In a year's time, I went to India and North Korea and began to think about what kind of person I want to be.

At this time last year, when I came back from traveling in South Asia for more than two months, the most frequently asked question was "Is India really like that?" Just after the Spring Festival this year, I came back from a trip to North Korea. The same question is just a different topic. "Is North Korea really like that?"

I don't want to go to places that others don't want to go to deliberately show off my travel experience, and I don't have the courage to go to such a country to find the excitement of life. I just want to be satisfied in my twenties. It's just that after traveling for so many years, I have always believed that "I am good to people and people will be good to me."

Growing up in childhood didn't make me a prominent person. Fortunately, the seeds of instability buried in my heart made me taste the sweetness of freedom and freshness in my first trip to generate hard seat after the college entrance examination. Four years of hard work to make money and save money, completed countless trips. Under the influence of good movies and new ideas, I began to find a different life.

That year, I was a senior in Xi 'an, and I sent an email to langmusi, not too far away, and applied to be a volunteer in a youth hostel. This is a very long email. Later, the boss of the youth travel service, who is my closest relative now, told me that she was not going that winter. Langmusi is very cold in winter. Except for a few tourists during the Spring Festival, few people visit it on weekdays. For a youth hostel, it was unprofitable, and she was pregnant at that time. Besides, she has been stood up by volunteers in recent years.

But she said that no one had sent her such a long email. She believes that I have never met before, that I said I would leave my hometown in Jiangxi for Gannan Tibetan area on New Year's Eve, and that I also believe that she is a good person. With trust in each other, we did what we can all call "the first time".

Facts have proved that such courage and trust have enabled us to form a lifelong friendship. I attended the wedding of her and her Tibetan husband, and witnessed their children moving from the belly to a smiling baby, and then to a little girl holding my hand and telling me stories. In recent years, apart from going home, I would say that I have returned to langmusi.

In the second half of senior three, my volunteer journey continued. I went to Xiaqing and went back and forth to Xi 'an School to defend and graduate. Two very different regions have brought me very different gains.

In Xiamen, you can sail out to sea for free, wake up on Gulangyu Island for free, and shuttle through the alleys of this semi-new and semi-old old city, pretending to be no stranger to all this and telling yourself that there is still a lot of time here, so there is no need to rush.

In Qinghai, I drank wine with a large group of people. That's where I learned to drink. In my eyes, the owners of youth brigades and their friends are people with stories, and they also have the same name-blue sky rescue team members. It seems that ordinary people from all walks of life in the city will take a helicopter into the Grand Canyon for search and rescue during the holidays, organize a safe hike in the ghost town, reinstall the snow-capped mountains to clean up the garbage ... and I also rode Qinghai Lake alone, making them praise this southern girl who is not very tall.

In this short half a year, I found that I hope my youth will be spent in the time of remembering, instead of blindly embarking on the road that everyone thinks is right. I've always been smart, and I'm beginning to realize that being different from others is nothing to be afraid of.

In my first year of work, I chose Shanghai, where there are many opportunities. I work as a raiders editor in a travel website. My salary is not that high, and my job is very happy. But I knew from the beginning that I wouldn't stay in the city where I have been many times, so I made an appointment with myself in 10: I would go to the community I wanted to go to in ten months and then leave.

When I left, I probably saved enough money by myself, so I first went back to the cherished northwest, followed the legendary Silk Road, and returned to langmusi, where I worked as a store manager or sold gadgets. I was on the verge of life and death when I was helping Tibetans herd sheep in the sheepfold, but I was hit by a sheep and trampled by it. I had an idea in my heart and went to Xinjiang. I have written so many strategies that the beauty of northern Xinjiang and the legend of southern Xinjiang have always been in my heart. In case something happens before tomorrow, at least I won't say I regret it. In Xinjiang, where the riots just ended a month ago, I saw incomparable purity. Countless cars from northern Xinjiang to southern Xinjiang, green leather carriages packed with Hui people, and temporary sleeping yurts at the foot of Tianshan Mountain are all things that I thought I could brag about all my life at that age.

After my trip to Xinjiang, I decided to go to Chengdu for a simple reason. Later, when I met new friends in Chengdu, I always said, "I ate two Sichuan dishes in Korla that day and thought Sichuan dishes were so delicious that I might as well go to Sichuan." I like working in Chengdu very much, which makes me discover the possibility of another life, just like a ticket circle I sent, "I am the wandering king, but I can also be a proud meow."

Chengdu is a petty bourgeoisie city, which is connected with Chongqing nearby, forming a literary circle with a unique atmosphere in the western region. Later, people who knew me thought I was literary, which benefited from my work in Chengdu and the excellent people I met. They let me find another charm of words and pictures, recording not only stories, but also feelings. Although the word "feelings" is ugly, I still respected it in those years when we were just released.

What I want to say is that many people are afraid of being out of touch with society after a resignation trip, but I believe that everything you gain during your trip will become a bargaining chip in your future life. Your story, someone will ask for wine to pay for you

Finally, I chose this major as a graduate student, English. My parents are very happy. They have been good at English since childhood. From elementary school to university, they took a rebellious test of psychology and failed. Finally, I chose English because it is very useful.

I choose to study in Lhasa two months before the exam. However, I didn't like Tibet before, because too many people went there for "soul redemption", which made me feel that the land was polluted. But this is not the case. It is pure and will never be polluted.

