Learn to accept yourself

I was chatting with my nephew a few days ago, talking about my high school years and my life after graduation. Along the way, there have been ups and downs and twists and turns. But after more experience, I feel relieved. As a human being, there is no such thing as smooth sailing. We always have to go through ups and downs and grow through setbacks.

From elementary school to junior high school, I have always been under the special attention of teachers. In the eyes of teachers, I am: diligent, studious, smart, competitive and so on. My grades in junior high school have steadily improved over the past three years, and I was one of the few fresh graduates in the school to get top marks in the high school entrance exam. It can be said that my journey to school has been both smooth and smooth.

However, it is important for people to be self-aware. I know that I am not smart, I am just more diligent than others. One thing that impressed me deeply was that when I was talking about the determination of congruence of triangles in the second grade of junior high school, there was a question that took a slight turn, but I didn't even solve it. But when I went back to school to communicate with my classmates, the boys behind me proved it. At that time, I discovered that I was not good at delving into new types of questions, that is, I was not smart enough and my thinking was not creative.

People must learn to make use of their strengths and avoid their weaknesses. My strengths are that I have a good memory and am not too stupid. I will definitely understand and remember everything the teacher said. Coupled with my diligence and inquisitiveness, my grades will be so outstanding.

When I first entered high school and lived on campus for the first time, I couldn’t adapt to my daily routine. I fell asleep in class and my throat got sore. The schedule of classes from morning to night is so full that I don’t have any time to study by myself. In the first monthly exam, I ranked 150th grade. I set a goal for myself, don't be anxious, catch up slowly, and improve steadily, top 100, top 50, top 20... But the ideal is very full, the reality is very skinny, no matter how hard I work, how hard I work, That 150th place was my best ranking.

Compared with primary school and junior high school, how can I not be depressed and how can I not be sad. But fortunately, I did not surrender and I still studied very hard. Because I understand that my current results are the result of my hard work. If I don't work hard, my results will only get worse.

I also feel more and more that some people are really talented and can learn well without any effort. For example, the boys in our class play table tennis after class all day long, but they are not good at mathematics, physics and chemistry. Damn it; some people are born stupid, like me. No matter how hard I try, I can never understand physics or learn mathematics thoroughly.

In junior high school, mathematics and physics were my strengths, but in high school they became my shortcomings. No matter how hard I try, these two subjects, especially physics, always lag behind me.

I finished high school with regret and depression, and the university I was admitted to was also a third-rate and second-rate university - Anyang Normal University. In the small society of the university, I witnessed all kinds of unfair treatment and all kinds of people. I saw the kindness of people, the indifference of people, and the sinister nature of people. When I was a junior in college, others were preparing to take the postgraduate entrance examination, but I felt that I had gone to school enough and wanted to graduate as soon as possible.

In the year of graduation, Henan Province recruited teachers for the first-year special post. Among the five students who took the exam, I was the only one who failed to pass the exam.

I went to private schools in the county for interviews, and three of them were rejected. The first one was Kaijie Middle School, but I failed the interview. The second one is Zhengda Bilingual School. After the trial class, I was asked to go back and wait for notification. After waiting for more than ten days, there was no news. I called and said it was not confirmed. I think I had already finished my tutoring class, it was August, and maybe the teacher had already been confirmed. I went for the interview, and I was afraid that I would just be a reserve teacher. The third one I went to was Bubugao School. I had never been to the place where the school was located. I was riding a bicycle while asking for directions. When I arrived, the principal was busy and asked me to prepare lessons first. Later, I heard from a teacher at their school that there is no shortage of teachers now and the classes have been divided. I thought to myself, why do you want me to come for the interview? After the principal finished his work, he asked me to give a lecture. The judges were all the mathematics teachers in their school. After finishing the lecture, the principal said to me very politely that what you lectured was very good, but we have no shortage of teachers for the time being. When I left, the principal kept sending me outside the school gate. (The principal called me in the spring of the next year and said that I had done well in the interview last year and wanted me to come to their school to try teaching again and sign a contract, but I declined because I already had a good job.)

I went to the Postal Bank for an interview with my high school classmate Ming. She was accepted and I was eliminated.

I went to Xinxiang with Ming to take the teacher examination. She passed the exam, but I failed.

I biked to the market to look for a job and submitted my resume, but nothing happened and no news was heard from me.

I have always felt that I am no worse than others, but my luck is always worse than others, and I often have bad luck. Coupled with the comparison between my classmates, the feeling is really suffocating.

When I was desperate, my old cousin told my family that if I really couldn’t find a job, I could go to him for help. I thought to myself, since I couldn’t find a job anyway, I would just go work for my old cousin. It would also be good to learn some business skills.

