The Growth Path of "Urban Generation"

My parents are farmers who have left their homes. I grew up thin and didn't like farming. With the belief that "reading changes my fate, and I will never dig food in Cracow", I stumbled across the river by feeling the stones, and finally jumped out of the "agricultural gate" and became a person who ate "commodity food" in the eyes of my parents.

I define myself as the "urban generation".

On the day I was admitted to college, my uncle, who had been an accountant in the village for more than 30 years, gave me a "treasure in the palm" that he had used for more than 10 years-a palm-sized leather handbag: brown and black, with a zipper on three layers and a bracelet at one end that can be worn on the wrist.

Uncle said, "You are the first person in our family to eat public meals. I won't give you anything. This bag was awarded in the village more than ten years ago. I have used it for more than ten years. Nothing, here you are! " I took the handbag, as if I had received the expectation of a generation.

That handbag accompanied me through my college days and a few years after I went to work. I take fashion change food stamps to school, and after work, I carry my certificates and meal tickets with me everywhere. Now that I think about it, it was the only thing with skin on me at that time.

Up to now, that handbag is still in the drawer of my study, which now contains "big photos" of me from small to large-photos of various documents.

Every time I see it, it reminds me of my stumbling growth.

『2』

My primary school is in the village. At that time, almost every village had its own school, and most of the teachers were private substitute teachers in the village. At that time, the population of our village was less than 1000, and the school didn't even open grades. Usually there are several "repeat students" in each grade for two or three years.

Because the school building is in disrepair, in summer, we all have classes in the poplar forest behind the school. In the shade, I moved my own bench and sat in several rows, waiting for the teacher to attend class. The teacher will hang a small blackboard on the poplar, take a poplar branch as a pointer, and lead us to read and count with the rustling of poplar leaves. At this time, there will always be several grandmothers with work in their hands-"braiding" and envious eyes.

In order to repair the classroom, the school requires each family to take out several bundles of corn stalks as roofing materials, then coat them with a layer of mud mixed with wheat bran and cover them with a layer of blue tiles. When it rains in summer, the roof doesn't leak, but in winter, classrooms with enough paper are chilly, their hands and feet are frozen like steamed bread, and their faces are frozen into two big pieces, purple and purple, itchy and ugly.

Later, enough paper was replaced by plastic sheets, which became strong, but it still couldn't stop the whistling north wind and was still ringing. I remember when I reported to the township middle school, I looked at the classroom with bright windows, and my heart was beautiful! Words are beyond description.

When I was in the fourth grade of primary school, for some reason, 32 people in our class were told that they had all failed, also known as "Dunban", which should be similar to the current cadre "Dunmiao". The teacher's original words were: "Whoever doesn't want to' suspend classes' will go directly to junior high school." Who dares to take the junior high school exam before the fifth grade? Besides, I have to be admitted!

『3』

Junior high school for three years, had a muddled life.

First of all, the subjects have increased a lot at once. English is my first contact. The teachers are all "old-fashioned" and can't understand pronunciation, so they can only note pinyin. Geography, politics, history, and later physics, chemistry and politics are all new courses, which look strange and sound fresh.

The weekly music class is simply torture for me who is tone-deaf and has no musical cells. Physical education class doesn't remember much. Occasionally, the vice principal stood in the middle of the school whistling and asked more than forty of us to shout slogans around him: "121...121...1234 ..."

We have basically no other learning materials except textbooks and workbooks for study. The only two exams each semester, the mid-term exam and the final exam, are printed by the teacher himself. Write the exam questions on wax paper with a special pen, and then mimeograph the complete set of volumes. Many times, the ink is not dry enough. In an exam, everyone's hands and face were covered with ink.

In that senior high school entrance examination, there were more than 40 students in our class, and none of them was admitted to high school. Even if it is among the best in the class, it is still a few points away from the admission score 120. Later, I went to high school to sum up my experience and lessons. I think apart from the teacher's teaching level and personal efforts, the only gap is that there are too few questions to do. The reason! Maybe mimeograph is too troublesome and the school has no money, so I won't do it.

It was also from that year that many of my classmates gave up re-reading and entered the society, and then embarked on a different life path.

