Never thought of falling in love with you-a bar encounter

Love has two regrets: one is that you can't love, and the other is that you love but it's not worth it.

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Perhaps, destined to meet, is a long-planned tenderness.

I met her in a bar.

At that time, I was in charge of activity planning in an advertising media company. I worked overtime day and night to catch up with the draft plan. The pressure of work made me breathless, so I came to that bar to drown my sorrows.

Not long after I sat down, I was patted on the shoulder with a slightly hasty rhythm. When I turned around, I was greeted by her wearing a black sling and a tube top lace skirt. Her long, fluffy hair was casually draped over her shoulders, and her slender white legs highlighted her graceful figure in the dim light of the bar.

"Hello, handsome boy! Can I have a drink with you? " Her tender eyes are full of fascinating charm. It is difficult for me to refuse her request.

"Of course."

She sat down in the seat beside me, her charming smile reflected by the shaking glass, her cheeks flushed and slightly drunk.

"Drunk is a person, hard to get drunk is the heart. Everything is like a farce, whether it is people or things, or it is not worthy of glitz. " She looked at the real dewdrop shochu in the eye cup and said with emotion.

Her words have been imprinted on my mind, and that was the first time I had such a strong desire to meet a heterosexual.

Before leaving, she scrambled to pay the bill and took the initiative to add my contact information. Looking at her figure far away under the street lamp, my heart beats inexplicably.

Lying in bed at night, tossing and turning, unable to sleep, all I saw was her exquisite makeup and charming smile.

Always fantasizing: when can I see her again?

Some words, but a few words are in my mind.

Some people, on the one hand, are in a hurry, but they are pulling a chord.

I received her morning and evening greetings every day for the next week. I can see the delicious food and songs she shared with me every day. I can know her emotional dynamics and daily chores every day.

In the following week, I learned that her favorite food is spicy duck intestines, her favorite drink is shochu with real dew, and her favorite thing is to see the big banyan tree covered with small colored lights and the starry night sky.

For me, she can trust me so much that she can talk about everything.

I seem to know her like the back of my hand, but I'm not.

Apart from her love history, I am still blank.

Maybe it's easy to fall in love with someone, but it's hard to get her heart.

02

No matter how bumpy the memories are, no matter how black and blue I was, at least those moments when my heart suddenly moved are the best happiness.

One warm evening a week later, I received her WeChat.

"I know a food street with many snacks. Come and visit with me. At 7: 30, Chaoyang Square arrives. "

When I think of her suffocating expression, her charming posture and those sleepless nights in the past week, I put off all my work and came as promised.

That night, she was completely different from the first time I met her, wearing a white bear T-shirt and tight blue denim shorts. Under the reflection of the sunset glow, her curves are looming. She tied her charming long hair into a pure and lovely ponytail, and her delicate skin and shallow dimples were as pure as the breeze blowing over her first love face.

The bustling crowd and the noise of traffic did not weaken her enthusiasm for walking around the streets and enjoying delicious food. Walking side by side with her on the narrow road where people come and go, the afterglow of the sunset glow records my short and beautiful romance with her.

"Look! It's the long queue of stalls, which is my favorite spicy duck intestines! " Her slender fingers pointed to the stall, and then held my hand tightly, jumping like a deer. Inadvertently looking at her angular side face and the rising corners of her mouth under the high bridge of her nose, it was a pure smile that I had not seen for many years.

"Come on, this duck sausage is delicious, try it!" She picked up a string and handed it to my mouth to feed me. The evening breeze gently brushed her cheek, like a clear spring, nourishing my heart.

That string of spicy duck intestines is the best I have ever eaten.

Unconsciously, she and I walked out of the end of the snack street and came to a large lawn.

Not far away, there is a big banyan tree decorated with lights. I don't know how many couples have witnessed the most sincere blessings and the most romantic vows.

"Look at the colorful lights on that tree. Is it like a sky full of stars in the night sky?" She looked up at the bright starry sky.

"It is said that the shining stars are for everyone to find their own stars one day." I looked at her ethereal and clear eyes, and at that moment, there were stars in her eyes.

She closed her eyes and put her hands on her chest, silently praying for the dream scene in front of her. Unconsciously, I also put my hand on my chest and secretly gave her the best hope.

"Do you think your wish for this big banyan tree and all the stars will come true?" She asked.

"Sincerity is the spirit, and it is a sincere and kind heart. If you never forget it, there will be repercussions." I answered.

Maybe one day, the person you love will be illuminated by the milky way in your eyes.

That night, I regretted not saying this to her.

That night, she probably didn't know: the moon under the sea is the moon in the sky, and the person in front of her is a sweetheart.

After that, I can actually understand: I can't catch the moon under the sea, and my sweetheart is out of reach.

03

The story is short and long. The only thing I don't want is to be a passer-by in each other's lives. The only regret is that we can't fall in love.

"Have a rest? I want to have a drink and chat with you. " I looked at the time in the upper right corner of my phone. It's already ten o'clock at night. I put down my unfinished manuscript, simply tidied it up and rushed to her door.

"Knock, knock, knock."

"Here I am, bringing a few bottles of your favorite shochu and your favorite spicy duck intestines."

"I wronged you and asked you to drink with me in the middle of the night." The moment she opened the door, I saw that she was pale, her eyes were blank, and even her tone of voice became weak, which was completely different from what I had seen before.

"What happened? Why do you look so haggard? " I asked anxiously.

