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Zhou is from Shangqiu, Henan. 200 1 studying in xidian university. Unlike other students, his admission unit is the self-study counseling center of this university. Moreover, this notice was not issued by the school, but by the staff of an enrollment point at the entrance of a middle school in Shangqiu City. He drew one from a pile of admission notices, filled in his name and handed it to him. Later, Zhou learned that these two enthusiastic staff members were actually self-taught candidates in the last two sessions of this university.

But it is this relaxed admission notice that makes Zhou Le happy. After studying hard for more than ten years, I was finally admitted to the university. The family is also very happy, setting off firecrackers to celebrate. Zhou said that he didn't want to disappoint his family, so he didn't tell his parents that he had been admitted to the self-taught college entrance examination. Zhou's college entrance examination score was not low, 493, but he was squeezed off the bridge by the college entrance examination army in Henan. After coming to Shaanxi, this made him even more unconvinced, because this score can be successfully read as an undergraduate in Shaanxi.

Another reason why Zhou chose to take the self-taught exam is that the tuition fee is relatively low. Zhou also has two sisters at school, one brother joined the army, and both parents are laid-off workers. They do some small business in the city and earn only enough money to make ends meet. Therefore, I don't want to choose the repeat week. First of all, he has to pay a lot of money for repeat reading. Even if you repeat one year and go to college, you still have to pay nearly 10 thousand yuan in tuition. Zhou said that the similar tuition and miscellaneous fees for unified enrollment in that year were 7200 yuan, and he only needed to pay 4300 yuan. According to the admissions staff, starting from the second school year, the tuition fee paid is less than this, as long as 3000 yuan is enough. Later, he realized why he lost 1300 yuan from the second year. This difference is the percentage of tuition fees paid by the admissions staff from each enrolled student.

That year, he and dozens of students and parents from the same city came to this university by chartered bus. They are arranged to visit schools, teaching buildings, libraries, gymnasiums and gardens. At this time, the admissions staff become tour guides and commentators, and don't forget to tell them when introducing the scenic spots. In the future, these places can go in and out at will, and it is very convenient to study and exercise. Some parents in this group know that their children are coming to take the self-study exam, but they don't ask much. A day later, all the money was paid, and the receipt was stamped with the red seal of the self-study counseling center of the computer department.

Later, Zhou gave an account. There are 23 students in his group, and each student gets a commission of 1300 yuan (in fact, according to the rules, students who exceed 10, or more than 20 students, the commission will increase by several hundred yuan). 1.300 yuan times 23 is 29,900 yuan, which is 65,438+. In addition, they later went back and got two batches, which means that each admissions officer can earn more than 30 thousand in a summer vacation! And most of them are teachers in the same school.

● (2) The reality that the psychological gap is getting bigger and bigger

Zhou began to choose computer major, and later transferred to business administration major. Because he heard that the textbook for computer major was very old, he couldn't practice it at all and didn't do well in the exam, so he thought about it and changed it. It's easy to adjust your major. Just tell the class teacher.

After he transferred to industrial and commercial enterprise management, he was ambivalent again, because he heard a fellow villager say that the major of computer department was not as good as that of mechanical and electrical college. This made him very confused. Why do so many departments have this major? There is no unified arrangement in the school? The fellow villagers told him that eight departments of this university have their own self-study counseling centers, and each department has about 10 majors, all of which are so-called hot majors, such as computer, international trade, industrial and commercial enterprise management, housing construction and so on. It is usually managed by the self-study counseling center of the school, but it has become an opponent when enrolling students. The most obvious point is to compete to raise agency fees to attract recruiters to send the recruited students to the department.

And that's when the psychological gap began. To Zhou's first disappointment, their dormitory is not in the school, but in a residential building two roads away from the school, which is mixed with many gloomy residential buildings in the city. Such a village is the heritage of Xi 'an's urban construction. Locals call it "village in the city", which sounds like a quiet downtown. In fact, every village is dirty and messy, and there are many hidden dangers. The department rented a whole house as their dormitory. There is only one small bathroom in each building. There is no heating, air conditioning, fan and TV, and there is no bathroom.

Zhou tried his best to adapt to this environment because he knew that he had no way out. At this time, several students can't stand it. They asked the department to drop out of school, but the department leader refused. After repeated entreaties, each of them left the school with the returned 1 0,000 yuan. Zhou once wavered and wanted to talk to someone, but he was surrounded by people he didn't know yet, and he couldn't tell his family. Besides, what he said to his family may not be understandable, so it was so contradictory during that time.

