Squandered youth

To me, yes or no, it doesn’t seem that important anymore.

It is said that we stand up at thirty, but I was wasting and squandering my time and all my luck.

Thirty-three years, a terrible number, records youth, ups and downs, joy, anger, sadness and joy. Indeed, the word "success" has never been recorded.

I was born in a poor family in 1988. With a cry, I came into the world. The countryside was like this at that time.

There are three sisters in my family, two older sisters and me.

At that time, the family planning policy was very strict, and I was born into a childbirth group.

Later, my mother often said, you bought it with money, and you have to study hard in the future to earn back the money you spent on me.

So, I started school when I was 6 years old. I started my learning career with a sack and a pair of cloth shoes with several holes.

Although life was difficult, I was successfully admitted to my ideal junior high school, Yangjiawan No. 2 Middle School.

After studying hard for three years, I ushered in the first college entrance examination in my life. With hope, I stepped into the college entrance examination classroom, waving my pen, and familiar words and formulas flashed before my eyes. , I handed in the paper in just a few dozen minutes.

Of course, it only took a few minutes to know that I had probably failed the class.

Before I could get my transcript, I hurriedly boarded the bus to Shenzhen to create another lifestyle of my own.

Shenzhen is a place where you will be spoiled if you don’t work hard. There I learned to be independent and understand the ways of the world. After staying there for a year, I made no money and spent all my money on my luck, so I took my girlfriend back to my hometown.

When you meet your elders, you will have a small family.

Before we knew it, we were running around all day for firewood, rice, oil and salt. A year later, we had our own child, and I also learned a job that could barely make a living. The money came in, but it could barely cover the family’s daily expenses.

Day after day, year after year, the children gradually went to school, and the family expenses also increased. At that time, my ability could no longer meet the family network expenses. Later, I handed over the children to Mom and dad helped take care of the child, and the mother and I once again embarked on a journey to work outside the home, but this time it was different. I went to study.

The mother of the child works in a factory, and her salary is 5,000-6,000 yuan a month, which is quite ideal. I continue to study in a design company, and I also have a salary that can meet my personal needs. Question, you can still save some.

After a year of further study, I can finally take charge of my own business.

I chose to go home and start a business. I first worked as a designer in a local decoration company. Through my own efforts, I was successfully selected as the design director, which started a glorious moment in my life.

However, the good times did not last long. Due to shareholder disputes, all the shareholders of the company withdrew their shares, leaving only a few senior executives. Of course, I was one of them. I stood out from the crowd and liquidated the company's property. The solution was re-planned and within three days we were open for business again.

After a year, with some success, he opened a decoration company in another place. The branch was twice as big as the original head office. The decoration and personnel recruitment were completed, and a *** investment was made. More than one million.

When I was preparing to make a career, God did play a huge joke on me.

The new coronavirus spread rapidly throughout China, and Guizhou also began to fall. There was no normal business for nearly half a year. We accepted high rents, suffered huge losses, and ushered in the victory of the nationwide protests.

But we slowly fell down. The company's projects were delayed, the owners came to make noises, the employees demanded wages, the material suppliers refused to supply, and the workers blocked the door.

In the end, I owed hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt and was involved in a lawsuit.

I thought about it several times and felt sorry for my family, and even more so for my wife who has always supported me.

I stood up again and opened a design studio with the help of friends. The studio business is still okay, but I no longer have the same momentum as before.

I am a little confused as to how to go in the future. How much time do I have left to continue to squander?