Because I just immigrated to the United States, I can't speak English and can't find a job. I stay at home every day for fear that my parents will say that I feel useless!

Let me help you analyze it and see if I'm right. You imagine it well now, but it's a bit overwhelming to put it into action. Playing can make you forget your troubles for a while, but after playing, you will be very upset and feel that you want to study hard, but you can't.

I think the reason why you are like this is because the environment changes rapidly from home to abroad, and you have no friends there. Environment and family give you pressure. I think you are a very nice person. You are self-motivated and have a minimum sense of responsibility for your family.

My advice to you is, brother, go out more and show your ability to chat up beautiful women and talk to foreigners. Also, communicate with your parents more. I think China's parents love their children the most. If you take some action to love them, they will be very, very happy. If you are really embarrassed to go out, you can learn from your parents, or you can find friends in China to learn English online. Who said that?

Besides, you are too sensitive. Why do you think people look down on you? As an authentic post-80s China, at least you can't think that Americans are no worse than you, let alone make all their money. Come on, work hard, and by the time you are 30, you will be a promising young man. Make plans from today. Don't be too strict at first, step by step. You can let friends or parents supervise. Come on, come on.

Finally, for the sake of my pure hands, I'd better adopt it ~ ~