What disappoints Zhou more than accommodation is that they didn't attend classes in the teaching building at all as promised by the admissions staff. The places where self-taught candidates enrolled by various departments attend classes are vacant rooms that have not been used for a long time by this department. The desks are varied and damaged, and the blackboards are mostly wrenches standing on the desks-this is not even comparable to their study conditions in high school.

The teacher also has problems. Originally, our school taught by professors and lecturers, but as a result, they all became people who didn't know their true identities. After a long time, I realized that they were not teachers in our school, but graduate students in our school and part-time staff in other schools. For example, the lecturer of the course "Human Resource Management" is the personnel supervisor of a company in the city; Economics was hired by a graduate student in the School of Economics and Management of Northwest University ... At first, the students still had opinions. When they asked the department leaders, the answers they got were always suitable for the teachers. But these teachers do deal with students, bring textbooks to class, read some books, then talk about some social hotspots and leave after class. Zhou felt that he could not learn anything from these "teachers", so he found his own study room after class and really worked overtime.

The study room is the teaching building of the school. At first, Zhou was carrying a schoolbag and looking for an empty classroom with other students. Zhou said that sitting in this spacious and comfortable classroom, he can really feel the taste of being a college student only when the sound of turning pages rings. But finally once, when he came back from the bathroom, he found that the textbook on the table was missing, and there was a couple sitting on the seat, so he asked him if he had seen his book. The boy glanced at him sideways and pointed to the trash can behind the classroom. Zhou asked him who threw it, and the boy stood up and struck the table: If you took the exam by yourself, don't take this! Eyes suddenly gathered around. Zhou was stunned. This is the first time that he felt insulted as a self-taught student. Without saying anything, he went to the back of the classroom, picked out his schoolbag from the trash can, left the classroom, and then ran to the empty dormitory and cried for a long time. Half a month later, Zhou went to study in the classroom again, but all his books were wrapped in book covers. Zhou said that he wanted to use a quiet study environment to regain his confidence.

(3) A long process of self-discipline.

The students used the test scores to prove what role the irresponsible teaching methods of those teachers played —— in 20065438+0 1 year, they collectively took the public compulsory examination, Marxist philosophy and Deng Xiaoping for the first time. Small? Introduction to table tennis theory. The passing rate of 240 self-taught candidates in the whole department is less than 60%; In April of the following year, among the 48 students majoring in business administration in our department, only 1 passed the compulsory professional examination, accounting, economic law, introduction to enterprise management and enterprise finance, with an average of only two courses. According to the arrangement of the self-study examination department of higher education in Shaanxi Province, April and 10 are professional examinations, and 1 0 and July are public examinations. However, there are only two specialized courses with different courses, that is to say, each specialized course has only one chance to pass the exam every year. Not much this time. We have to wait another year.

Zhou's public course has been successfully passed. In his words, these public classes are the "ideological politics" of high school; But he failed in the professional exam. Although the result was good, he was still sad for a long time. He doesn't know what others are like, but he can't afford to delay this year.

The missed course became his motivation to push himself. Teachers can attend classes selectively, but they are very serious when studying. In every class, I make some small notebook notes, and I do one set of exercises after another. He said that there was so much tension in high school. But every time he enters the teaching buildings that don't belong to him, he feels a little nervous, because there are inspectors checking the student ID cards from time to time at the door, one is to prevent thieves and others, and the other is to control the students who take the self-taught exams. Zhou has a student ID card, which is issued by the department. The class teacher said that it was the same as unified recruitment, but he was always recognized as a self-taught candidate, which made him puzzled. What is the student ID card for unified enrollment?

Although he spends all his time studying, Zhou still hopes that his department and class can have some group activities, but rarely, once or twice, it is nothing more than badminton competitions or something. The head teacher is also a graduate of the last few self-taught exams. He tells students about his exam experience all day and does nothing else.

Zhou pays great attention to the activity posters posted in front of the school cafeteria and admires these unified enrollment activities. As long as there is no restriction, he will attend. Zhou also signed up for a volunteer activity in the countryside sponsored by Love Society, but the person in charge found that he was a self-taught student and some disagreed. After listening to Zhou's explanation, the person in charge was moved by his sincerity and intelligence, and not only accepted him as a member. And gave him the position of deputy director of the external relations department.

