Story

In late autumn, the road leading to our vegetable garden is full of golden leaves, which are so sacred and beautiful, and people's hearts are full of a sense of peace and security.

The breeze began to blow and some leaves rustled.

My husband came from the opposite side with a hoe and watering tools. When he saw me, he immediately smiled and waved to me.

I waved to him and smiled at him.

I am waiting for you under the tall tree and walking in the embrace of autumn. For a moment, I suddenly felt that this was the most beautiful and peaceful picture in my heart.

Standing at the intersection, feeling the wind, I suddenly remembered my twenty or thirty years of tossing life.

After graduating from university in 2004, I went to teach in a high school in a town in the Pearl River Delta. According to my parents, teaching is great, girl. It's not hard, and the salary is just as good. Just find a good man and be stable all your life.

I have been obedient and diligent for several years. Under the introduction of others, I married my current husband and had a daughter.

When my child was five years old, my heart gradually increased.

That Saturday night, I went back to my dormitory after studying at night. It's nearly ten o'clock. The youngest has fallen asleep, and my husband is waiting for me with the light on. In recent years, he has a holiday, always catching a bus for more than two hours, reuniting with the school where I work, and then rushing back the next afternoon. We are all high school teachers, and our vacation time is extremely limited.

After washing, I returned to my room. I thought he was asleep and just sat on the sofa and didn't want to move. I just sat there and forgot everything.

He turned to me and asked me, what's wrong?

I'm surprised. Oh, did I wake you?

He said slowly, you work too hard and the school is so tight.

I answered him that there was nothing I could do. Your city schools are not much better.

He said, I'm afraid you are too tired for a long time. For so many years, we have lived apart and our children have been with you. We get sick from time to time and go to the hospital. When you are old, it is difficult to attend training courses. If we can be together every day, I can help you share some.

I stood up and sat next to him and said, we have no access. Unless I resign, it will be difficult to transfer my job. But how can your own salary support so many of us?

He looked at me and said seriously, we can find something else to do. We don't have to be teachers. What's wrong with your seriousness?

My heart moved and I couldn't help smiling. How come I haven't thought about changing jobs? Even in 20 12, our township high school teachers were so poor that their salary was less than 2,000 yuan a month. However, for the sake of the enrollment rate, the school was very strict. They ate from 6 am to 0 pm 10, with 40 minutes in the middle, and they were always tired and anemia all the year round.

When I was a student, I was a young woman in literature and art. At that time, I was full of romantic imagination, loved literature all day, and regarded writing as the highest trust. My biggest goal was to be a writer.

But do I dare to resign now? Just for this establishment, how many people want to squeeze in.

He looked at me, shook my hand and said, I know, too. Everyone values its stability and retirement benefits, but life is not easy and you don't like it. I love you for grinding here all your life.

I looked into his eyes and couldn't speak at once.

02

After that night, the days suddenly changed.

I know it's hard for me to leave my job. I was born in the countryside, and I studied since I was a child, making ends meet. Now that I have a stable job, where can I leave my job?

On this day, I still returned to the dormitory at ten o'clock, and after washing, I was sitting in my room in a daze when I suddenly received a text message.

It's from my husband.

Once upon a time, you were in high spirits, looking at a flower and a tree, so affectionate; Reading a book, watching a movie, so happy; Looking after the children, I really like it. Now the downtown Evening News is recruiting reporters, and I think this job is more suitable for you.

I submitted my resignation letter to the headmaster. The then school director told me later that he was really young. Do you know what you gave up?

I left school with mixed feelings.

The family can finally live together. When the child goes to school in the city, her husband will help her with her homework and make close friends with her. I just quietly wrote a manuscript on the computer. In the dead of night, there is always a cup of hot water gently on my desk.

I often go to remote villages for interviews. Some people are born against us, and some articles are not good for me ... but I gradually overcome these difficulties, and every time I write an article, my joy is beyond words.

