What stimulated Sanmao when he was young? Why are articles always so sad?

Sanmao's original name is Chen Ping. When he was three years old, he read Zhang Leping's "San Mao's Wandering" and was deeply impressed. Later, he took Sanmao as his pen name.

1955, when Chen Ping was in Grade Two, he often got zero in mathematics. In the second semester, Chen Ping found that every test of the math teacher was an exercise at the back of the textbook. In order not to repeat the grade, Chen Ping recited the questions and got 600 points in the quiz. The math teacher began to suspect her of cheating. Chen Ping said to the teacher, "Cheating is impossible for me. Even if you are a teacher, you can't insult me like this. " So the math teacher asked Chen Ping to answer this question, and she got zero. In front of the whole class, the teacher used a brush to draw two big circles around her eyes to humiliate Chen Ping. After this humiliation, Chen Ping fainted in the classroom the next day and began to have serious psychological obstacles. Later, she often skipped school and went to the cemetery to read novels, and finally dropped out of school. 1956 resumed school once, or skipped school and went to the library to study, and then officially dropped out. When she just dropped out of school, Chen Ping was transferred by her parents to an American school in Taipei, where she was sent to learn flower arrangement, piano and Chinese painting, and to learn landscapes, flowers and birds with the famous teacher Shao. She likes reading, so her father taught her to recite Tang poetry and Song poetry, read "ancient prose" and read English novels, but Chen Ping suffers from depression and has been in a self-enclosed state of mind. It is said that Chen Ping committed suicide by cutting her wrist and saw a psychologist, but once a week's psychotherapy was of no help.

From 65438 to 0967, he went to Spain to study, first studied Spanish, and then entered Shirley College in Madrid six months later. When I was in Spain, I met Jose Maria Queiroz, who was still in senior three. After studying at Goethe Institute in West Berlin, Germany, I got the German teacher qualification certificate, and then I went to the University of Illinois in Chicago, USA. I want to specialize in ceramics and then work in the law library. During my study abroad, I took the opportunity to work to earn money from time to time. I have been a tour guide in Mallorca, Spain, a perfume model in a German shop, and an American librarian. I have been to East Germany, Poland, Yugoslavia, Czech Republic, Denmark and other countries. In the meantime, she also made several boyfriends. When I was in Spain, one of my classmates was a Japanese businessman. When I was in Germany, I had a German classmate who later became a diplomat. In the United States, a doctor who was born in Taiwan Province Province studied in the United States. But nothing came of it.

197 1 After returning to China, he was hired by Zhang Qiyun to teach in the German Department and Philosophy Department of China Institute of Culture, and also taught in the school for political cadres and employees. In the 1970s, Taiwan Province Star Cafe was in its heyday. It is said that during this period, I met the painter Deng in the "star" cafe. Because I like each other's works very much, I agreed to the painter's proposal and my family collectively opposed it. Despite many objections, Chen Ping insisted on marrying the painter. Before the wedding, he found that the other party was married. In the same year, Chen's athletic father encouraged his daughter to play tennis with him. On the tennis court, they met an elderly German teacher. Later, Chen Ping met and fell in love with him. A year later, Chen Ping agreed to the German teacher's proposal, and one day they went to order a wedding card together. As a result, the German teacher died of a heart attack that night. Later, Chen Ping was heartbroken and committed suicide by taking sleeping pills, but was rescued.

Encountered the emotional marriage blow mentioned above, 1972 went to Spain again. See Jose Maria Queiroz again. Jose, who was still a high school student at that time, had graduated from college, completed military service and got a diver's license. From 65438 to 0974, Chen Ping married Jose in the African desert town (Laayoune, Western Sahara) and began their married life in Western Sahara. 1September 30, 979, which happened to be the Mid-Autumn Festival, Jose died unexpectedly while diving in the waters of La Palma Island during the visit of San Mao's parents. Sanmao suffered a third emotional blow. Sister Sophie recalled that Sanmao personally dug Jose's grave, thinking that if her parents were away, she would definitely follow Jose. With the support of her parents, Sanmao flew back to Taiwan Province Province for a temporary stay, and later returned to the Canary Islands, unable to get out of the pain.

Sanmao's loneliness is manifested in her unique personality. She is an opinionated woman. Her sentimentality, her rich feelings, her sensitivity, her meticulous, her childhood reading, her fantasy, her innocence, her romance, her yearning for beautiful things, her life in the fairy tale world, her own way, her cognition of beauty, her unremitting pursuit of beauty and Jenny's portrait all show her yearning for beauty. Her kindness, dumb slave, sergeant and her pure friendship are all unique feelings from the heart, but children of her age have no such performance. Her dating with female classmates and boys, the hazy sweetness of opposite sex love, shows her precocity. It is normal that she fell madly in love with Picasso in the later days. Later, when she was studying in Germany, she performed a love of the whole city, which was also a vivid expression of a girl's desire for love. She is an affectionate girl, deeply influenced by romantic novels. Since she was a child, she yearned for the fairy tales of the prince and Cinderella and lived in the love world she yearned for. She has been looking for it and spent her whole life looking for it until she met Yue Se. After several years of trekking, she finally made her love have a home, but unfortunately, her lover suddenly left her, leaving her alone. Her heart is broken, her love is tired, and she trudges hard. She seems to see the greetings of hope and love again, and that is the appearance of the king. That may be her dream since she was a child, or Picasso, her dream lover, she pursued all her life. However, Wang let her down and her dream drifted away.