Have you ever regretted it since you got married?

He is 42 years old and I am almost 40 years old.

For various reasons, we can't be together. After separation, we started our own families, but we never lost touch. We have a circle of classmates and friends who work in the same circle.

Over the years, no matter what troubles, injuries or illness I have, he is the first person to see me.

He is inarticulate, male chauvinist, workaholic and resolute. When I was young, I thought he was cold and unromantic. Now when I am old, I understand that what a person does depends not on what he says, but on what he does.

Get together once in a while in recent years, talk about work, not talk about feelings. His wife is very nice, and so is my husband. We all know each other.

Just, forever amber.

Occasionally I dream about him, miss him, think of the past, and I can't sleep anymore.

My family immigrated to Europe a few years ago, and he came to see me off. I asked him if he wanted a European farewell gift. He came and hugged me tightly, and I saw his tears for the first time.

In Europe, I continue to work, continue to be busy, and occasionally receive his email, which is also a job.

This year, I met him in Europe at an industry conference. No greetings. He sat there with his head down. I walked over and he looked up at me. He said, I just can't live without you.

At that moment, I was in tears.

For so many years, since we met, he directly confessed to me for the first time.

Before going abroad, I bought a house near his home. I go to sit occasionally and feel close to him. I don't know why I still have such a girl's heart in my forties. Later, I gave him the key and let him look after the house.

He sent me a message the other day that he had gone to the house. He said he didn't know why. He thought it was our home.

It is too late. I met the right person at the right time, but I missed it.

The arrangement of fate.

A few days ago, I saw Cheng Peipei say that the most romantic thing in her life was Prince Charming when she was young, and her last wish after death was to send him.

This kind of romance is incomprehensible when you are young. Now I understand that this is love. When my life comes to an end, I hope he can come to see me off.

When I was young, I had too much desire, and I argued about distrust during the Cold War. In the end, we all think that we have made the most "correct" choice, giving up love and pursuing wealth and power. Now we have everything and know what is most important, but we can't go back.

He took me for a drive in England this year. I asked him, if you did it again, would you make the same choice? He said: life is over, I will choose you.

The golden willow by the river is the bride in the sunset, and the beautiful image in the waves ripples in my heart.

While writing this answer, I turned to the photos of our twenties. The big boy and the lovely girl were in Shuai Shuai.