It is said that the newspaper office has a high salary. Although I didn't officially compile it, my income was really good because of my enthusiasm and many manuscripts.

After three years of this life, smart phones began to spread, paper media declined rapidly, and newspapers laid off employees one after another. Although I performed well, it won't be my turn for a while, but I am keenly aware that although I like it, I can't stick to it.

I often run outside, and my sense of crisis is getting heavier every day.

One day, I went to interview an off-campus training institution, and I was very happy to see the founders in high spirits. Their speeches were full of success, and I suddenly realized that this was a new wave.

Husband said that he used to be so haggard at school, but now he wants to open his own training school. Aren't you more tired?

I said, self-study and free time, I still like it. Besides, the popularity of paper media has passed, and I entered late. Now I have to find a way to watch my income get less and less!

Seeing that I had made up my mind, my husband sighed at me and said nothing. After two years of running around, he knew that I not only lost my youth, but also exercised my body, blushed, emboldened and gained a lot of knowledge.

I resigned again, took out my savings and started my own training class near a famous school.

I am full of ambition and think that I have been a teacher, and there is no problem at all. At the beginning, I decided to open four shops on the upper and lower floors. I was excited to decorate, invest money and manpower, and choose tutors from nearby universities. I felt that everything should be the best.

The husband just watched, noncommittally. I went my own way, as if success was just around the corner.

Developed, everything is really not that simple.

Open a shop to do business, the banner is magnificent, and the door is empty.

I stood at the door of the store, watching the children carrying schoolbags, one by one to go to the shops of their peers, without looking at me.

I finally can't sleep day by day.

03

What do we do? Every day, the classroom is empty, and the cost of the storefront, rent, water and electricity, and basic salary of employees all add up. How long can I stand it?

In desperation, I had to lay off employees and change to a small shop. There is only one employee and one manager, and that is me. Teach yourself everything and do your own service well.

I'm a liberal arts student, learning while teaching. From the beginning of Chinese teaching for primary school students, I sincerely like it, and so do children. Although English pronunciation is not very accurate, there is no problem in doing the questions.

A girl named Xiao Gan was the first to sign up. Every time after school, I sit in front of the door and look at those children with a smile. Once, she walked home with another classmate, and it happened to rain heavily. The children panicked and didn't know where to go. I told them to take shelter from the rain in the shop and call their parents to pick them up at the right time.

Her parents were very moved and told me that their place of work was far away. In fact, they really want to find a homework class. They spoke to me very harshly. Miss Fang, we want our children to do their homework at your place, but can you help us pick them up at the school gate after school? We really can't arrive on time.

How can I not understand the hard work of office workers with children? Of course, I promised them enthusiastically.

After all, I was a reporter. I used to interview in many communities, and some people will remember me. When I held up a sign at the gate of that famous primary school, it was equivalent to announcing my present occupation to those people.

An aunt saw me and said, Oh, isn't this an evening newspaper reporter? Why are you here?

Then she saw the sign I took, suddenly understood something, and began to whisper to people around her.

I remember when I just resigned from school, I was afraid to say hello to people, especially when I met the leaders. I should have done a good job in psychological construction, but now I am satisfied with myself. When I saw the children coming out, I immediately smiled, stuffed them with healthy snacks and took them to the store to study.

When I was not in class, I began to study all the courses in primary and junior high schools, bought a set of test questions and pondered them myself. If I don't understand them, I ask my husband that he is too busy to teach math in high school. Of course, in-service teachers are forbidden to make up lessons without permission. I forbade him to come to my shop, but he always taught me a lesson when I asked him questions.

Slowly, I will also teach social science in junior high school; When you have solved the math problem, you can do it, and it is no longer difficult to show the children the way.

Once, I took Xiao Gan to the store and found that the child had a bad cough and no cold symptoms, so I called the child's mother to report the situation. Then, I gave Xiao Gan a diet in the way of taking care of my children.

Unexpectedly, Xiao Gan's mother called me the next morning and said that the child's cough had greatly improved, and she was extremely grateful to me in her words.

