Why is it so far?

These days, many students who are taking the postgraduate entrance examination and preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination have left messages on the platform asking me if I have been particularly busy recently, so the article has not been updated.

@ A love that consumes everything: Mu Zi, the article has not been updated for a long time. Aren't you going to update it

@ Sangyu Nanxun: Hello, Mu Zi, I'm going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, but I'm still confused. I hesitate between dream and reality. I want to hear your opinions. Thank you.

@ The north wind blows: Hello, Mu Zi. It seems that the article has not been updated for a long time. However, I still have to say what I think. Thank you for your article to accompany me through this year and a half. Whenever I feel lonely and frustrated, your article always brings me a little comfort, which makes my eyes shine and gives me the courage to continue.

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I wrote an article with the same name before, which talked about my thoughts, needs and feelings about life when I passed half of Xuzhou at 1 am. Now, more than half a year has passed, and this feeling is getting stronger and stronger, especially when I am worried about indecision between stepping into society and chasing my dreams. Message to platform readers. I can't think of a better name. I think "it" is the best.

Like many students who failed in the postgraduate entrance examination, I also chose the road of postgraduate entrance examination, and it is a cross-examination. From mathematics to literature, the moment 180 degree turn, no brakes. Relatives, friends and classmates all said that they could not understand and even scoffed. I like dreaming, regardless of the cruelty of reality. In the face of these, I smiled without a word, and didn't even care. It may be that this stubborn ingredient is born in the bones, so that once it is decided, it is difficult to change.

Like the students who left a message above, whenever I encounter setbacks, difficulties, doubts and uncontrollable feelings, I will ask myself, "How did I get here?" ? When I was in the worst mood, I listened to Delacey's Dream Come True hundreds of times. Then when I was lying in bed at night, my intuition told me: "To give up my dream for many years, for an existence beyond reality." So, I became who I am now.

Ye Xiaodi, I met him in college. We often talk about some light topics. One day, Xiao Di sent me a WeChat saying that she was going to graduate soon, but she couldn't find a job. She has a thesis to write, an internship and a lot of things to do. I'm so busy these days that I'm about to explode.

Originally, the pressure was great, and everyone around me was very busy, and I didn't know who to talk to. Tell people around you, but you are afraid that others will say you are melodramatic; I feel like I told my sister that the only person in my family can understand me. What I got was not sympathy, but indifference. I was really depressed at that time, so I sent it to chat with me to relieve boredom.

I sent four words: "How did you come?"

She didn't speak for a long time and kept silent. After a long time, she sent a paragraph: "In order to be strong, in order to make myself have enough strength. Only when you are strong can you stand up straight and stop focusing on Nuo Nuo. In order to be good enough, others will notice you and attract more people. Therefore, we must work hard to become stronger, because the weak are humble beings. "

What about you? Why is it so far?

I replied: "I don't know who I will meet next, but I am sure that no matter what kind of person the other person is, he also longs for my Excellence, calmness and beauty." So I don't need to spend a lot of time asking myself why I'm here. Instead, all the waiting should be used to arm yourself. Just to meet the right person one day, I can confidently say, I know you are good, but I am not bad. "

Then there is no "then". Since then, Xiao Di's life has been much better, and his circle of friends has become more and more positive and optimistic.

Nietzsche said: People who know why they are alive can endure almost any suffering, and people who know why they are alive can endure any kind of life.

Last year, Mo Xiaobei was the only person in my familiar circle who chose to take the postgraduate entrance examination. Everyone else chose to find a job, practice and so on. Xiaobei is under great pressure to take the postgraduate entrance examination. During the period, after countless struggles, I thought about giving up countless times, but he persisted and his initial test results were good.

Xiaobei applied for the top major of a university, but was mistakenly transferred to aviation engineering. After careful consideration, Xiaobei decided to give up graduate school.

In the meantime, I also advised Xiaobei that the aviation engineering major of a university is also very popular, and it is still very popular when it comes out. You can go to the final interview before making a decision. But Xiaobei decisively chose to give up. Xiao Bei is such a stubborn person that I seem to see my own shadow from him. You can accept failure, you can bear cynicism, you can bear loneliness alone, but you will never be stable.

? Xiaobei went to participate in the recruitment of a big company these two days. Because Xiaobei's temperament and his own quality are excellent, he passed all the way, participated in the final interview and got the offer.

Then at the moment Xiaobei got the offer, she sent a circle of friends: "intentional planting of flowers, unintentional planting of willows." She is very grateful to fate. Although he was not admitted to the top major of a university, she made him practice fluent English during the one-year postgraduate entrance examination. So that in the interview, it did not affect the play at all, and the effect reached the extreme.

Life always seems unfair, but even so, no one takes advantage of anyone and no one loses anything.

Life is fair, and everyone has their own unique side. It is enough to keep his personality, do his best and have a clear conscience. Don't envy others' harvest, but ignore your own land.

? Qi Wenxue, my classmate in high school for three years, couldn't be better. We have the same dream, similar personality and almost the same temper. After the failure of the postgraduate entrance examination, the state has been relatively low. When she got up in the morning, she sent a circle of friends: "Last night, she talked with her mother for a long time. Mom wants her to take the civil service exam or World War II. But she feels that there should be more attempts in life and she doesn't want to bet all her bets on one thing. "

After a long struggle, she finally made up her mind. I don't know whether she chose to take the civil service exam, work or World War II, but from her firm tone, she can accept any choice and have enough enthusiasm to deal with any hardships and setbacks in life.

At this point, I don't know what to say. In my opinion, it is unnecessary to encourage her or comfort her. Everyone is the director of his own life, and others have no right to interfere. It's just that I still hope that she will have a good life in my heart, just like when we first met, we didn't forget our own initiative and finished what she started.

? In recent years, everyone around us has struggled, lost, helpless, wronged and dissatisfied with life, but in the face of the future, everyone is extremely tenacious, confident, hardworking, persistent and running. Entering a group of people, there will be contrast, loss, inferiority and loss. When you can come out, you can clearly tell yourself what you want, what you pursue and what kind of person you want to be.

I am not afraid of being sad occasionally, because I know there is still a long way to go; I'm not afraid to give up occasionally, because I know it's just my temporary weakness.

? We are all ordinary people, without innate superior conditions and privileged environment. Every day, we must live by our own efforts day by day.

There is a saying in "Ordinary World": "Even if people's hearts are scarred, they still have to struggle for survival and development in reality."

For a while, I had a deeper feeling about the sentence in my previous circle of friends. "When everyone thinks that my life is booming, no one knows what I have experienced. I just took a harder road than others. " Yes, sometimes you have to face sudden violent attacks in your life alone, and you have to put aside all the pain and emotional betrayal for this smelly bag. Maybe only in this way can you truly become an independent and complete person.

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About the author: Mu Zi, a poet, fashion photographer and independent writer, independently runs his official WeChat account "This is Xue Mei's Gone with the Wind skirt". Welcome attention.