Is it difficult to take the postgraduate entrance examination?

How can I put it this way? When I took the postgraduate entrance examination, I just blindly followed the trend and took the postgraduate entrance examination. Unfortunately, I was born in Shandong Province, which is relatively conservative in thinking. Shandong people have a saying that there are three types of unfilial piety: "One is not taking public exams, the other is not taking editorial exams, and the third step is to take postgraduate exams." As a poor student who has never passed the Shandong Province undergraduate college entrance examination, I never thought that one day I would be able to join the ranks of graduate students.

After I graduated from junior college to bachelor's degree, I thought about finding a job after graduation, because after all, I am not young anymore, but I couldn't withstand the influence of ordinary undergraduate degrees around me. When I first entered the undergraduate school, I saw the students in other classes preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. A few thoughts flashed through my mind at that time, but I gave up immediately. I know my level well, and I am not afraid of everyone’s jokes. Until now I haven't passed CET-4 yet. You can imagine my situation at that time. The most important thing is that our major requires mathematics, and my mathematics foundation is limited to the advanced mathematics foundation from the junior college period. I don’t know what linear algebra and probability theory are. I was asked to take the postgraduate entrance examination and give it a hammer.

But parents in Shandong always follow the trend. Seeing that other people’s children are taking the postgraduate entrance examination, how can they miss their own children? I clearly remember the semester near the end of the first year of my undergraduate degree. , parents will call you almost every day to persuade you to take the postgraduate entrance examination, but they don’t want to think about whether their children have that strength and ability? Later, I had no choice but to agree first. In order to prove my determination, I asked my family for two years to buy online courses from New Oriental’s public courses. I remember the person selling online courses asked I wanted to take the exam, but I didn’t have any goals at the time. I just said to study first.

Summer vacation is coming soon. If I hadn’t taken the postgraduate entrance examination, it would have been the last summer vacation in my life. At that time, our teacher said that now you should start to set your goals and prepare for professional courses at the target colleges and universities. I was thinking that I can’t stay in Shandong all my life. I want to go out. Although I don’t have high hopes, what if? In view of my own strength, I chose Guidian as the target school. I had little experience at the time, so I bought a copy of Guidian’s professional course materials on Taobao. It cost me nearly 300 yuan, but unfortunately it was of no use. I bought it as scrap paper when I graduated. I don’t know what happened that year. Guidian’s admissions brochure was released very late. The examination syllabus was not released until the end of September, and the professional courses were suddenly changed. I read the admissions professional catalog three times at that time. I really didn’t believe myself. My eyes, I don’t know why, but the professional courses in that year were different, and they were changed back in the second year.

I remember that there were still more than eighty days before the postgraduate entrance examination. At this time, I almost had no hope, but I felt that all the money had been spent and didn’t want to give up, so I spent the entire October looking for schools and tried professional courses. I studied several courses, and when I started to sign up, I remembered that one of my classmates was studying at a dual-featured school in Qingdao, so I contacted him and applied directly to his school. But after studying professional courses for a while, I found that I couldn’t learn anymore. I had no choice but to consider changing schools. By chance, I saw the professional course test questions from another dual-featured school in Qingdao and found that they were quite easy for me, so about a week before the registration system was closed, I switched to the school I am currently studying at.

I don’t know if it was just luck, but my math score happened to be at the national level that year. I encountered the epidemic and caught up with the expansion of enrollment, so I came to shore in a daze. Others were happy when they saw the admission results. , and I am sad. When I saw the research directions of the tutors, none of them had heard of it, and none of them wanted to do it. There was no double selection meeting when selecting tutors at the beginning of the semester. I was almost sold out as free labor. My classmates around me were already working. I am still spending money from my parents. I am in my twenties and still have no financial resources. The gap is obvious immediately.

Anyway, I just didn’t adapt to all kinds of problems. I even took English courses again. Coupled with all the unsatisfactory conditions, I suffered from severe depression in the first semester. I was thinking every day why I wanted to study abroad. Why am I so reluctant to take the postgraduate entrance examination? After thinking about it for a long time, I still have no answer.

After a winter vacation, I slowly adjusted. In the second semester, which is this semester, I went to the school's job fair and found that it is really difficult to find a job in my direction, because graduate students look at your research direction, not just your profession.

In fact, the higher you go, the narrower it becomes. Undergraduate students only look at your major, while graduate students depend on your direction. So now I have turned many of my possibilities into impossibilities, but there is no way. The path is chosen by myself. Even if I regret it and cry, I have to finish it and survive until graduation. That is really a relief. .