Sorry, I'm in trouble.

who will you tell this sentence to?

if I were you, I would say to someone who might like me without any other intention.

The phrase "I'm in trouble" doesn't mean to laugh at myself, but to actively give the other person a signal, a signal of "it's best not to come near me", reminding the unfamiliar person not to get involved in my troublesome life easily.

but in any case, I probably won't say this to my closest family. Because we are self-confident, family members are the only ones on this earth who may not dislike our existence.

In the movie Ignorance in One Mind, Adong's relationship with his family gives a completely different answer.

This is a Hong Kong film about bipolar disorder.

The protagonist A Dongyan follows in his mother's footsteps and suffers from bipolar disorder. At the beginning of the film, my father picks Adong up and goes back to live in a mental hospital.

The main line of the film is simple, that is, Adong leaves the mental hospital early to go home and adapt to various social experiences.

And some other shots interspersed among them pieced together some past stories.

I choose "trouble" as the main line of this article.

The trouble between Adong and his mother.

When Adong's mother was young (according to her), she was quite beautiful and attractive, and there were guys in line after her.

But in the end, she married an ordinary man she never thought of, that is, Adong's father.

so it is conceivable that she has been angry all her life.

she is angry that she can't continue to enjoy the glory of being chased by thousands of people.

She was angry that her beautiful shine ended indifferently because of this man.

She was angry that she had to be tied up in this worthless home to give birth to two sons.

I was angry, so I got sick. She has bipolar disorder. From then on, I can't control myself, and it's hard to be decent to lie in bed and cry all day.

But she is aloof, so she doesn't want to accept Adong's care. When she gets sick, she always remembers her past glory or misses her son Ajun in America.

The phrase "Sorry to trouble you ..." came from my mother.

Think about the tone and mood in which she spit out this sentence. She gave up her broken dignity and stood naked under the shower, letting her son wipe her body, and added another sentence that caused trouble to others.

Adong had moments of collapse, nights when his mother was still nervous despite his efforts, but he was still willing to be troubled.

After all, a mother is her own mother, so there is no reason for a son to dislike trouble.

So Adong angrily refused his fiancee's proposal of "sending her mother to a nursing home" and began to beat her, so he quit his job and took care of her bipolar mother wholeheartedly. After being angry and helpless, he would still gently appease her irritable mother with a childish tone.

"I'm in trouble."

"I know. But I am willing to be troubled by you. "

It's a pity that some troubles are too much trouble after all, which will inevitably make people angry. Finally, Adong accidentally killed his mother. Go to jail.

the trouble between father and mother and Adong.

before writing this part, I'd like to praise the actors.

Dad is played by Ceng Zhiwei and Adong is played by Shawn Yue. This play changed my preconceptions about these two people at once. If nothing else, what they contributed to Ignorance is absolutely the purest and most sincere performance.

Adong's father was looked down upon by his wife from the first day of marriage. In order to reduce the friction at home, he tried to buy two sports cars in Hong Kong.

After Dong Ma got bipolar disorder, he almost ran away. He didn't want to be responsible, and he didn't know what to do with someone who was sometimes irritable and depressed. Therefore, he became a traitor referred to by thousands of people.

Adong's father chose not to be troubled by Adong's mother in great helplessness and cowardice, and ran away with another son, Ah Jun, leaving the responsibility and trouble to Adong.

but you can't escape the trouble.

so fate is at work. More than a year after Dong Ma died, Dong Dad was still in trouble as scheduled.

At that time, Adong had been acquitted. After one year's treatment in a mental hospital, he was advised to leave the hospital for rest.

This time, Adong's dad didn't run away. He took over the burden and tried to help Adong reconnect with society.

This story is so concise, and the two lines are intertwined. Adong, as the hero of the two scenes, bears the trouble and troubles others at the same time.

But this is not the only place that impresses people.

The beauty of Hong Kong films is that they can tell ordinary stories with unique flavor in ordinary scenes.

after reading "I am ignorant", I not only deepened my direct sensory cognition of bipolar disorder through the protagonist's interpretation, but also left a deep impression on Adong's dark rented house with a rack bed.

in the future, when I think of this film, I think of more than just this story.

There must be a balcony with sheets hanging on it, which Adong and the boy next door used to grow flowers.

There is also the wedding where the groom spoke emotionally on the stage and felt that the audience was noisy.

And Jenny's so-called forgiveness for Adong in the church;

And the hammer under Dad Dong's pillow;

that rattling TV set.

While watching the movie, I was thinking that compared with ordinary depression, the externalization of bipolar disorder seems to be closer to the so-called "mental illness", so I can't really understand the pain of Adon, although I belong to the same mental illness.

there are other things that they bear.

if it's destined to haunt you, it's really inevitable.

So after many years, Adong's father still had to accept a son who was suffering from bipolar disorder and cried all day in the house, and he still couldn't be cruel enough to send him back to a mental hospital.

In the past, at a gathering of patients' families, Dad Adong once said, "People like us really don't know what to do."

but the reality is to embarrass the citizens.

I want you to concentrate all your energy in the dark corridor, but you just can't light a cigarette, and you have to throw away the lighter angrily and then pick it up angrily.

it just wants to make you cry.

not only that, but also in your most desperate moment, let that son with bipolar disorder come over and hug you and gently say "it's all right".

"Sorry, I'm in trouble."

Then director Chun Wong tells you with the story of a bipolar family with two generations of ignorance, "Not everything can be outsourced to others."

if there are some troubles, it's up to the family to suffer, not to talk about fairness.