Everyone is not at fault, but it causes tragedy

"Silent Confession" - Thoughts

The dead are all gone, and the living life is worse than death!

The impact of family education and racial discrimination on a child far exceeds the awareness of the parents. They think that surviving and being healthy is the greatest luck, but they do not know that the collapse of the soul can destroy a child. people. However, this painful power is not understood and recognized by most people.

Mother is only one role of Marilyn, and her other important role is the indirect murderer of her biological daughter Lydia. Yes, Lydia died. When she was making breakfast and nagging her daughter to finish her breakfast quickly and do her physics homework, death quietly swept through this peaceful but riddled home. She didn't know that her quiet departure from home to fulfill her so-called dream made Lydia agree to all her requests and even her dreams. Because their precious daughter didn't want to lose her mother, but they didn't know whether she could bear such a weight.

Lydia rowed the boat towards the center of the lake. When she walked into the water, she no longer had the fear and fear before, she was so calm and calm. As the only child among three children in the family, her mother wanted to be different, and her father wanted most to blend in with the crowd. These two impossible things took root in her. When she was 16 years old, she didn't find the answer to how to balance her own thoughts with her parents' "care". No, she found it at the last moment of her life. When she lay quietly in the middle of the lake, she fell.

Her brother Nath always felt that Jack was looking down upon him when he looked at him. And he may not have discovered that the hatred in your heart will always make you feel that your surroundings are full of hostility. Living an angry life makes you slowly lose the ability to distinguish good intentions, as if every action of the other party is provocative and contemptuous.

Sister Hannah: a child who is always forgotten, silently paying attention to all the detailed changes around her. She knows the measures taken by her brother and sister to avoid being beaten, knows Jack’s secret, and knows the secret that the family is not peaceful. , she hides in the corner, being forgotten all the time. Even her birth was an accident. That was when my mother left home without saying a word to pursue her dream. Of course, half of the credit for the mother's return home comes from this silent little girl.

Father James, their family, when he was very young, his father came to California under a false name, pretending to be a neighbor's son, but the neighbor's son fell into the water and drowned the previous year. . The United States banned Chinese immigrants from immigrating to the United States at that time. The identity of each imposter is easily revealed. Everyone uses a false name and hopes not to be discovered or deported to their country. Therefore, they desperately try to blend in with the crowd and avoid being different. So does James. For this reason, when he was still very young, he knew how to react appropriately based on the other person's expression to make the other person happy. He had low self-esteem and lived hard, until later he met Marilyn as a history professor. Life seemed to be filled with greenery between the plain black and white.

Their personalities complement each other perfectly, even their final values. One wants to be different, the other wants to blend in with the crowd...

So whose fault is it in the end? Mother's expectations and father's gregariousness...who will be blamed for this? It is too easy for us to live under the expectations of others and crush ourselves to death!