『4』

Originally, I planned to repeat my studies on the spot, but with the help of an enthusiastic uncle at home, I went to a better town middle school at that time. Many students from county towns have transferred to this school from the city, and the teaching quality and enrollment rate are also top-notch.

Now that I think about it, I am really lucky. It was a transfer that changed my life. The students who are still studying in that school in the second year are admitted without exception.

This transfer, because I am far from home, I changed from a day student to a boarder for the first time. This school is a boarding school. All students live in school and have a day off every week. I can only get used to boarding life.

Because there are too many transfer students, a bunk bed sleeps four people, and a bed with a width of 90cm and a length of 190cm sleeps two people. The dormitory is the original three classrooms, divided into two dormitories, and the bunk beds are connected into Datong shops. More than 30 boys live in one class in each dormitory.

Going back to school after the first week, I don't know who crushed my plastic washbasin. Looking at the plastic residue on the ground, I want to cry without tears, and I have no friends. I can only "knock out my teeth and swallow it in my stomach"-forbearance.

There is also school food that needs to be endured. Because it's the first time I live on campus, I look at the meal ticket in my hand. How much is it? I really have no idea, let alone how many steamed buns I can eat. How many meals should I order? Porridge and rice should be reserved in advance. The life committee members of each class will carry a big iron bucket and a big iron spoon and put them in stainless steel rice tanks in pairs.

Since I first ate several meals, when I looked at the sticky white flour in the jar, it was really hard for me to swallow. The next year, I never ordered again. I only ate steamed bread and drank some hot water with pickles or bean paste brought from home.

Because it is repetition, learning is still the first. Near the final exam of the Spring Festival, I and a classmate from Hebei, the first in our class, discussed how to review more effectively and get a certificate in the final exam.

He told me one of his secrets: get up at two o'clock in the middle of the night to recite, go back to bed at five o'clock and get up with everyone.

From then until the exam, he and I secretly got up in the middle of the night, touched the first floor of the teaching building, jumped into the chemistry lab from the unlocked window, recited by the corridor lights for three hours, and then went back to sleep. It was already very cold, and my hands and feet were numb when I went back.

In this way, he persisted for more than 20 days, and the final exam was the first in the class, and I got the second place. The senior high school entrance examination naturally became one of the seven formal students in the class who entered the first high school in the county.

『5』

High school is in the county seat, more than forty miles away from home. There is no bus, and it is all by bike. Meal tickets for eating are all exchanged for wheat. A bag of 100 kg of wheat can be exchanged for a meal ticket of more than 80 kg.

One hundred Jin of wheat should also be transported to school by bike. I went by myself when I checked in. The wheat has fallen several times in the middle, and it needs to be tied again before going. It took more than three hours to walk more than forty miles.

Once I went home on holiday, when it rained, there was no hardened dirt road except water and mud. The bike can't ride any more, so I have to push it and stop every once in a while to clean up the mud stuck in the wheel, otherwise I can't walk at all. Strong adults always carry their bicycles on their shoulders in this weather.

I walked for more than five hours, and it was already dark when I got home. My impression is that there are no grievances and hardships, only muddy roads and dark and uninhabited nights.

Last semester, I was fascinated by reading novels, martial arts, romance, suspense and history. I read everything I borrowed, and my grades dropped. I watched the class teacher talk several times.

It was also from that time that mathematics and physics began to fall behind the rhythm, and their grades slipped from a dozen to a thirtysomething until graduation. It is also because I read novels that I missed an exam in HKCEE and didn't get a high school diploma. When registering for the college entrance examination, the class teacher who teaches mathematics kept tapping on the subjects that showed "0" with a sharp pencil. Repeatedly, the number "60" presented is actually the same as that printed, and there is no difference.

Up to now, I don't know, what is the "profound meaning" of the class teacher changing "0" to "60"? All I know is that I finally got into college. With a college diploma, it doesn't matter whether you have a high school diploma or not.

『6』

I majored in physical education in college, which I wrote in an article. I wanted to go to Wushu because I didn't do well in the high jump of the college entrance examination, but I was transferred to a university in this province because I missed one point, and my entrance cultural score was higher than the second place in my class 170 points.

