The mental journey of the public examination

I didn’t make many goal plans in 2015. My biggest goal was to pass the civil service examination.

That year, I faced the transition from a student to a society. I had a lot of confusion and also a lot of expectations for the future. I still remember that when the classmates around me were getting up early for interviews, I was playing mahjong with my friends. It was not that I was not doing my job properly, but I was very clear about my goals and the routines of the so-called job fairs. I have to say that in college, I had too many ways to acquire knowledge. Being single, I seem to do everything as others do, and I can live an easy life after multiplying. When I was in my junior year, I made a firm goal to take the civil service exam, and started to concentrate on preparation instead of thinking about finding a job. Unfortunately, when I took the first provincial exam, I had no experience and failed because I applied randomly. Find a job, but things are not what you want. An ordinary resume with two academic qualifications made me repeatedly hit the wall when looking for a job. There was no offer for me in the job I wanted. I even lowered my standards and started to work in sales, but sales failed. The hard work was beyond my imagination. I hated the so-called words and sales tactics. Finally, with the comfort of my family, I chose to continue preparing for the public examination.

It would be a lie to say that there is no pressure. At that time, all my classmates had already found jobs, but I was preparing for the exam at home. I always felt that it would be shameful for my parents to tell them, and I have very poor self-control. The learning atmosphere allowed me to calm down and do my work, so my parents gave me some money to attend training classes, so I stayed at a relative's house and started a new round of study. The process of learning is painful but also joyful. I go to a strange environment and sit in a classroom with dozens of people who have the same dream. I feel sticky after just sitting for a few hours in the hot summer. Everyone around me knows each other and I It was still a bit embarrassing to sit there and listen to the lecture without knowing anyone. Fortunately, I later met A Mei, Bobo, and Xiao Ma in the class, and quickly established a deep friendship. We studied and ate together every day, occasionally relaxed together, and then listened to lectures and answered questions every day.

I took the light rail (similar to the subway) from my second aunt's house for a few stops to the training class at around 7 o'clock every morning. I didn't feel tired even though I got up so early every day, and I went home around nine o'clock every night. After returning home, I still have to do after-school exercises, but I often don’t take them too seriously when doing exercises. I usually eat duck necks bought by my second aunt and watch TV. Every day is very fulfilling. During the day, I study and answer questions more seriously. The learning atmosphere is really important to me. Every time I take the quiz in the training class, I concentrate on answering the questions and get relatively good results. , but as soon as I got home, my answers were all messy, and the teaching assistant doubted whether he could answer alone. So I really need an atmosphere, and I also think a good learning atmosphere and environment are important.

After the training, I studied by myself in the training class for several days. Every time I felt that there was not enough time to do the questions, and I always felt that I could not finish them. Many times, I failed to break through and reached the bottleneck period, which made me frustrated and annoyed. , but the optimists are always full of expectations and can’t wait to go to the examination room to end these days of anxiety.

After the exam, I felt relaxed all over. Maybe it was God’s will. I felt that my grades might not be particularly good, but I could successfully land. I wait for the results at home every day and don’t dare to go out to play. However, my parents are afraid that I won’t be able to get in for the interview and want me to be prepared. They helped me find a job in a company. Jobs in companies wait for no one, but I always want to wait for the results of the written test. , so I look forward to the results every day to give myself a happy moment. At that time, my hair was really falling out in handfuls. I was still taking a nap at home on the day when my results came out. My study partners had already discussed it in the group. After I woke up in a daze, I opened the query with a trembling hand. System, when I found out that I was ranked first in the position, I really felt that everything was worth it, and I felt that I was really great. I couldn't wait to tell my mother and father at work about my results. My father was very calm at the time and said he knew, but he immediately came home from work and confirmed with me over and over again whether he was the first.

When my mother came home from work, I laughed at first and then burst into tears. I felt that the aggrieved mood I had held for so long was finally released. It was as if I was saying, look, I really have this ability. I also recalled that I was never sure that I could The fearlessness when looking for a job and focusing on taking the civil service exam, and the sadness of being entangled to death when applying for a job. The most frustrating thing is the process of waiting for results. But all of this is the only way to go, and you must be mentally strong to overcome the psychological burden.

Immediately afterwards, I went to the unfamiliar city where the position was located for a qualification review. It is true that the harder you work, the luckier you are. When you only have one goal, the whole world will make way for you. During the qualification review, I also found out that the second place , the third place result was slightly different from my result, and I suddenly felt full of confidence. Next, I happily participated in the interview class with my friends Meimei and Xiaoma whom I met in the written examination class. Many times, I have that shameless and confident spirit. I believe that with my language skills, I can definitely crush my opponents in interviews. Although I was very confident, I still practiced the interview questions seriously according to the teacher's requirements every day. What I was thinking was that this written test was not easy to be the first, so I must not miss the opportunity and I must succeed. Fortunately, both Meimei and Xiao Ma successfully entered the interview with first place results (and in the end, the three of us seized the opportunity to go ashore directly, and Abo also successfully went ashore this year), and we became familiar with strangers because of the same goal. It feels wonderful and wonderful to become friends and work together to encourage and help each other. We also discipline each other during the interview and eat and drink together. To this day, I can still remember the smell of the cold northeastern air in November, and how I went from being sticky and sweating in the classroom in the summer to being so cold in the early morning in early winter. My favorite song at that time was "No More Hesitation" by the band Beyond. Listening to this song on the light rail every day made me feel extremely determined. Then I practiced every day to overcome my nervousness. In the end, even the teacher said that I had practiced without any problems. I continued to prepare some detailed work and learned it over and over again to avoid mistakes during the interview.

The next step is the interview. I will be nervous during the interview, but once I enter the real Q&A, there is no time to be nervous. The whole answering process is relatively smooth. There are some lags in some places, but overall it is still very good. Satisfied. The interview score is after the next person answers your question, you can go in and listen to your own score. Not surprisingly, my score was good, because I could see the satisfaction with me from the examiner's face. In the final interview, I was still ranked first in the position. , the 27-person group finished second (maybe it would have been first if it hadn’t stalled at that time). It's just that I'm still a little uneasy because I don't know the results of my competitors. When I was notified of the physical examination a few days after the interview, my family and I were completely relieved, knowing that I was really one step away from landing.

After successfully passing the physical examination and going through some reviews, I came to a strange city alone. I instantly transformed from a college student who didn’t have to think about anything to a newcomer in the workplace. I worked hard with my colleagues who joined the same batch in the cold. When I was looking for an apartment in winter, I was so cold that I almost cried. I also cried several times at home because I went to work too suddenly and was not prepared. But after I came to the unit, I quickly adapted to it, and every day was full and happy. (For details, please see my other article "A person can live a fulfilled life")

In the blink of an eye, it has been more than three years since I started working. I have advanced from a newbie in the workplace, and I am here. I found like-minded friends in a strange city, I went from being confused to establishing my goals at work, I also met my lover, and I lived steadily and steadily every day. Although there were ups and downs and many detours along the way, I kept making mistakes and making progress. I believe the future will be better.

If you are willing to learn from my mistakes in the workplace, then I will write a piece of workplace advice for you, hoping that all people can take fewer detours, have fewer setbacks, and make more progress. Let's do our best together.

I wish everyone who reads this article can achieve their goals and succeed in the public examination.