27 years old, penniless, at the end of my tether.

At the time of writing this article, I was depressed in an Internet cafe in Putuo District, Shanghai. Of course, being penniless is a bit exaggerated, but the money I have can only cover my meals for two days. Recalling the dilemma from coming out to work to now, I really want to cry.

It started when I was fifteen or sixteen. My hometown is in a small village in southwest Shandong. Three generations of poor peasants have not changed much in my generation. Coupled with my poor academic performance, I found a small factory near my home to produce baby carriages after I finished primary school. I lived an easy life and worked for a year. From a very young age, I yearned for the outside world. I discussed it with my dad and went to Jinan to go to a cousin. Although she hasn't reached the legal age of the Queen Mother, she found me a job of delivering food in a hotel. This is my first contact with the outside world. I still remember that I arrived in Jinan at night. Look at the street lights and neon lights. My heart can be said to be both excited and confused After working in a hotel for a year, I gradually came into contact with people and things outside, and had a new position in the world. In the past, my enthusiasm for this city faded with time. After the novelty, I found that my salary was not much more than that of my hometown factory. The older you get, the stronger your desire for money. In this way, I returned to my hometown with disappointment in the city. After the Chinese New Year, my father asked me to do welding with my brother-in-law. At that time, I heard that my brother-in-law could earn four or five thousand a month. If I remember correctly, it should be 2007. Relatively speaking, at that time, this salary was already very good for ordinary jobs in rural areas and cities.

I agreed to my father's proposal and told my brother-in-law to go to work after the fifteenth day of the first month of the following year. It's a pity that I overestimated my ability to bear hardships. I barely did it for a year, but I didn't go the next year. As for the salary, my brother-in-law is the team leader and he distributes the salary, but he didn't give me the back door or anything. Because I am an apprentice, my monthly salary in the first half of the year is basically in the early 1000, and in the second half of the year, I barely earn 2500 at most. But it's still much better than serving in Jinan.

So after the New Year, I didn't go to my brother-in-law's, so I decided to go to Jinan, took a few hundred dollars, lied to my dad that my cousin had found me a job again, and then went to Jinan alone. Tragic life begins from this.

When I arrived in Jinan, I rented a small hotel near quancheng square and started looking for a job the next day. Because I have worked in a hotel before, I pay special attention to the recruitment information of the hotel. After shopping for a long time, I saw a hotel near quancheng square with recruitment information, and a waitress came back to the store from the outside, so I couldn't help but go in and apply for the job as a food delivery clerk. Because there were many people delivering food, I worked as a waiter for one year, and the hotel closed the next year. I thought I had to learn some skills or something. I can't be a waiter all my life. I went to the chef after I opened my business. Because I like snacks, I applied for a pastry apprentice. At that time, the chef's niece had just left school and was about to come out, so the chef disagreed with me, and then the position was left to his niece. However, I was offered a job as an apprentice in cold dishes. You may not believe this, but I have been an apprentice in cold dishes for six years. Because the work is relatively light, the salary can already get the salary of the master in the same industry during the apprenticeship. This also gave me the motivation to choose not to leave.

Accidents will happen. In the sixth year of work, the crisis approached me quietly, because my new colleague in the kitchen played a game similar to a slot machine called Zhongfu Online. It is said that the highest prize is 250 thousand. I played games a few months ago, and I can bear to lose dozens or hundreds a day. During this period, my colleagues advised me not to play. In fact, I knew it was a pit myself, but I jumped in under the instigation of greed. After a few months, the more you lose, the more anxious you are, and the more anxious you are, the more you invest. Under the vicious circle, I finally went bankrupt at the end of 20 17. There is no way out, the hole in online lending is too big, and the previous method of robbing Peter to pay Paul is useless. The hotel that has worked for six or seven years has also come to an end. In desperation, I confessed to my family that my parents were disappointed in me. Plus my family is not rich, my parents only paid me half of the online loan, and the rest let me work. Originally, my dad wanted me to go to Tianjin to go to a cousin, but I felt ashamed to work with my relatives and friends, so I sneaked out of the house and bought a plane ticket to the south, and came to the famous magic capital? Shanghai. I even have no friends in Shanghai and come here with very little money. Two days later, I used up the last dollar for dinner. Walking aimlessly near Shanghai Railway Station, seemingly calm, but already panicked. What is even more frightening is that the mobile phone has no phone bill and can't contact the family. Just when I was desperate, I suddenly saw a small wonton restaurant in front of me. The shopkeeper parked the battery car outside the door and pulled out a wire to charge it. I am very excited, because I still have the charger, and I didn't tell the shopkeeper to plug it in to charge it. The shopkeeper is an aunt in her fifties. She saw it and walked out of the house. I was embarrassed and vague. Because of my hometown, she warmly invited me to sit in the house and recharge my batteries. This added a little comfort to the panicked heart. I told her about the situation at that time, and said that I would go home if I really couldn't. After listening to this, she told me that her home has been in Shanghai 17 years, and the rent has risen from 1000 in January to 17000 now. Since I first came to Shanghai, I can't say how rich and expensive I am, but I can get by. Now that the whole family has come to Shanghai, if our family suddenly goes back, we won't go back until the joke of kissing our neighbors in Shanghai is over. We should do it well in Shanghai for a face. She said to me again, you can't go back. Listen to your aunt and do well in Shanghai. You'll have face if you mix up in the future. There are many hotels nearby, which are generally controlled by eating and drinking. You can make some money first and do whatever you want in the future. After listening to her words, I calmed down a lot. After saying goodbye to her, I found a modest hotel nearby, and the problem of survival was finally solved. Because I work at night shift, I often stay up late to play with my mobile phone when I work in Jinan, and my health is not as good as before. After working here for a while, my body became tired and I lost my appetite. After barely working for a year, I also got the rest of the online loan. After working for a few months over the New Year, I chose to leave this store that sheltered me for more than a year. After I left, I didn't choose to go home, but spent a month in Shanghai. Today, a month later, I found a serious problem. Because I didn't leave any reserve fund and spent all my savings, I returned to what I had just arrived in Shanghai. When writing this article, while recalling the past events from the first year of work to the present, Chen Zhong found himself completely living in a tragedy.

Here, I hope my life experience can alert you to the story, and you should take every step of your life carefully. After all, once you make a big mistake, you have to face the storm.