It's great to be able to live in an orderly way.

The two volunteers who lived with me these two days have gone to other countries to play, and the landlord has also flown to other places on business, leaving me alone at home.

I fell asleep very late last night and got up very late in the morning. I found something to cook in the refrigerator, set up a pot, boiled water, and fumbled about how to use the landlord's stove. Then eat alone, clean up the house, squat down in a chair alone, eat five yuan a catty of cherries, and start watching variety shows pushed by the home page of the oil pipe.

At dinner time, a man took the key and went downstairs to the sushi restaurant downstairs to buy a sushi that he had ordered countless times and packaged it for himself. There are many kinds of sushi in their family, and I often go there. My boss knows me. But I only ordered one kind, which looks like a lot of meat and is cheap.

If you eat alone, just be full.

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Come back at night, eat the fruit I bought yesterday, and then sit in front of the window in a daze. I suddenly saw the beautiful sunset in the distance and wanted to ask others to watch it, but only then did I know that I was alone.

When will it make you feel like a person?

When you can't turn on the stove and only do a little search on Baidu, when you have to repeatedly confirm whether you have your keys before you go out, when you are afraid of going out and getting lost in a strange city, when you enter the corridor with others, you have to run upstairs to open the door, lock your room, and be afraid of being a bad person, when you see the beautiful sunset, and then no one can say anything because of the time difference, you will feel like a person.

A brother told me that he wanted to study in Canada and then immigrate there. He told me a lot that he had done a lot of homework. He said that it is not difficult to go to graduate school there, and there are many employment resources, and life will be good, welfare will be great, and social atmosphere will be good.

But he suddenly said to me on WeChat today: "You said that if I live alone and can't find a partner, is it pitiful?" It will be very cold where the night is longer than the day. "

I always fantasize that if I want to live abroad alone in the future, I may finish my work on weekdays, buy a big bag of snacks and fruits in the supermarket after work on Friday, and go back to lie on the sofa and watch my favorite CD until I feel sleepy and fall asleep.

Living alone, seemingly free, will actually be lonely and even feel helpless.

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But none of this can beat you.

After graduation, we will all go to work in new cities, face new people and new environment by ourselves, and try our best to solve various problems by ourselves. A senior told me about her recent graduation and said that she lived in a single apartment. Because it was fashionable at that time, there were cockroaches. I know that she is very afraid of cockroaches, so I sent her a sentence "I love you"

She smiled and said, what can I do if I am afraid? You can't scare cockroaches even if you scream. You can only get that paper and burn it. Then the next day, I went from shop to shop and asked if there was any medicine to prevent cockroaches.

There is also a sister who had a good relationship with me when I was a child. I know her because of her parents. She studied in Japan for six years and then returned to China to start a business. She said that she went abroad after graduating from high school. In the first week, I experienced an earthquake. Although the magnitude is not very high and there are many earthquakes in her place, she is still scared to death. After running out, she dared not go back for a long time and stood outside alone. She said that she didn't want to do anything at that time, just wanted to cry. She naively thought that the house would collapse and she would die here. But later, I got used to it. I am used to going to bed when I find that the earthquake magnitude is not high, and I am used to working to find a house to live in.

She also told me about the underworld in Japan, saying that when she was working in a ramen restaurant, she delivered takeout to underworld-related organizations. I was afraid to listen to what she said, but she said that I was actually afraid for the first time, but when I found that the people there were very kind to her, I wouldn't be afraid. They are still very peaceful and friendly to civilians.

But I still think that living alone will give us unimaginable courage, that is, the courage to live by yourself even if tears fall.

We are not that strong, but at least, we want to live.

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Who doesn't want company? Unfortunately, in most cases, we only have ourselves. Even if you have a partner, you may not always be with us. Comfort and greetings in WeChat may make your mood a little calmer, but it will never stop the burst water pipe and let the pot on the stove cook a meal.

You should dare to face all this yourself.

Suddenly I feel the same in love. I always feel that one of the two people will be more independent and responsible, so that the other person can rely on it. So that if you rely on it for a long time, people who are in a weak position in this relationship will not be able to live for a while.

Since we can't find anyone to rely on, let others rely on us.

Put on a posture that you can be responsible for yourself, then solve your own things, do what you should do, and become a person you can rely on.

Because it's great to be able to live an orderly life by yourself.

Although I can live alone.

But the sunset tonight is really beautiful.

I really want to lean on your shoulder.

Sleep with you

The cover was taken in Latvia.