There is no light in my life.

After the graduation defense, we began to sell all our "possessions". When we sold all the books in the four-year college, we sold dozens of dollars, and the books in the whole dormitory sold less than 1 dollars.

On the night after we sold the books, we went to Xiaolongkan in Guanggu Tiandi and had the last hot pot together. In fact, we spent more time taking pictures than eating.

On the day I left school, it rained heavily. My other roommate and I got up early to wash and called a car. During the waiting time, we finally checked our bed, our desk and our cupboard. After making sure that nothing was left behind, we pulled the suitcase, locked the door and went downstairs.

Before I left, I took my keys off and put them on the table. At last, I took a look at the empty dormitory, and I had the illusion that my freshman had just started school.

our big sister in bed 2, a female man in Inner Mongolia; The champion of staying up late in our dormitory on bed three, a girl from Lanzhou; Bed 4, a writer who loves writing as much as I do, is a girl from Inner Mongolia who accompanied me through many places during my four years in college. Bed five is a cute girl, also from Inner Mongolia. Bed six changed from an Anhui girl who often bickered with me to a Hubei girl with a strong princess character.

that's all the members of our dormitory, including, of course, my Henan girl at the bottom of the food chain.

2.

After two days' rest in Shanghai, I began to look for a job in major recruitment software, and every day after that, I was filled with interviews, constantly adjusting my work direction through interviews and making clear my career plan.

because of my first job experience, I don't want to sell words. I always think it's good to separate my interests from my career, but I also envy those who can make their interests a lifelong career.

Maybe Xiao Bai, who just graduated, has to step on the pit many times. On the day he went to the company where he decided to go after a week's interview, he was told that his salary had been cut by half because he didn't get a diploma, and asked me if I would like to.

at that time, I even agreed, perhaps because I was a white boy in the workplace, I didn't have the confidence to say anything, and I didn't even have the courage to protect my own interests.

In the next few days, the more I thought about it, the more I felt wronged, and finally I simply resigned. I probably worked for six or seven days, but I didn't get paid in the end, and I didn't ask for it.

as the saying goes, it never rains but it pours, but the reality is that it really hit me.

The day after I quit my job, I went to an inexperienced e-commerce company to operate. On the day I went there, I managed two stores. I didn't need to operate except for art drawing, and I needed to take care of everything else.

Because I am very grateful to this boss for giving me this opportunity, I am a complete newcomer in this industry where I choose experienced industries everywhere, so I work very hard and study hard.

when I wrote the weekly report, in the first week I went, the sales reached the highest level in recent weeks. Later, my colleague told me that these two stores are about to be abandoned, just to deal with some goods that are over-returned by cats, and they have changed operations one after another. At the highest, they lost more than 2, yuan a month, so I don't care so much about profit.

this kind of mood is like something you try very hard to get, and someone suddenly tells you that it has long been thrown away by him.

what's even more devastating is that when I tried my best to increase sales and even put in my own weekend in order to become a regular employee as soon as possible, my boss had planned to fire you before you became a regular employee.

I didn't intend to keep your boss, even if you do more, it's no use. Before I left, my colleague told me not to take it to heart. Every operation of this store is like this.

On the day I left my job, my boss asked me to talk, and told me in a decent way that I would be invited back in the future because of business changes, and that I could find him if I had any difficulties in the future.

As a result, he deleted my WeChat shortly after leaving the company.

3.

One after another, the advantage of early thesis defense has been consumed, and when you look for a job again, it is not as good as it was in April, and you often can't get an interview after looking for a few days.

The house we rented in Shanghai is said to be an old private house in Shanghai before. The landlord connected the first floor upstairs, which is two floors smaller. We are on the first floor, and the houses in the surrounding community and the trees behind the house block all its light, so the lighting is very bad. If the lights are not turned on during the day, it is no different from at night.

During the period when I couldn't find a job, I often stayed alone in the dark room at home, watching the time every day and waiting for my roommate to get out of the dark room and go to the kitchen to cook for her when she was about to get off work.

I once said half jokingly when chatting with my friends, "There is no light in my life".

She said, "Then let me be the light in your life".