I had just been there all morning when the principal of the village school came to my home to ask me to take over as a substitute teacher. Four hundred a month, and I’m still in the first grade of elementary school. I think I still plan to take the teacher exam in the future anyway, so let’s study and practice first!

During this period, I also couldn't accept the intrigues in the school and decided not to go there. I found a job online and worked as a substitute teacher in a tutoring class in Ningbo. My father was too far away and worried that I would go by myself, so the job failed again.

In August 2010, I submitted my resume on Xinxiang Talent Online. Later, a company called me and asked me to go for an interview. After the interview was successful, I asked about the company's benefits and found out that it was 900 a month and no room or board was provided. But I was so eager to have a job, so I decided to go to work in this place first, and then look for a better one when I could support myself.

I planned to go check out the houses nearby first. The day before departure, I saw a job fair at Xinxiang Stadium. After I arrived in Xinxiang, I went to the job fair first. I saw three companies recruiting my major, and one of them was from Changyuan. I quickly went to consult and was told that the laboratory was short of inspectors majoring in chemistry! According to them, as long as I fill it out, I will definitely be able to apply for the job. So I filled in my personal information and went home to wait for news.

I received the interview notice the next day. The Tuoren Group was not that big at that time, and I had never heard of the Weiyuan Industrial Zone in Menggang. What I think is that as long as someone gives me a job, I will take it regardless of the salary.

I stayed in the Tuoren Group laboratory for four years, two years in the east factory and two years in the south factory. To be honest, until now, I still think Hunchback is a good platform. Since going to Tuoren, all my bad luck has disappeared. During those years, I was appreciated by my boss, my work was satisfactory, my income was considerable, and I had the opportunity to study on business trips every year. Tuoren Group gave me a stable job when I was at my weakest and when I needed it most after I hit a wall everywhere. I think this is a recognition of my ability. To this day, I am still full of gratitude to Tuoren Group.

In the past four years, I have been thinking that working here is actually not bad. But my parents don't think this is a formal job. They even think that if I don't become a teacher, all these years of study will be in vain.

In the past four years, I still prepared for the special post examination every year, either because I was not prepared enough or because I was unlucky, and I failed repeatedly. It wasn't until 2014, when the relationship between me and the new leader became tense, that I made up my mind to become a teacher and leave the hunchback.

In the spring of that year, starting from May, I got up at five o'clock every day and went to the roof to endorse. After finishing my work, I read books and solved the questions. When I left the workshop, I also took the time to pick up my mobile phone and watch a few video explanations. In the evening Still studying at twelve o'clock. Copying, memorizing, dictating, etc., all memory methods were used. Finally, hard work paid off and I passed the exam.

Looking back, I did work hard that year, but luck came my way. Because in the previous years, this subject always recruited three people, or at most five people, but the year I was admitted, ten people were recruited. The top twelve entered the written examination, and my ranking was tenth. The difference between the two following and my score was only one point. During the interview, my score improved a bit and I ranked ninth overall. Later, another person was admitted to this subject, and I was ranked third from the bottom. No matter what, I finally climbed out of the recruiting pit. I finally got what I wanted, so I should be happy.

My past few years as a teacher have been pretty good. There are no major worries, but there are many trivial matters. Especially this year, it was very unhappy. In the first half of the year, I had a miscarriage due to fetal loss, and in the second half of the year, I got sick and had surgery.

Lin Qingxuan once said: Nine out of ten things in life are unsatisfactory. We should pay more attention to one or two and less to eight or nine. In the past few decades, I have not been able to learn anything in school, but I have tried hard and tried my best. It was hard to find a job, but when I finally found it, it was pretty good. Although the teacher took the exam many times, he finally passed the exam. It's sad to be sick, but the good news is that it's better. It really corresponds to the saying "If you don't experience the wind and rain, how can you see the rainbow".

Mr. Yang Jiang’s words: “We once longed for the waves of destiny, but in the end we discovered that the most beautiful scenery in life is actually inner calmness and calmness; we once looked forward to the recognition of the outside world, but now In the end, I realized that the world belongs to me and has nothing to do with others.”

Indeed, the most beautiful scenery in life is inner calmness and calmness. After so many years of ups and downs and ups and downs, I have long been sharpened by fate and have become open-minded and calm. My good friend was talking about me two days ago, but after chatting with me, I realized: she is vulgar and I am immortal.

There is a saying that a strong mind makes a weak destiny, and I agree with that. But inspirational people will say that my destiny is up to me. I think no matter what the situation is, we must learn to accept ourselves and strive to be an optimistic, calm and calm person!