"It's no big deal, it is always insomnia recently. Come in and let's talk first. " She replied feebly.

The first time I came to her house, I was not as pink as I thought. On the contrary, the whole room is cold and plain, with neat sundries and spotless furniture, which shows her careful cleaning everywhere.

Sadness and indifference are the best adjectives I can think of for her family.

"Do you know why I took the initiative to talk to you when I first saw you in the bar?" She leaned back on the soft European sofa, yawned lazily and asked listlessly.

"I don't know, maybe because I am handsome? Good temperament? Or do I look like your ex-boyfriend? " I teased her jokingly.

But what I didn't expect was that as soon as the voice fell, she paused and her expression became somewhat trance. After a long time, I barely heard her weak voice: "Yes, because you look like my ex-boyfriend."

She slowly sat up from the sofa, picked up the whole cup of soju on the coffee table and gulped it down.

"You drink slowly, it's easy to get drunk." I'll say it right away.

But she ignored what I said, just looking at the dim street lamp outside the window, which set off her melancholy sadness.

"He is my college classmate and my first love. The first time I saw him was in the classroom. He wears a white casual vest, a blue denim long-sleeved shirt and clean short hair, which gives people a very sunny and comfortable feeling. I have to admit that at that moment, my heart was touched by a deer. "

"Was that how I dressed in the bar that day?" I asked in confusion.

She smiled, didn't answer, and continued: "Later, I would get up for ten minutes every day just to pretend to meet him in front of the teaching building;" Later, every Friday afternoon, I would silently watch him play basketball in the corner of the stadium; I am introverted in college, and I even joined his student union and became the vice chairman! "

With that, she showed an incredible expression and picked up the second glass of wine and gulped it down.

"Later he also noticed my love for him, so we went to class together; Let's go to the library to study for ourselves; We participated in various club activities together ... Later, later, we were together. " Her face is filled with a happy smile, and the radian of her mouth is particularly touching.

"Later, he took me to eat his favorite spicy duck intestines and lined up for a long time; He took me to the bar where I first met you. It was the first time in my life to drink. He also took me to see the big banyan tree covered with small colored lights and the starry night sky ... "The third cup of shochu was once again gulped down by her. After three glasses of wine, her slightly red cheeks showed drunkenness.

Her eyes began to glisten with tears, her body trembled unconsciously, and her mouth trembled slightly. I realized that something was wrong with her.

"But, but ... under the big banyan tree that day, it was obviously he who told me to stay with me all the time, always! I did it. I really did it ... why did he do it behind my back? Why did he betray my feelings for him? Why did he betray me! "

Bean-sized hot tears fell from the corner of her eyes, and all kinds of pain and sweetness crossed her past. It was her sincere heart that was scratched ... just as she was about to pick up the fourth cup of soju, I stopped her.

"Don't drink, so you will get drunk. You said yourself that people are drunk, but the heart is hard to get drunk. No matter how intense the sadness is, drowning in wine will only increase the sadness. So stop drinking. "

"Leave me alone! Let me continue to drink! "

She ignored what I said, grabbed the cup and drank it off. After she calmed down, she had finished drinking two bottles of shochu.

"Later, after graduating from college, I moved in with him. For a time, he always worked late, often worked overtime on weekends, and sometimes didn't even go home at night. In order not to affect his work, not to distract his energy, and to trust him, I have been persuading myself not to think too much. "

"Until one day, the company arranged for me to go to Guangzhou for three days on business. I came back the next night because of the change of the activity schedule. Coincidentally, it was his birthday, so I hid it from him and bought a big birthday cake to surprise him. Just as I opened the door with joy, I collapsed-he was lying in bed naked with a strange woman ... "

Before the words were finished, she could no longer restrain her inner emotions, and tears burst in the corner of her eyes like a flood. She threw herself into my arms, hugged me tightly and cried. Tears soaked my chest. I held her shoulder carefully, but I didn't know how to comfort her scarred heart with words ... "

I always thought that when I opened the window of your heart, I would see my figure inside, but I never thought that through the gap, I found that someone else had already lived in your heart.

04

Is it only when you become unwilling and sorry that people are so persistent?

At dawn, I opened my sleepy eyes and looked at her white shoulders beside me in the morning light. I didn't have the heart to wake her up. After I got up and cleaned up the living room, I went out to buy a hot breakfast, left a note by the bed and left.

A day later, I received her short message, which was the last sentence she left me.

I just know that she has left Nanning for Shenzhen.

I dialed her cell phone number and found it was empty. Wechat has also been blacklisted by her.

I rushed to the neighborhood where her home was located and asked about the property, only to find that she had moved out that day. ......

In the text message, she said: Thank you very much for your company this month. ......

In the short message, she said: She is going to Shenzhen to start a new life. ......

In the short message, she said: I hope my heart will always remember her existence. ......

Looking at her last message for thousands of times, I repeated those fleeting memories with her in my mind. I never shed tears easily, but I couldn't restrain the tears in my rosy eyes and fell down my cheeks mercilessly. ......

To this day, I still feel sorry for her. Unfortunately: I have never entered her heart, but I am still unwilling to be a passerby.

To this day, I am still full of expectations for her. What I expect is that she can heal her inner pain as soon as possible, face the future bravely and meet the worthy one.

Some things, once experienced, will never be repeated. Some people, after a brief encounter.

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Message: This article is addressed to her. I don't know if she can understand it, but I want to tell her:

Miss Fang, you are in my heart, not fade away.