I wasn't going to sleep because my mother said, "Go and have a look!" " If someone goes to school, you go to school. The tuition is not much anyway. "I carried simple luggage, took a train and a car, and embarked on the road of going out to study.

To tell the truth, although I studied physical education, I became a monk just to go to a good school, but I really don't like being worn colored glasses by others. I am often said to be a physical education student with developed limbs and simple mind. So in addition to the required professional courses, I spent a lot of time reading books and joining clubs.

At that time, I was catching up with my schoolmates to do propaganda in various departments and classes. I don't like the routine work of the student union, so I chose the radio station of the youth league Committee of the school. Now that I think about it, is my future after work exactly the same as my choice at that time?

At that time, the Youth League Broadcasting Station recruited broadcasters, editors and equipment manager. I don't think I have a voice advantage, and I don't like playing with electrical appliances such as loudspeakers, so I chose the editor.

I like reading books and listening to the radio since I was a child. In high school, I also participated in the collection activities of Hebei People's Broadcasting Station about the 30th anniversary and radio stories, and won the Excellence Award. The prize is a commemorative book that records the 30-year development of radio stations. Because of this complex, I did not hesitate to participate in the audition of the radio editor.

After three rounds of self-recommendation speeches, I became the only boy among the five editors of that year, and the editor was a senior in junior year. She said, "You are the first editor recruited from the Department of Physical Education since our website was established." I don't know when the radio station was built, and I don't know what the concept of "first place" she said. From then on, I began to write radio manuscripts and soak in radio stations in my spare time. Later, I was lucky enough to be a radio director and stationmaster.

The year 2000 is the Millennium, and we made a special program with a cross-century theme. In order to record the cross-century "bells" and "footsteps", we only have simple equipment and choose to record them in the dead of night. There is nothing in the whole building except us. I changed my pace in the corridor for more than ten minutes and walked back and forth for nearly a hundred times. I didn't get a few satisfactory finished products until it was polished that day.

Although my college time is very short, it has laid a foundation for my future development. My listening, speaking, reading and writing skills have been further improved, my horizons have been further expanded, and my ability to get along with and cooperate with others has been further enhanced.

『7』

I have been struggling for a long time about my future after graduation. I finally passed the exam and don't want to go back to my hometown. I just came out of school and don't want to go back to school as a teacher. This is my idealized consideration. Back to reality, college degree, sports major, no background, no family background, can only rely on themselves.

Under the persuasion of my family, I can only choose to bow to reality. After all, I spent so many years at home, as well as my brothers and sisters. Before considering poetry and distance, survival is the first. Reality requires me to work and make money at once.

Fortunately, after listening to my 15 minute trial lecture, a principal and director of the academic affairs office of the county experimental middle school immediately made a decision to let me be the physical education teacher of the first grade. Later, I learned that they were going to run a private junior high school and needed a group of young teachers urgently.

It was also because I was young at that time that I never considered public or private issues. Whether I am prepared or not, I just concentrate on doing what I am doing and teaching every lesson well.

The school is under construction. After more than a month of teacher training, teachers rented the former teacher training school as a temporary school place when the school started in September. Even so, the teaching building has not been built, the windows have not been installed, the campus is full of bricks and tiles, the dormitory always leaks when it rains, and the classroom is filled with air. At this time, we young teachers will climb to the roof and temporarily cover it with plastic sheets to keep out the rain.

Rough days are always unforgettable. At that time, I was young, energetic and energetic, and I didn't have the concepts of poor conditions, low pay and hard work in my mind. Even if you treat students, you do your best. As a class teacher, I have a heart-to-heart talk with 67 students in my class. I know the students' psychological state, study problems and family situation.

There is a girl, thin, who usually has a bad stomach and always has a stomachache. The family is poor and adults are away all the year round. Over time, the child's gastrointestinal ailments dragged into chronic gastritis. I often have to take her to see a doctor, and sometimes I have to pay for medical expenses. At that time, my salary was only 400 yuan. Later, I tried my best to contact her uncle who worked in the county, so that her illness was treated formally.

My care and patience have been rewarded. Good class discipline, harmonious relationship between teachers and students, students take the initiative to learn. Every mid-term and final exam, the total score of our class always ranks first in the grade.

