Shen Kaini's growing diary Chapter 33.

I was awakened by the harsh bell. When I opened my eyes, Shen Yulun was holding props from a Taoist in the movie, and I didn't know where to find them.

"That's right! I'm calling your soul, little Nini. Aunt analyzed it for you last night. The reason why you are not full of yang is probably that one of the three souls and seven spirits was scared away. Nothing, nothing, you go back to sleep. " Shen Jing's mouth continued to chant inexplicable spells, while continuing to shake the evocation bell on her hand.

I'm going to ask Shen Yulun to help me out of my present predicament. At first glance, he was still snoring, so I grabbed his stomach. He jumped up in an instant, and he was shocked by his menstruation. Then he said: "possessed, possessed, it seems that Xiao Lunlun lost his soul, not you, but Xiao Nini." It's okay. I will prepare breakfast for you. I hope.

"May God bless you? Isn't this called soul Buddhism? Is not the Lord a Christian? What religion is your menstruation? " I kicked Shen Yulun again.

"My Lord, please let me sleep for a while. It's very kind of you!" Then, Shen Yulun sleepily jumped into my arms again.

"Go away! Get up! " I squeezed it on his stomach again. As soon as he shrank, I squeezed a piece of blood hardware. I opened my mouth and thought it was really over this time. No matter how I explain it, I can't explain it clearly He must insist that I am gay. I frowned and opened my eyes. Shen Yulun actually has a very good bowl.

"You! ! ! "I pulled my hand back and yelled at him. It was just early in the morning.

"Blind call what ah, have never seen such a big one? Besides, boys always do this in the morning, don't you? Let my brother have a look. " Then he put his head into the quilt and I immediately bounced like an electric shock. Shen Yulun, an idiot, is still full of energy. He chased me to take off my pajamas, and I didn't give up. He also pulled his pants savagely. He is bigger than me, but his hands and feet are definitely not as flexible as mine. Shen Yulun put his hand on my wrist. I couldn't move at all. He said with a bad smile, "Wife, you are so sexy." Then I put my hand under me, and suddenly my eyes went black. I shrank my feet and tugged at his pants. This time, his underwear really fell off, but he couldn't put it down. I thought the door suddenly opened when there was no hope this time.

"Xiao Nini, I said ..." He Jing looked up and saw this scene. At first, it was dull for a few seconds. I'm thinking, this period is definitely over. Last time, Li Haoran and I were both wearing underwear. My mother still sees many people all over the world. Now she is in the countryside, and Shen Yulun and I are in this position. The most unclear explanation is that Shen Yulun's underwear was kicked off by my flexible right foot, and she was firmly aiming at me. He, menstruating, is going to be called the soul this time.

Then the most unexpected thing happened. He Jing nodded to us with joy and said with emotion, "Big! Grow up! Really grown up, little Lun Lun, you are already a man! Your mother will be very happy when she sees it. "

"menstruation! ! ! "Shen Yulun immediately grabbed a pillow and stood in front of me. Fortunately, I was still wearing pajamas, otherwise I really immigrated.

After breakfast, Shen Yulun packed his lunch, carried his bag, found a bike and showed me around the town. We saw all kinds of small houses, wild flowers in the garden and simple folk customs. This town shows all the beauty of the distant world.

Later, Shen Yulun and I rode through a vegetable garden and came to a small forest. The grass is green and the birds are singing. Shen Yulun was lying on the grass, took off his shoes and socks and said to me, "The grass here is definitely much softer than the grass that Li Haoran took you to that mountain. Take off your shoes and socks and try. " Before I could speak, Shen Yulun was helping me take off my shoes.

"You seem to like to compete with Haoran, don't you?" I asked such a sentence in a trance.

"Don't talk about him today, get up, these days, only the two of us, there is no third person, ok? Decameron is five days away. I'm going to use it here for three days and keep it for the last two days. " He smiled mysteriously at me, then took my hand and walked to the end of the grass and said to me, "My period is closer to me than my mother. The happiest thing when I was a child was to come to this place with my sister every winter vacation. I, menstruation, also expect me to visit her every year. My grandmother was in poor health these two years, so I didn't come over for the New Year. I'm really glad to be back with you this time, baby. You promise me. " Let go of all the depression around you, stay with me and do what you want. That's enough. "

"Shen Yulun, thank you! Really. " I let go of his hand, sat on the grass and smiled at him seriously.

"I won't force you now, but if it suits you, just call me brother, okay?" Shen Yulun also sat next to me and smiled at me.

"Shen Yulun, I only say it once. The biggest gain of my life in Shen Kenni is knowing you and Haoran. Really, I really don't know what to do without you. You don't understand, but it doesn't matter. I see. I just really can't imagine what it's like to leave you. "

"Baby, it is too early to say this life, but so far, I have never lived like this, never lived like this for anyone, but you, you Shen Kenni let me do it. I said that I was crazy from the day I met you, and I am still crazy, but I like this state very much, so I should thank you. "

"Shen Yulun, have you ever liked anyone else?"

"In addition to what I like now, I used to like someone, but they are all rubbish, and I don't want to mention it again."

"What's it like to like someone?"

"How do you feel now?"

We didn't go anywhere that day We just sat on a small piece of grass in the Woods and ate the lunch packed by Shen Yulun at noon. It felt like a box lunch sent by school when I was a child, but the lunch I had with him that day was still the most special lunch I had. Menstruation came, and it was almost evening when we returned to his house.