During the six months in Lhasa, from late autumn to early spring, there were not many tourists, but many Tibetans had no farm work. They let me see the beauty of life without wanting anything. I have no faith, but I enjoy menstruation, because I can really get inner peace when menstruation is adjusted. I also like drinking tea, even if I gain a lot of weight in Lhasa, I don't mind. I prefer to wear sunscreen and go out to climb mountains to bask in the sun. I feel very happy in winter.

I met a lot of "canvassing" in Lhasa. They are here because they have a deep love for this land. They decided to stay and live, which made me envy and admire, because living in Lhasa, only dreams are not enough. I see that everyone's efforts, entrepreneurial efforts, and work efforts are all 100 times harder than those in the mainland.

During my six months in Lhasa, I not only completed my promotion, but also witnessed more difficulties behind the seemingly beautiful life. I began to understand, "You can disagree, but please respect other people's lifestyles", and I began to find out what kind of life I should want, and whether I can afford it and stick to it.

With the convenience of Lhasa's geographical location, I came to Nepal from the border, and then went to India from Nepal to start my first foreign solo. From the time I was interviewed at the Indian Embassy in Kadu, I guessed that it would be an extraordinary trip. After all, it is a country that amazes the whole world.

Carrying LP and a 50L bag, I traveled all over nine cities in northern India in 25 days. It turns out that Shao Yibei said in the Zhihu a few years ago that North India is the most cost-effective tourist destination she has ever been to.

North India is like a huge history museum, loaded with everything I have only seen and never seen in history books. Those relics and ceremonies make me feel unreal, but they will always exist and happen forever. Those poor people, whether living in poverty or well-dressed intellectuals, seem to have come out of TV, or I got into Indian TV. Those shabby slums and beautifully decorated villas sometimes make me feel sad and indignant about the gap between the rich and the poor, and sometimes lament India's exquisite art and culture ... This is a contradictory country, which completely opens my contradictory heart, just as many foreigners I met told me that India has been here, and there is nothing I can't understand.

As for safety, I know very well that I should not go out alone at night. As I said before, I have good intentions and get along with others on an equal footing, and most of them get the same state of mind.

I once met an aunt who poured water on the side of the road. When I stood behind a child and gave her my water bottle, she looked up at me and smiled. She scooped out a spoonful of ice water from the big jar beside her and poured it on me. At that moment, I felt extremely cool.

I have met many kind young people. When taking the bus and train, help me communicate with the flight attendants, remind me to get off at the station, buy me a train ticket and take me to a destination that I really can't find. ...

Meet lovely children, a traveling family, shake hands with me, take photos and chat, much like foreigners I met in my hometown when I was a child. ...

Of course, I have met some people who make me angry ... but ignoring them calmly or refusing them politely is a better way to protect myself.

After India, I also went to Thailand and Vietnam. This two-month trip to South Asia and Southeast Asia has broadened my horizons, made me realize something I didn't believe before, and seriously thought about whether I can do something good as a human/China person, so I firmly established myself as a translation major. My biggest dream is to introduce the truly beautiful but unknown China to more people.

In fact, because of my childhood experience, I feel very weak to my family. I used to think I was wrong. Later, I found that many people, like me, were relieved and tried their best to invite their parents to the city where they temporarily lived. This time in the northeast, the farthest from home, I also asked my father to come over and ask him if he wanted to go to North Korea. I think his eyes are glowing.

Many people have been to North Korea. Many people feel more at ease because they can only join the group, but it is also possible that everyone follows the group, so there are not many strategies that can be seen online. Before leaving, I watched this four-day and three-night trip to North Korea from Dandong. Set foot in three major cities in North Korea, accommodation and transportation are well arranged. Actually, it's pretty good. Tour guides are all very kind little girls. When they talk about American aggression against them, they will sob with tears in their eyes, which makes me a little at a loss for a while.

The capital Pyongyang is like Dalian in the 1970s. There are no beautifully designed skyscrapers. In winter, people walk on the road, ride bicycles on the road, wait in line for the bus on the road, and dress up. Roadside slogans are very similar to those in China in the past two years. I can guess what they say without asking.

Although it is not practical to arrange accommodation in a remote place and go shopping with several colleagues in the city, it is still very touching to arrange for us to take the Pyongyang subway and sit in the conference room of Panmunjom's 38th parallel. After all, they tried to show us their kindness and their hope for peace.

Soon after I went to North Korea, I actually went to South Korea. I talked a lot about North Korea with my Korean sister I met in India last year. She envied me for going to North Korea and carefully looked at the photos about North Korea in my photo album. At that time, we sat in the National Museum and talked about history and reality for a long time. I often see my future in her who is several years older than me and has independent thoughts, which I like.

I still remember that when the graduate students left the office to close the door after the interview, several teachers inside could not help feeling in Chinese that "she looks so small and has so much life experience". Also, I like that my boss in Chengdu once called me a "tramp" when introducing me to the outside world.

Travel is probably also a contradictory thing. On the one hand, because I met too much goodwill, I always had innocence and hope in my heart. On the other hand, because I met too many extraordinary people, I gradually grew into a harmless person. But this is not a bad thing, and it will not be contradictory to death.

I hope my life will always be like this, I can travel and live freely, I can always make a living by my own preferences, and I can do something useful with my major and experience in the near future.

Finally, I want to say that no matter how your family background affects your life choice, when you find yourself not too late, as long as you work hard and have good ideas, you will be more and more lucky.