It's good to be alive. Emotional prose

Xu Nannan, 20, is a serious troublemaker. She is only 20 years old. No, it should be said that she is 20 years old. She should have done more than 65,438+00 jobs. This is a completely strange place for her hometown city. It was not until she returned to her hometown many years later that she found herself a complete stranger to this place where she was born and raised. She forgot how long she had lived here. If it weren't for her illness, she might not have returned to Micheng.

A week after returning to Micheng Hospital, the doctor kept her in hospital for more than a week. She can't wait to find a new job interview preparation, but there are still many things waiting for her in the hospital. She was worried about this, and the other company called to inform her that she could go to work immediately. Facing the reality, of course, she had the cheek to take over everything she had caused. I don't want to lose my favorite job. Xu's mother repeatedly dissuaded her from staying in the hospital, but she wouldn't listen. Before I left, I rented a house in Micheng and planned to work and treat.

Xu Nannan's upcoming company is classified information network, 58 cities. She is engaged in recruitment. To put it simply, she is a small salesman. Her job accusation is to sell her internet products to businesses that need to recruit, so that they can recruit the ideal talents they want more quickly and conveniently. Xu Nannan always believes that he will counterattack sooner or later and become a super-awesome salesman. Become an elite in the sales field.

Born in a small place, her parents have no education, and she is very distressed to see her parents breaking their hearts for themselves. Now she may just want to work hard and earn money to help her parents lighten the burden. .

On the first day of work, she had breakfast step by step and arrived at the company half an hour early, because the slow pace of life in the town made her a little uncomfortable when she just came back from other places. Is it comfortable? A day's training also makes her a little tired. She rushed to the hospital for an intravenous drip as soon as she got off work. After she sent her mother home, she worked alone and was hospitalized. What is unsatisfactory is that I feel unwell on my first day at work. Didn't go to work the next day, just in time for the weekend. I just made an appointment with the manager to go to the job fair in the morning. She had a holiday in the afternoon and didn't even go to the job fair. She had an intravenous drip in the hospital, and her elderly grandmother came to see her in the afternoon. Grandma Xu hardly recognized her granddaughter when she walked into the ward. It's been a long time since they met. Her father cut her hair short, and there was a lot more gray hair on her head than before. Walking is not as flexible as before. She accompanied her grandmother for a walk and took photos, and then sent her old man home.

On the first day of hospitalization in Micheng 10, she always felt chest pain recently. It hurts a little, and I don't want to tell the doctor. Don't want to be hospitalized. But she was a little scared and didn't know what to do. Now her job is not very stable and she has been worried about economic problems.

Early in the morning, sitting in the hospital elevator, the hospital elevator in the small county was full of patients and their families, and Xu Nannan suddenly felt exhausted. Gosh, she was going to the ninth floor, but she couldn't help getting out of the elevator on the sixth floor. She squatted on the ground and suddenly couldn't see everything in front of her. Fortunately, after squatting, she slowly recovered. There have been many adverse reactions in the body recently. She didn't even talk to the doctor. She is afraid of spending her parents' money in the hospital. She has taken too much money from home recently. What she can't forget most is the latest sentence after her father transferred money to her countless times. Remember how much money I transferred to you? Maybe this sentence is a little sad for her now. She hates her incompetence. At the age of 20, she began to face up to the problem, but she couldn't change it. Otherwise, how could she go back to Micheng and never dare to set foot in that door that she hasn't been back in 1 year. She hates her incompetence and weakness and tries to change everything.

She has never been so eager for health. I want to go back to the carefree time. The freedom she longed for has never been with her, nor has it anything to do with her. Great changes have taken place in Xu Nannan's life in the past two years, which is very dramatic. Boyfriend's deception and the change of friends' relationship for several years have disappointed parents. She basically lost everything important. . Love, affection and friendship are all messed up. Now I don't even have my basic health.