『8』

I haven't been a teacher for a long time, three years, including later, because of our homework in the last year, I went back to my hometown to teach English for one year and was also a class teacher. Generally speaking, I have taught physical education for two years, English for one year and head teacher for three years.

That year in the countryside, because I got married and lived in the county, I had to run back and forth. More often, I stay in the dormitory arranged by the school because of self-study in the evening and early reading. Dormitories are usually shared by several teachers, and I have four people in one room. Usually, only one person often lives there. I live more.

Once, my classmates from two counties came to see me. It happened that I had a high fever, over 40 degrees, injections and medicine, and I couldn't sit still in the restaurant. I felt dizzy and wanted to faint. I can only be entertained by teachers in the same dormitory, and I will cover myself with a quilt and sweat for half an hour.

Colleagues came back and said that two students were leaving, and they didn't have a car. As soon as I heard this, I immediately lifted the quilt and rushed out. I don't see anyone outside the school gate. Later, the two said that after drinking some wine, the bicycle fell off the chain halfway and pushed back to the county seat.

『9』

In 2003, a sudden SARS epidemic disrupted the whole life. Chapter 58 of Laozi says, "Misfortune depends on happiness, and happiness depends on misfortune." I went home to rest because of a broken basketball game, and at the same time I was able to have enough time to prepare for the recruitment of civil servants in the county.

At the end of the year, I officially ended my teaching career, went to work in county organs and became a civil servant. Interlaced like a mountain. It does take some effort to change the role from professional technicians to civil servants.

As a new civil servant, we should first take a look. Seeing the civil servants who went together, they rushed to clean and change briquettes for the "number one" every morning, but they were indifferent. Others have six drinks after work and go out to eat, but they are busy processing documents and writing materials.

During that time, it was false to say that there was no sense of loss in my heart. But I believe, Lu Yao knows horsepower, and people will see it for a long time. A leader also said, don't envy others for stealing. Do more at ordinary times, that is, put bricks under your feet, and you will get ahead one day.

Maybe it's really a leader's words. "It's gold. It shines everywhere. " On May 12, 2008, I was transferred to another department to help. Since then, my life has grown again.

『 10』

The work of the new department is both complex and specific, and it is also highly political and policy-oriented. On my first day at work, I met a special event like the Wenchuan earthquake.

Although I am a newcomer, I also got the first task: to write a proposal and call on all cadres and workers to give their love and support the disaster area.

After that, the work became more and more complicated and specific. During this time, I also encountered a skill panic for the first time. I can't type with five strokes, I can only type with one finger. After writing the message, the leader corrected it and even left the topic. The whole article is completely unrecognizable, almost completely transformed. After receiving the above notice in the afternoon, I will get the result when I go to work the next day, and I can only work overtime all night.

This kind of work is done for ten years. How many decades can there be in life? Ten years, I have lost my youth and only added white hair; In the past ten years, besides age, myopia and weight have also increased.

Of course, I have gained a lot in these ten years. If you don't understand typewriter composition, you can buy a computer and practice it secretly at home. If you don't know, go to the typing club for consultation. If the quality of the information draft is not high, read more books and newspapers, usually accumulate excerpts, accumulate piles of newspaper clippings and write more than a dozen excerpts. Later, less and less information was changed, and many of them were published in internal publications, even newspapers and magazines.

『 1 1』

There is a good saying: there is no road in vain, and every step counts. The key is to endure loneliness, endure a moment of obscurity, and finally wait for the flowering season.

After going to work in the city, people in my hometown have children who volunteered to apply, and those who are looking for a job after graduation like to call me or come and talk to me, including difficulties and worries.

What can I tell them? What I talk about most is my own growth experience. It is mainly to establish an idea and adhere to three habits.

One idea is lifelong learning, lifelong growth, never forgetting learning and never relaxing learning.

The three habits are the habit of reading, the habit of exercising and the habit of self-discipline.

Young people, in particular, are going to college or just joining the work after graduation. I always tell them to have this idea and three habits.

It's hard to know what's going on without it. Experience will understand and commitment will grow. No one's life can be simply copied, and successful experiences can only be gradually realized, which may become useful nutrition for their own growth.

As a "urban generation" who just jumped out of the farm gate, this is the only way to grow up and the witness and imprint of the times.