Those blind date things.

The earliest time (many years ago) was introduced by relatives at home, mostly from other places, such as Guangzhou, Shanghai and Zhengzhou. , but I refused. There is only one reason. I have suffered from a long-distance relationship and don't want to make the same mistake again.

The spring of my blind date should be last year. Somehow, many people introduced me, relatives, friends, colleagues and classmates. I don't think I'm ready to get married. To some extent, I am afraid of marriage! About marriage, I think too much, hear too much, see too much, so that my heart is getting more and more confused. I don't know what marriage is, why people want to get married, and what is the meaning of marriage.

In this confusion, I instinctively resist marriage, but this resistance does not affect my deep yearning for beautiful love. In love, I am an out-and-out idealist and perfectionist. I yearn for love at the best age. Because of my heartache, I met her in two of a kind, knowing each other and loving each other, just like watching flowers in the fog, from obscurity to looming, and then to the rest of my life. Everything is just right. I know that this kind of love is just a fantasy, and I know that indulging in fantasy is doomed to be a tragedy, but I can't control my heart at all. Therefore, after the dream was shattered again and again, I still yearned for it and did not fail. Fear of marriage and desire for love may be the deep-seated reasons why I couldn't refuse blind date at the beginning.

Blind date started with my cousin's preaching. My cousin is a rebellious hero in my heart. He didn't graduate from junior high school and came to the capital alone. After more than 20 years of experience, he has created his own business kingdom with tens of millions of assets. He always asked me to find a Beijing girl, get married and have children, and go beyond the corner. He also cited many examples of relying on women to get ahead. I can understand his thoughts very well. After all, it is realistic to be beaten by society, but my idealistic view of marriage and love does not allow me to accept such a path. So, every time he advised me, I always talked about him. Although I said I didn't want to look for it for the time being, I was still impulsive. After all, being single is hard. Finally, once, I was still hesitating. He once called one of his friends and asked someone to introduce me to his girlfriend, especially telling him that it was best to be from Beijing. So I "reluctantly" embarked on the road of blind date.

My cousin's friend is very reliable and pushed a girl to me the next day. Beijinger, working in the system, studying for a master's degree (part-time), single-parent family. It was ok to look at the photos, so I added WeChat and chatted for a few days, but I really couldn't speak. It gives people the impression that I am a senior lady who loves to talk to me. I wanted to give up at that time. If you don't want to talk about it, why are you dating? ! I am too proud to "kneel down" anyway. Besides, my love view is going to two of a kind in two directions. It is meaningless for a person to love hard, and he can only become a stranger after all. My cousin and matchmaker ask me about my progress from time to time, so I can only be evasive. My cousin was puzzled and indignant at the plan I gave up. She thought I was too naive and ideal, and advised me to "stick to the green hills and not relax". As long as she hasn't blackened herself, she must be desperate and pursue bravely. I know, and I also believe that countless practices have proved and continue to prove that my cousin is right. But I just don't want to take this shortcut. I'd rather not get married for utilitarian reasons!

Therefore, my first blind date and I parted ways in several toothpaste-squeezing chats.

Although I am a little sorry for the references, fortunately, my cousin has a wide network of contacts and asked another friend to send a female doctor, a teacher of a famous university in Beijing, when he changed hands. Perhaps it is inherent prejudice and ignorance. I always feel that doctors are difficult to get close to, but I feel that this girl is a teacher. It seems that the approachable profession of teachers can naturally neutralize the sense of distance brought by doctors. Chatting with her on WeChat is very pleasant and comfortable. Although I don't know her yet, I really don't feel strange when chatting. I think this has a lot to do with her education and occupation. A good chat should be when you come and go. If only one person is trying to find a topic, it is very tired. In the process of chatting with her, I can clearly feel that when a topic may end, we are all trying to open a new topic to avoid the embarrassment caused by the silence. We talked a lot about work, life, hobbies, family and so on. And it feels good, so it is natural to make an appointment to meet.

As far as I can remember, it was winter. We made an appointment in a shopping mall next to her school on a working night. My cousin specifically told me to bring a gift, not too expensive, to show respect and attention to the meeting. I chose a camel cashmere scarf of 100-200. Because I bought it late, the courier didn't arrive until the night of the meeting. After work, I hurried home, picked up the courier, washed my hair, changed my clothes and put on some hair gel: I was undoubtedly looking forward to this meeting. Because it took a long time to wait for the express delivery and sorting, I was nearly an hour late. I am a person with a strong sense of time. Maybe I value it too much. I always want everything to be perfect, but the result is still a secret. When I arrived at the mall, I felt a little uneasy and flustered, and my palms and foreheads were sweating. I imagine what she looks like and what color clothes she wears. Is she my ideal? I am looking forward to countless pictures in my mind, the affectionate glances in the crowd, and the poetic feeling of "looking for him from thousands of Baidu, suddenly looking back, the man is in the dim light". When I took the elevator to the dining floor and looked at the name of the restaurant from a distance, I didn't find her-it should be inside, only a few meters away from her. My heart panicked to the extreme, and my body seemed to be shaking. I walked towards the restaurant, which was very noisy and crowded with people. I looked around and saw the girl I was looking for at a glance. She is playing with her mobile phone, petite figure, long hair shawl, and a short dark woolen coat (or wool, which is silly and confusing, in short, beautiful, simple and low-key), giving people a warm, calm and intellectual feeling.

I took a deep breath and greeted her. She is sitting at a long table, and there are three girls (all beautiful) sitting opposite her. At first, I thought they were her best friends. Later, I was relieved to see that they didn't seem to know each other. But then, my heart was in fear again, and my face was red, because I really didn't know what to say in front of the three girls. It's really embarrassing. After reading the number column, this shop was so hot that it had to wait an hour or two for a seat, so it had to be changed. Ok, this also solves the embarrassment of chatting "someone is watching". It's my first time in this shopping mall, and I don't know what's delicious. Besides, I was so nervous and completely confused. Finally, she found one. With the progress of eating, my heart gradually calmed down, and we

to be continued