One day after Christmas, Xu Nannan was lying in his hospital bed, refreshing his mobile phone and thinking about how to carry out the next work. But she seems to have a bad cold. I don't know if it's because of hospitalization that immunity decreases. All the patients around her are accompanied by their families, and it seems a little lonely and sad to be alone. She lay in bed feebly, sleepy. I don't know if the needle water was finished until the pain in the blood vessels in her hands woke her up from sleep. She slowly opened her eyes and weakly pressed the call bell in front of the bed. Unfortunately, the call bell in her hospital bed was broken, and the nurse station never heard her call. She is numb and can't walk to the nurse's station by herself with needle water. I don't know if it is because she is too weak. Hardly had she gone out when she fell down. Needles and infusion bags fly far away. When the needle was pulled out of the blood vessel, passers-by saw her and called the doctor at once, accusing the hospital of equipment and dereliction of duty. Fortunately, there is nothing wrong with people. Back in the hospital bed, she secretly shed tears unwillingly. But she doesn't want her mother to spend so much time taking care of herself.

I don't know how long she stayed in the hospital, but she was discharged safely. But my health is not as good as before, and I will faint if I have nothing to do all day.

After too many ups and downs in her work, she finally became the sales manager of Honghe Prefecture Branch and became one of the best local sales figures. She bought her favorite off-road jeep. I bought my own house in a small town, but my head often hurts and my stomach often hurts. Once, I fainted at the award ceremony of the company's annual meeting.

It was less than 10 day before the Spring Festival, and Xu Nannan suddenly fainted in front of the public. She was sent to the emergency room again, but this time, she never woke up. Sleep in that cold emergency room forever.

Later, when I was helping her sort out her relics, I saw a letter she wrote to her parents.

Mom and Dad, I'm sorry that I didn't bring you pride and joy like other children. When I was a child, I always wanted so-called freedom, leaving you to go far away. Living alone for many years, I learned to keep company with loneliness and even fell in love with the feeling of loneliness. I saw a lot of scenery and people, and some of them were full of enthusiasm. Some are calm and introverted. But I can't find anyone like me. Patients like me. I used to think I was healthy. Act naughty and pretend to be sick at school. How naive I was at that time. Why does a good man pretend to be sick? I didn't realize that I was not used to life here at all until I got back to Mi Cheng, but I dare not leave this city which is close to my parents, because I am afraid I will never see you again. I feel like a pathogen. Everyone around us lives a comfortable life, but it doesn't matter. Maybe God wants me to eat less, so he wants me to leave early. A year ago, I felt unwell and went to the hospital for an examination. The doctor said I had leukemia. Life needs repeated shocks to make your baby daughter grow up. I just spend less and less time with you. Daughter is unfilial, but fortunately, brother can always accompany you. I bought a house and a car with my father's name on it. This is the only thing my daughter can give you. My only wish is not to cry when you read this letter. I'm really afraid to see your tears. I should be your daughter in the next life, and I believe that God will give me a healthy body fairly at that time.

Your precious daughter: Nannan

After reading Xu Nannan's letter, it was messy in the wind. Some people pursue fame and fortune, love and dreams all their lives, but she, a little girl under 25, has been pursuing health since she was 20 years old. I remember the first time I met her, when I was in the second grade. Her natural curly hair makes her look a bit silly. She was petite, only 1.39. At that time, she was still a crying coward. I didn't expect it to surpass my friendship with her. I spent the next few years in her life. We go to class together and look forward to finishing school on Friday. We went shopping together and became non-mainstream. We worked together and experienced social ups and downs. On the way of growing up, we walked into the marriage hall with our childhood playmates. From a blank piece of paper to a piece of paper full of handwriting. Xu Nannan became my relative. She has experienced too much unbearable pain in recent years. But I always say nothing with a smile. The qualitative change of friendship. The betrayal of love. The torment of disease. What can you do? I always say that her life is like a TV series. But on the whole, people like you in TV dramas always have a happy ending. Now I can finally understand the joke you played on me that day. As long as I am alive, I will be fine.