By 2003, Zhou had been in Ann for almost two years, and he got a diploma from junior college and another course. It is not easy to finish the course 16 in two years, because only two of the 48 students in the weekly class are missing this course. Zhou said that although he was a little sorry for being hungry because of the fall of this course, he was still very satisfied with the results he got after his efforts. He originally wanted to finish this course in April, apply for a junior college diploma, and then continue to study for the self-taught undergraduate course. But SARS that year frustrated his plan. The school is closed, because all the self-taught students stay outside and can't get into the school. The department took an indefinite long vacation. The sample test in April was also cancelled by the provincial examination office. Zhou began to be confused and stayed in the dark dormitory all day, at a loss.

It was not until August that everything basically returned to normal. Zhou's college graduation plan has been delayed for half a year. From June, 2003 to June, 2004, Zhou began to tackle key problems in the course of Business Enterprise 12. Until the end of the last exam in June 2005. The following year 1 month, Zhou received the undergraduate diploma of Dahong and got drunk. The next day, he sold all the textbooks beside his bed, at 40 cents a catty, and got 13 yuan.

● (4) The bumpy road to job hunting

Happiness is always temporary. Zhou, who got his diploma, began to look for a job eagerly-because his family didn't know he was taking the self-taught exam until now, thinking that he had studied for four years last summer and graduated. Zhou didn't tell his parents that he had graduated last summer and was looking for a job. In September, he called home and said that he had found a job and sent home 300 yuan. This 300 yuan was just earned after a month of tutoring. Next, his pressure is even heavier. He not only sends 300 yuan to his family every month, but also tries to support himself while waiting for his graduation certificate. Zhou said that the professional course exam in June+10 last year was the most stressful one for him, because once something went wrong this time, although the policy of self-taught examination in Shaanxi changed, there was no need to wait another year, but it would take three months to make up the exam, and one month could not be delayed.

So Zhou got his diploma and started looking for a job nonstop, which was something he had to worry about. According to China Employment Network, the number of college graduates in Shaanxi Province in 2006 is expected to be 6,543,800+8,000, a record high. Whether the graduation certificate of self-taught examination that Zhou spent four and a half years working hard will be more valuable than the graduation certificate of ordinary college students, as people say, is the time for field verification.

From 1 February 2 1 to now, in three months, Zhou * * * attended the job fair of 1 1 and submitted 56 resumes. As a self-taught candidate, she was rejected on the spot 19 times, submitted 37 copies, and received interview calls twice. Today, she wants to get an interview in this yellow sand sky.

As a graduate majoring in business administration, although I have studied in xidian university for more than four years, my diploma is stamped with the seals of the Examination Institute of Xi University of Technology and the self-study examination of higher education in Shaanxi Province. It was the second seal that caused Zhou to be rejected on the spot by 19.

Zhou's resume has three pages, and the graduation school on the cover is Polytechnic University. On the second page, his routine social practice made him a little embarrassed, because he was tired of reading textbooks in recent years and didn't have much time to participate in other things. And this is exactly taboo for many units, so in the end he wrote down some activities to participate in rural volunteers and high schools. The content on the third page is what other graduates don't have, that is, his experience in taking the self-taught exam-Zhou hopes that a recruiter can look at what he wrote and give him an exception.

Zhou said that if he could give 800 yuan money, he could do it now. Moreover, through years of solid and serious study, he has been familiar with the management of industrial and commercial enterprises, but as a fresh graduate, this may be a bit arrogant, but at work, he can apply what he has mastered to the maximum extent in less than half a year.

Zhou went out and walked to the property management office of a real estate company in the growing yellow wind, hoping that he could cross this violent sandstorm and usher in a brand-new tomorrow.

● Interview Notes: Everyone has the right to pursue their dreams, whether singing on the sunshine avenue or stumbling in the swamp. Self-taught candidates, as a special group of higher education in China, like Zhou, many people are pursuing a better life in a helpless and tenacious way. They may be eliminated by the college entrance examination education system or forced by their own environmental conditions, but they are not dreamers. Let's cheer for their strength and hard work, and cheer for their difficulties and grievances. Maybe we can't change the rigid education system yet, but we can change our hearts. Tens of thousands of self-taught students in Qian Qian are still working hard and making progress, but they don't know how far their reality and dreams are after their efforts. Are you still blindfolded and dusty, so that you can't see the road ahead? Let's tell them with tolerance, understanding and encouragement that reality is on the road and dreams are under our feet. ...

""I just want to say that people should be strong and finish this journey, because there are still beautiful things waiting for you ahead.