"Life, just bring it on, I'm not afraid of you!"

After graduating from June 20 17, he drifted north, and then drifted to Hangzhou in June 20 19. Now he has become a Shanghai drifter.

Along the way, I was alone.

Just graduated, a person carrying a suitcase, carrying a schoolbag and submitting a resume. After that, he ran to the interview in the scorching sun, and only ran for three days and got a monthly salary of 4 K. A man rented a house, lived in a remote suburb and rented an illegal apartment in 850 yuan on a monthly basis. Later, he was seized and driven away by a black intermediary. It takes an hour to go to work by bus and 20 minutes by bike. The monthly salary deducted 80% of the five insurances and one gold tax and the internship period, and actually got 2600 yuan. A box of instant noodles can be eaten for a month, and later it is found that noodles are cheaper than instant noodles. Cooking noodles with water is the worst meal I have ever eaten. Eat while crying.

It was during that time that I tried to write a manuscript and I wanted to change. But you know what? It is not so easy for a fresh graduate from two universities to stay in Beijing without work experience.

But what people who have nothing lack most is the courage to struggle.

There was only one belief at that time: I must stay in Beijing. So many people can do it, so can I.

I worked overtime again and again to revise the manuscript until evening 12, and even stayed up all night.

I will always pay attention to industry recruitment, and I want to seize the opportunity. On weekends, I will run 6 kilometers to attend lectures by industry leaders.

Not letting go of face is an obstacle for many people to move forward. That's only because you're not cornered. At that time, face was nothing, and seizing the opportunity was everything.

I want to change. I want to go to a company with better pay.

I have been in Beijing for a year and a half, and I have changed four companies. From the monthly salary of 4k to 9k, from the new media white to being responsible for a large size.

From enthusiasm to anxiety and depression. From obedience to independent thinking.

When people grow up, pain is inevitable, which can make you live more clearly and clearly.

Know what you want. Know what you can do. Know how to live a happier life.

Understand how individuals treat themselves in the social environment.

A mature adult should be able to take care of himself. It is yourself who let yourself fall into the abyss, and only you can pull yourself out.

What matters is action and trying.

When you don't know what to do, as long as you move, you are moving forward.

20 19 65438+ 10 to June, I gave myself half a year's annual leave.

I went to more than ten cities by myself, took many photos and met many interesting people who love life. I found two hobbies, photography and travel.

Miss college life, go back by car and rent a house next to my alma mater for two months. The house next to the school is really cost-effective for people who have rented a house in Beijing. Renting a room in 700 yuan every month is much better than renting a room with a monthly rent of 2,600 yuan in Beijing. The happiness brought by a satisfactory house is really strong.

I have moved four times in Beijing, but I have always been reluctant to call the rental house "home" and never bought unnecessary things to decorate it. In my mind, it is just a place to go back to sleep after work, and I don't want to waste too much money on it. The requirement of renting a house is to be close to the company and the rent is cheap.

Do you think this request is a bit ridiculous? How can the house near the company be cheap? Of course it's possible. Partition the room, kitchen, and push the door to be the bed. Nothing can be put down in the room except the bed and wardrobe. The window is the size of two pieces of A4 paper, and there is no air conditioning. It is hot enough in summer. I spent 30 yuan to buy a small electric fan.

So when I rented the satisfactory room next to my alma mater, I lay in bed, sat at my desk and stood in front of the bright big window, and I couldn't help laughing. I want to live seriously for the first time. Bought a bunch of flowers online, changed new sheets and pasted wallpaper. I will get up early, exercise, clean the room, eat in the school cafeteria and learn jazz dance in the dance club. I can read books, write articles, take photos and go out to take photos.

Of course, a comfortable life can't last long without deposit protection, but it is during this comfortable time that I can temporarily put aside my stress and anxiety and think about what I really like to do. Because I love it, I can persist in my work for a long time.

In the meantime, the company I really like will also submit resumes. Although the interview failed because of poor expression, it is worthwhile to know the lack of thinking in the interviews of a few industry leaders.

Two months later, I still haven't figured out what I want to do, and then I can only find an acceptable job first. After all, I can't live without money.

As far as my strengths are concerned, I think my learning ability is not bad. A year and a half's experience of drifting north has given me enough confidence not to worry about not finding a job below 8k. Later, I received an offer from a large new media editor in Guangzhou with a monthly salary of 7K, saying that the price in Guangzhou is not as high as that in Beijing.

Later, I felt that there was really no need to run so far to earn a higher salary than before and do a job I didn't like very much.

Work, either to make money or to be happy.

When I think of my past work, the happiest thing is the time when I worked as a receptionist in Beijing Youth Travel Service last semester. Although hard, I am really happy.

Gemini's agitation makes me want to meet different people and listen to different stories every day, and I have carefree time after work.

So I contacted the front desk of a private villa near the scenic West Lake in Hangzhou. Besides accommodation, there is also a tea bar in Shu Min, just to let you know about the tea ceremony, with a basic salary of 3,000 to 4,000 yuan. I don't care much about the exact amount. After all, what I value is the working hours of eight hours a day and the quiet and elegant environment.

No job is easy, either hard or labor.

People are very strange, inertia is a weakness of people. Although they are dissatisfied with the current environment, they are often content with the status quo and have no courage to jump out of their comfort zone. Instead of going to a new environment and starting all over again and staying in this familiar and relaxed environment, it is better to endure it.

Dreaming is my second strength. How can you be willing to endure poverty after seeing prosperity, and how can you be willing to be a salted fish after fighting the storm?

I have been telling myself in my heart that stopping this year is for a better start. I only gave myself half a year, and then I left after half a year to do what I thought and loved, or to do my old job again and be an emotional editor without feelings.

(To be continued)