meeting, you will also remember to inform me in advance to remind me not to be unreasonable. As soon as he has time, he will come to accompany me and try his best to make up for the shortcomings brought by the paper he can't give me. And I learned to weigh, forgive and understand the true meaning of love in pain. Love is always mutual and requires sacrifice. So, I am painful and happy, and stick to my feelings that are not optimistic about the world. Use all the best years to wait for that great love! ! !

whether it's independence or shocking. That love will never change!

flowers bloom and fall, geese go and geese come, clouds roll and clouds relax, and time is running out! However, I am still me, just like I was many years ago, pure, shy, smiling in the wind, and fluttering in clothes, just waiting for the boy who is studying in the provincial capital, not afraid of hardships and travel-stained, and only coming to send a young poem, warming the love engraved on the three stones, and blooming the enchanting blue lotus ... < P > I am poor, and I have nothing. But I am really happy! Because I have had too much happiness. This is the most precious wealth in my life. No matter what the future outcome is, I am willing!