Confessions of international students: Should my father give money when he is double-detained?

Editor's note: Some people have been detained, which makes us happy. Another corrupt element was arrested, and the country lost such a person who drank China blood. But I tell you, this interview made me feel a little sympathy for them for the first time, or sympathy for their families. Hui's father was arrested last year. This incident dealt a great blow to Hui and his family. In his words, I suddenly felt that the sky was falling, the clouds were gathering, and the sun could not be seen.

Hui accepted my interview on the phone. I had asked him out, but he refused. I know the name he gave me is fake, and I understand why he didn't give me his phone number. I won't force him. Everyone has different attitudes, moods and ideas in the interview. When he was on the phone with me, he choked up many times and was speechless several times. What I heard was the real cry of a boy in his twenties.

As a man, I am a timid and selfish coward, and as a son, I am an unfilial son. I should return my father's embezzled money to the government, so maybe his crime can be reduced and his sentence can be reduced by several years, but I didn't. My family won't let me go back to China or hand over the money. They said it was meaningless to sentence me to more or less years at this time.

My dad didn't die too hard, but the crime he committed was not light. To be sure, he has been here for the past ten years. Let me take good care of this money. What about myself? To tell you the truth, I once thought about going back. I struggled for a few days, but finally I couldn't bear the money. I'm scared! I'm afraid I'll lose everything. I'm afraid I can't save my dad, so I'll join in. I'm afraid that after this, we will be beaten at the bottom of society and even spurned. All these are the reasons why I have no courage to go back.

Please forgive me! I don't have the courage to pay back the money, and I even have to continue to live shamelessly. You can scold me, but please understand me. I have to live.

My dad didn't have a successful career from the beginning, and I didn't grow up with a golden spoon in my mouth. We also live a poor life. I was born in 1982. At that time, my father was just a small section chief in a small department with a limited monthly salary. My mother is a skilled worker in a state-owned factory, but she has left her job without pay for a long time to take care of her grandmother who is ill in bed. As far as I remember, in order to save money, they seldom take the bus. In Harbin, it is very cold in winter, and it snows and freezes.

Only my parents really know the bitterness and bitterness of those days. I was a child at that time, and it was not my turn to eat no matter how hard it was. These can only be recalled by fragmentary memories.

Then when did your father start to rise step by step, and was he already going this way from the beginning? My words stopped Hui for a long time, and the tone at that time was a little heavy. Is it too direct to ask? I think Hui might hang up. I was wondering whether to ask in another way. While I was thinking, he spoke.

Some people say that my dad is smart and good at getting along with leaders, while others say that my dad is an apple polisher and always revolves around leaders. Regardless of this, my dad's official career really began to improve in the early 1990s, and I think my dad's promotion is normal. He has a degree, has done several beautiful things and can adjust himself up and down. It is right for leaders to appreciate him, promote him and promote him. It's a pity that people like my dad will never meet his talent, but now I'd rather let him meet his talent.

In fact, when my dad was arrested, he was not as big an official as people thought. You call him a big official. Our celebrity doesn't have his name, so he can't rank at all. You call him a little man. He still has some power that people can't ignore, otherwise he wouldn't have embarked on this road. As long as you become an official, no matter how big or small you are, someone will curry favor with you. When my dad was a small section chief, someone sent gifts, but at that time, they were all small things, such as sending some calendars at the end of the year, and I would also transfer the calendars sent by others to my class teacher and teachers of all subjects in the school to make them happy.

Speaking of his schooling, I remembered why he came to Canada, so I asked him about it. I'm a little biased against children like them. Parents are officials, their families are rich, and their studies should not work. However, he agreed and disagreed with me.

I came to Canada because I didn't go to college, but don't think I'm the kind of person who has nothing to do academically. I didn't study well, but I didn't pass the exam. I was also the hope of the teachers in my class. For family reasons, I don't have any privileges. My academic performance is really good. I didn't take the college entrance examination in 2000 because I got appendicitis when it was near. I am very ill. The doctor said it would be troublesome to deliver it later. I had an operation and was in the hospital for almost a month.

If I am sick during this period, I can better see my father's state. From the time I was hospitalized to the time I went home to recuperate, people who came to see me never stopped. Of course, they all came to see my father under my guise. My mother was right. These people are so hypocritical. They want me to get sick, otherwise there will be no formal excuse.

I didn't go to the college entrance examination and my health was not very good, so I didn't repeat it. My mother loves me very much, and feels that studying in China is too stressful. She is not going to let me go to college for fear that I will get sick again. Idle at home for a year. Just then, a daughter of my father's subordinates came to Toronto. My family discussed it and decided to let me study abroad. Isn't it good to study abroad? I agreed as soon as I heard it. At that time, many people came to Canada to study. Several people I know are here, and the formalities are all done. I came in 2002.

It was really after I came to Canada that I neglected my studies. I was bent on learning well, and I was also serious in class. It turned out to be like this. You know, many international students like me don't attend classes. Get a visa and find a way after it expires. I know a lot of people here, including overseas students like me, fellow villagers, Hong Kong and Taiwan provinces, and few people of other races. With more friends, life will be more colorful and books will be less attractive.

