"Winning the lottery every day, never winning" —— A summary of the seventh Zen meditation by reading characters

During the seventh meditation, I found that my previous days have been degenerating, and now I feel that I have been degenerating, but I don't know what to do and what not to do, so that I can feel my self-improvement and return to the field. Is it too easy to live now?

Before this meditation, I knew little about Buddhism and Zen, and I have been here for less than ten months. Speaking of the reasons here, it is also quite interesting. I forgot why I suddenly became interested in Nan's Diamond Sutra, so I read one every day. This is still the case after work. I lived in the same apartment with my colleagues at that time. Although I read quietly on the balcony every time, a colleague heard me and talked once. Later, he mentioned that he had attended a course in Jiaxianghai Temple, which was highly appraised and suggested that I could learn if I was interested. Naturally, I paid attention to the official account of WeChat. I see that there will be a seven-day retreat at the end of the year, and I want to attend. It's a pity that I passed the registration period when the time can be determined. I found a big gap when I changed jobs. I didn't go home for the new year, and all kinds of emotions were intertwined, and I came over at once. Years later, when I saw the recruitment of volunteers here, I came over. After coming here, the seniors asked me from time to time, are you used to it? Actually, I'm not used to it. It seems that I have been here since I came. This is not a casual talk, just like an advertisement in a theater. Isn't it just a play? If I say "habit", it means that although I am a stranger here, I can basically adapt.

This is also an opportunity to participate in meditation. I want to take some classes after I come here. At least I can't come here without knowing the basics of meditation. I always have to know some basic etiquette. The Zen business class that came first didn't keep up with me. When the brother in charge of this "talking about Zen meditation" asked me, I agreed without thinking. It's interesting to say. Before I promised, I didn't know what "meditation" was for, nor did I know that it was sponsored by an outside Buddhist promotion team. I know nothing about the history and reputation of this team. I just wanted to know some basic things. A senior brother told me that you joined the advanced class as soon as you came, but I didn't understand it at that time. As one of my former teachers said, "Use the master as firewood." Admittedly, I know nothing about the basics, and even the sitting method is still fragmented.

Although communication is limited, it can be seen that everyone who comes here has their own stories and reasons to come here. Most senior brothers are prepared. A brother in his sixties came with the group from Vancouver one by one, and many people also participated in several sessions. Even if they don't, most of them have been practicing Buddhism for a long time. Therefore, it is natural for them to be enlightened. I secretly recorded the sound in the middle of sharing, and other seniors also shared their feelings with friends:

What I gained in the seventh meditation, besides feeling that I had fallen, I also tried to examine myself at any time. My happiness, tears, sadness, emotion, anger and so on. What am I doing, my heart is there, and all my emotions are finally full of joy and happiness in Huasong. In the words of Brother Zhong Jing, I win the lottery every day, and I have never won it. In the circle of friends, we are always cutting our hearts into pieces, into strips, into infinity, into unknown places, just quietly watching and watching.

The third gain is that every sentence is precious, and perhaps the main reason is that you see your ignorance every time you speak. Talk less and read more. Silence is probably the true meaning of gold.

After that, I briefly said a few words about the Seven Zen in a movie sharing group. It's really hard for me to reply to friends who care about the number of women in the group and the food in the temple. Working here these days mainly depends on mental and physical strength. Group owners get up early every day and patiently remind the time. What will everyone think when they see this?

Now I just want to ask one question here: What can I enjoy here?

What I do is: I treat myself in my way, just as I treat others in my way.