Your name explains my life.

"You know your name explains my life …" I sat on the playground wearing headphones, watching a group of teenagers running wildly on the playground, and shy girls holding water. I know that with his departure, my youth has already ended.

I heard people say: you can't meet people who are too amazing when you are young, otherwise you will be lonely all your life, because you never forget. Until then, maybe I'll laugh it off. I have never been short of company, but now, I miss you, Mr. Yun.

We met in this high school and this stadium. In the hot summer, I was sent as a member of the radio station to record the game.

As a new member, I can't get rid of the job arranged by my senior, so I have to bite the bullet. But I know nothing about scoring. Just when I was confused, I scored again on the field. I didn't even see what number I voted for. I was so loveless that I bowed my head. At this moment, he couldn't help laughing and patted me on the shoulder.

"Are you a new member of the radio station?" I nodded. "And you are?" "I am the stationmaster, your senior." I quickly stood up. "Well, senior, I'm not lazy, but I can't keep score yet."

He looked at me nervously and finally couldn't help laughing. "I know, don't be nervous, I'll teach you, you see ..." Actually, I still didn't listen to what he said. I've been watching him, and his magnetic voice makes my inner deer bump. "Do you understand?" He turned to me and asked, "Ah, well, I don't think so." I faltered and he smiled helplessly. "It doesn't matter. I will accompany you today, and I will leave when you know. "

I looked at him gratefully. He reached out and rubbed my hair. "Don't look at me like that. I won't save you next time. Study hard this time. " I nodded. "Senior, are you thirsty, or shall I buy you water?"

"Go ahead, consider it a reward." I nodded "OK". I answered seriously and made him laugh. "I find you are my joke." I looked at the mirror in confusion. I grew up with his jokes. Does he mean I'm funny? ! ! I still didn't think much, after all, people helped me, so it's funny to watch funny!

When I bought water, I found a few more boys next to my senior. I went over and handed him the drink. Several boys joked: you didn't come to watch us play football because of that primary school girl, okay. I panicked at once and quickly explained, "no, my senior helped me because I didn't know how to score." I didn't know he would cheer for you. Sorry. "

Several boys waved their hands. "What does this have to do? This is more important for the lifelong event of our cloud. " My face turned red in an instant. Seeing this, he finally stopped. "Well, you go to the game. I'm here to cheer you up. Stop teasing elementary school girls. "

"Then let's go and remember to watch our game, elementary school girls." Several boys went to the playground together. He turned to me and said, "Never mind these words, they are used to joking." I shook my head. With his help, I successfully completed my task, and I knew that my heart could not erase him from there.

What do you like? Maybe I entered my favorite in the input method, and then he acquiesced in your name. I also tried to meet him at school. I know the gap between us, because he will graduate soon.

I asked him out a month before his college entrance examination. We walked along the river, and no one spoke at first. Until he broke the peace. "Where do you want to go in the future?" I shook my head and said I didn't know yet. He stopped and looked at me. "Do you like me?" I nodded shyly, and he was silent for a moment, leaning against the armrest. "No, don't like me." His expression was complicated, so I turned and ran away crying.

Since then, I have never deliberately met him, and I have never passed their classroom again. Seeing that he is still far away, I can't face him or my own heart. The day before his college entrance examination, I walked by the river and met him again.

I saw him standing there quietly in the distance. Although I can't see his expression, I can always feel his sadness. I paused and walked over. "Senior, are you all right?" He turned his head and looked at me stupefied. "It's okay. Who do you like to listen to? " I froze. "Oh, I prefer folk songs, but I don't."

At last, there was a smile on his lips. "What a coincidence, what song." "Close" "Primary school sister, it's getting late. I'm going back. You should also go home early. " He turned to leave, and I watched him turn slowly. Suddenly he turned around. "Sorry, I hope we can meet again." Before I could speak, he went on walking.

I sighed, maybe. It will always be like this between us. He left before I could speak. My tears are spinning in my eyes.

I haven't seen him since the college entrance examination, and even there is no sign of him by the river where he often goes. I didn't reply to the message, but I found his good friend in desperation. As a result, he handed me a letter.

"His heart has been bad. After the college entrance examination, they immigrated to America. A few days ago, he ... was invalid. "

I reached out to stop him and walked back with the letter. The sunshine in July shone on me, which was particularly cold, and tears fell unconsciously.

Dear primary school girl:

I'm sorry to tell you not to like me, but I already like you myself.

Don't be sad that I left. I always thought this kind of thing was unimportant. I didn't like this world until I met you, so can you do me a favor?

In the future, can you help me see all the scenery? I think that when you see every bouquet of flowers and every snow, as long as you think of me, I will be by your side. Is this favor selfish? I make you miss me.

All right, primary school girl, take care.

After reading the letter, I put it in the drawer and put it at the bottom, but I never forgot this person.

"You also like listening to Guan?" "hmm."

"Why?"

"You know, your name explains my life, and the broken past is like smoke. Drag your luggage back to your hometown and have no north for the rest of your life. "

Over the years, I have traveled to countless places to see all the fireworks in the world for you, and the world is prosperous. However, I will miss you in the crowded and deserted streets.

Cloud, if there is an afterlife, don't let me just look at your back.

Original text of WeChat official account with the same name