Talking about the pain of class

? I have been engaged in the teaching profession for 6 years, and I have participated in many recruitment examinations, big and small. It's really a bitter tear to talk about class!

? The written test results of each exam are quite satisfactory, but I don't know why there is a sense of tension when it comes to class. Last year, I took the ninth place in the written test of Tuanchengshan Primary School. In fact, the difference between the written tests is not big, and there is still a good chance. But I abstained on the morning of the interview. In fact, I have rented a hotel and came early in the evening, but I still gave up. My explanation to others is that I am pregnant, I feel unwell, and I didn't review, so I took the exam, so I might as well give up. In fact, the reason is to tell others. The real reason is that I am afraid of giving lectures and have no confidence.

? This year, I had a chance to attend a lecture in a county-level junior high school. I was even more uncertain, and the preparation time was very short. In fact, I memorized a lecture draft copied online at night. The topic of the interview was "Lonely Journey" in the ninth grade, and I collapsed on the spot. I was completely unfamiliar with junior high school for the first time. The second is that this text is extremely long. I have read it for at least 1 minutes, and I haven't understood it very well. I have only written the lecture draft in the middle, so I have no time. When it comes to the teaching process, I have to make it up. I feel that I can't go on talking. The more I say it, the lower my voice, the more I keep talking, and I keep repeating "that" and "telling it" ... I still remember that embarrassment. The last result was the penultimate one. I can face this result calmly, and it was a poor performance. But later, I found out at school that an art teacher also took part in this Chinese lecture. She claimed that she could do nothing, but the ranking was still ahead of me. I was even more embarrassed and felt that I was greatly stimulated.

? In fact, I know why my lecture will get worse and worse. The root of it is that I have never made my own teaching design. I have always followed the teaching staff and PPT, and I have not systematically analyzed the teaching materials. I really lack the ability to lecture. If I don't catch up on this knowledge, I may be in such a mess as this year in the future. Therefore, I have to think hard, learn by myself, sum up experience, read more professional books, and most importantly, learn.

? I hope I don't shout slogans in vain, but I must avenge myself. See you in the exam next year!