In fact, I only study and think occasionally, so that children can take less medicine.

Not long after, Xiao Gan's mother called me. Teacher Fang, my children's test scores suddenly reached the top ten in the class! It's incredible. I thought I'd leave it to you, but I didn't expect it to progress so fast! Now she is used to doing homework with you, the child said, and she likes Miss Fang.

I listened politely for a while, and I was naturally happy.

I'm not good at advertising, and parents don't get kickbacks for introducing students. However, more and more children come to the store to do homework and course counseling, and the number of repeat customers increases. I think I can finally make money and pay off my old debts, so I can relax.

In this process, I have gone for five years and successfully survived the difficult days that are easy to break out. When the store became more and more lively, the double swords came.

04

I am really in distress situation, holding the refund form and looking at the empty storefront, I can't help sighing about my life for more than ten years.

After graduation, I became a high school teacher and resigned. Well, it is said that the school has been merged into the municipal government, and the wages and benefits have increased several times.

When I became a reporter, I finally got familiar with my business and got a high salary for two years. I didn't expect the paper media to pass the tuyere period soon.

I ran a discipline training class and experienced some setbacks. Unexpectedly, just on the right track, the tuyere period has passed.

I wonder when my husband came in. He said, this is not your fault. Don't be sad. I'm glad it didn't expand. We must refund the rent here. Let's deal with these things first and then plan the future.

We settled all the bills together and came to the conclusion that my income in the past few years after I resigned was zero.

My husband didn't drive, so I followed him slowly back.

We were speechless all the way. My husband just asked me to hold his arm and lead me forward.

Our house in the city was bought many years ago. It's old, but it's warm to walk in. My daughter is in the second grade. She looked at me and smiled. She put her arms around my shoulder and said, mom, I will be in grade three next year. Can you stay with me for a year? My homework is average.

I said, but ...

Husband came over and said, yes, your mother is relieved now and can be your full-time tutor.

A smile appeared on her daughter's face. Great, mom, welcome back to your family!

I glanced at my husband, who smiled at me for a while and then at his baby daughter for a while.

In the evening, my husband saw me in a daze and sat next to me and began to enlighten me.

You, forget it. How many people can predict in advance in their lifetime? Look at my parents. They could have been teachers when they were young, but at that time the factory made a lot of money and went to the factory. After working for twenty or thirty years, the benefits were poor and I had to be laid off. Later, I barely made up the social security. How can the pension I get now compare with the pension I get from my teacher? Who do you think they are crying with? There are many such cases. ...

Fortunately, my father adapted quickly, and the couple soon opened a shop to repair electrical appliances. They are good at technology and will not be eliminated. Now their life is still good. Now the pension is not enough to live, and there are still many. All because I didn't catch up with the tuyere period. I can't seem to say that, can I?

You are young, just forty, and you have accumulated so much experience. We'll find another way, step by step. In such an open era, where can we be hungry? Besides, if not, there's me!

I smiled at him, embarrassed to cry.

He said, don't laugh so ugly! Our daughter is right. You should take care of her study first. No matter how the times change, her daughter is the foundation of our happiness for the rest of our lives.

I looked down.

He said, actually, I'm quite happy. You stayed at home for a year. Besides taking good care of your daughter, you can also relax and think about the future slowly, ok?

I said, get to know my former colleagues and don't laugh at me behind my back. ...

The husband smiled. Oh, I also said that you have made progress over the years. I didn't expect you to be so narrow-minded No matter what others say, who has more experiences and stories than you? ……

He suddenly became excited. Tell you what, grow vegetables with me first. I like growing vegetables! I rented a small piece of land in the suburbs, and the owner said I could plant it for ten years. If possible, we'll go and have a look. I just want to take you to a place with a good environment when I retire, and we can plant a piece of land well! Hey, maybe this is the exit of eternity.

I smiled at him and he smiled back at me. Everything seems to be just the beginning.