When I first came, I rented someone else's house, shared a lot of things with others, and wanted to be a thrifty boy. Later, in order to be free and not disturb others when playing, I found myself a house with one room and one living room. I lived in that apartment shortly before I moved because it was my birthday. I invited many people to my house for a party. They were crazy, drinking and dancing. The music was a little loud, and a group of us were still arguing until an old western lady next door. We didn't hear the old lady knocking at the door. Later, the old lady called the security guard, which swept away all our interest. The next day, the old lady told me that if I was young, maybe she would call the police. Later, I forgot about moving, and later I moved to a better house, and the cost was much higher than before.

Now think about it, it was really defeated at that time. I always buy clothes. I ate at the Northeast Restaurant in Toronto with some classmates. I will spend thousands of dollars on a useless model toy. After I have a desktop computer, I will buy a notebook. I had a girlfriend, too. In order to make her happy, I will buy her a new LV bag. I took her to the casino with my friends, and I lost nearly 10000 in one night. I still don't feel bad. This is the day I spent in Canada.

You spend so much money, have you ever thought that the source of the money is unknown? Can your family indulge you so much? When Hui told me his glorious history, that's what I wanted to ask. I don't believe that he knows nothing. I want to know what he thinks. I wonder if he ever thought that something would happen at home.

Of course, I know that the money was not earned by my father's modest faculties, but I never thought that something would happen to him. My mother once told me to be frugal. The money didn't come from the strong wind, but she didn't want me to suffer, and she always asked me if I had enough money to spend. I also know that some people will ask my dad for some projects, but I don't know how much they will give each time. To tell the truth, I don't even know my dad's monthly salary. I think his salary is still a lot, and he should always have it at home. You may not believe me, but that's what I thought at the time. I really didn't know so much at that time. Every time I go home, my guests avoid me.

Maybe you will call me naive, but I was naive at that time. Now I understand that my father doesn't want me to know what he has done. No matter how bad others say he is, he is still a father. He doesn't want his son to see his evil side. I remember when I was a child, I told him that I wanted to be like my father when I grew up. He told me never to go his way, study hard and be a high-tech elite. What's more, he has been sitting in that seat and can't escape the invisible net if he wants to be clean.

I can vaguely feel that something was wrong at home in 2003. At that time, many things happened in Heilongjiang, and many officials were detained. At that time, I was still living this kind of drunken life. Although I am very concerned about domestic news, I am not very worried about my family, because no one at home has mentioned it. But since the first half of 2003, my family has been sending me money in various ways, and the amount is more or less, which adds up to a lot. When I asked my mother why she always sent me money, she always said don't ask so many questions, just save the money and don't waste it.

I used to spend money like an ignorant child, ready to buy a house. In retrospect, it was because my family had a premonition and began to emigrate. That year, several people with titles bigger than my dad had an accident, and several people in the same system as my dad were investigated. My father knew that he would find him sooner or later, so he had already made plans. These are all told to me by my aunt's email. My family was afraid that I would have a psychological burden if I knew, so I kept it from me until a week after the accident-my father was arrested and my mother was investigated.

After hearing the news, I was completely stunned. I cried. It was the first time in my life that I cried in despair. I was so scared. I'm afraid my father will be shot. I found many such cases on the internet, and I was even more desperate at first glance. I shut myself in my room, looking for information on the internet all day, just like being isolated from the world. Break up with some friends, break up with my girlfriend and start looking for a house to move. But this time I found a cheap house and began to adapt to the life of sharing with others.

I contacted my little aunt by email and she urged me not to go back. I cried, I want to go back, I want to see my dad again, even for the last time. But she wouldn't let me go. She said that if I went back, my mother would die. She told me that my father would not be shot yet. Going back will be a fatal blow to my dad. My father has done a lot for me. I will live up to my expectations here and make plans for my future.

After a month of depression, I decided to cheer up. I began to understand the work here. I began to pay attention to the life of immigrants (I want to find a way to immigrate). I made a budget for my own expenses. I picked up the book again and went to a decent preparatory school. I sold my desktop computer and used the money to buy books. My life now is very simple, that is, school, library and home. I must go to college and get a local degree so that I can find a better job. I also tried to do some work to get rid of all my original arrogance. I think I'm going to say goodbye to my old life. I will go to college in September this year, and I will move out of Toronto at the end of next month to find a house near the school, so that I can concentrate.

My father is still in custody and the court is still sorting out the materials. Maybe it will be tried out this year. I feel sorry for him, but I love him. No matter what he has done, he is my father. This Father's Day is not happy for him, but I still want to say to him-Happy Father's Day!

Just after saying "Happy Father's Day", Hui hung up the phone. In fact, he has been crying. I know we can't begin to sympathize with these corrupt officials because of Hui's words, but if we are parents, we will understand Hui's words. Hui once said something that shocked me. He said, "No matter what they do, they are still good parents. They often do things that are not good for children. When they finally know that they can't save them, they also hope that their children are pure. It doesn't make any sense for them to do this, just for their children. "