As soon as he entered the door, menstruation excitedly took us into the kitchen, cooked a good table and said, "now I can cook a good meal for you." Eat more, little Nini. Sharon, that fish is your favorite oily fish. I chose it specially a few days before menstruation. Fortunately, it has survived to this day. I am particularly worried that if it dies early, I will eat it alone. You too, Xiao Nini, eat more. Come on, aunt will give you a big piece. " He started giving me food.

Shen Yulun quickly picked up the fish caught by menstruation in his bowl, and then said, "Menstruation, he can't eat fish. You put it in my bowl first, and I'll take it out for him. "

"Oh, there are not many fishbones."

I lowered my head, sipped my mouth, and my tears were spinning, because his aunt said to me, "Aunt gave you a big one." At that time, I heard: "Mom will clip you a big one."

Is this what others call home? If Shen Yulun is my brother, I also have such a mother, hehe, not bad. Finally, I just swallowed my tears back once, and they didn't notice. Shen Yulun just wants to eat, and his period just wants to talk about evocation.

In the evening, I watched a TV series with a special dog blood plot with him and menstruation. On TV, the heroine broke up with her boyfriend, because the steamed bread he bought was too hard, and he cried during his period. As soon as I turned around, Shen Yulun nodded at me seriously.

On the afternoon of the third day, Shen Yulun took me to a primary school in the town by bike. When I first entered the school gate, it was lush green and flowed all over the campus. It is estimated that both teachers and students are on holiday, so the whole school is empty. Shen Yulun showed me around the school. We saw all kinds of games on the blackboard and some clumsy chalk drawings. Shen Yulun told me that he used to swing with his cousin in this school. Now, the big swing at that time has become very small.

At dusk, he and I sat on the concrete floor of the basketball court. Shen Yulun still talks about his childhood with a smile. At four o'clock at night, the dim light made the night heavy, and the light tilted every inch of his face. I asked curiously, "So you actually had an incomplete but happy childhood, right?"

"What did my brother say remind you of again?" He seems to have sensed something.

"No, it's fine. I just haven't tried to arrange my childhood properly. I don't know how to tell others about my past, so I may be unhappy. I have no idea. " I put my hands around my knees, and the sunset languished behind us, pulling out a long shadow.

Then, Shen Yulun suddenly jumped up like a dream and said to me, "Come and dance?"

"Dance? Where is the camera? Do you think making a movie? "

"You know, because you never try, if you live in the life circle you think you have established, you will never be happy. Listen to your brother. Moreover, decameron promised to listen to me. " He reached out and pulled me up, and then said, "Remember the dance steps in the bar that night? Just hold me and follow me, that's right. " Then he whistled, and I hit him on the shoulder with my hand, wandering around in a trance. I saw the statue in front of the empty teaching building as if I had seen it in a dream. The setting sun is getting thinner and thinner, and the outline of trees in the distance becomes very easy to recognize. These two days have reminded me of many things.

1. I am homesick. I especially want to call home. I want to hear my parents' voices. I want to tell them that I don't hate them. I just miss them. Unfortunately, I still didn't say this sentence today.

2. I seem to like Shen Yulun's love plan every time. He regards this as a test of his love orientation, and I also take this opportunity to enjoy his tenderness and body temperature, but I am afraid to tell him that I am really gay at the end of decameron, but I am even more afraid of one thing, that is, I am already gay, but on the day when decameron ended, I laughed and told him that I am really not.

In that way, one person will lose his true self and another person will lose his soul.

I miss Li Haoran. I miss the outline of every pixel in my mind. I miss watching fireworks with him that night. He came up to me and asked me if he would be my brother. Miss him in the cinema, he held out his hand, I gently leaned on his shoulder, and my heart tightened again and again; I miss his sentence, "I will be the master in the future." ; Your feelings for him are like poison. Even if you know it is poison, so what? You still smile with tears, indulge in pain, close your eyes, bear, enjoy and be embarrassed.

If you don't understand the feeling I described to you, it is a kind of happiness, but I feel sorry for you.

Shen Yulun continued whistling, and his trembling speed became slower and slower. Then he stopped and leaned close to my ear. At the gentlest time, he told me word by word: "I, really, really think, you, do, me, old woman."

I also put my head on his shoulder. I am not in tune for talk. I know it is inappropriate to say anything.

Since childhood, heartbeat is a compulsory course for everyone, and no one can escape it, because every heartbeat is rippling with a slight heartache.

The shadows on the ground grew longer and longer, and finally began to darken. I put my hand on Shen Yulun's shoulder, reached into his clothes and touched every pore of his body carefully. And I still believe that I did touch every pore of his body that day, because I have never really explored the body of another boy except me.

Then we went to the playground. There was sand and mud everywhere. He suddenly grabbed the sand and put it in my shirt. I took a deep breath and tried to tolerate his naivety, just giving him a cross look. Then the idiot became more arrogant and grabbed the mud and wiped it on my head. Then I heard the sound of reason being crushed above my left ear. I blushed, shook my head gently, and then took his hand and said, "Husband, come here!" "

He was even more proud, laughing and humming. I dragged him to the mud pond, reached for a handful of mud, first rubbed it on his forehead and cheeks, and then waved his dirty hands on his pure white clover coat. I want you to smile again. First he froze, and then he pressed me in that mud pond with all his strength.

"My shirt! My leather shoes! Crazy! " I heard the sound that I obviously wanted to fly high, but I was heavily suppressed by myself, because I was more worried that a security guard would kick me out of school at this time, so I turned Shen Yulun over and pressed him. No, it should be said that my knees were heavily pressed on his chest, spilling all the mud on his face.

I always thought that Shen Yulun would let me go, but that time I saw his true colors, because he painted mud all over my head, just as seriously as he told me that he wanted me to be his wife.

Fortunately, it's May, otherwise I wouldn't have choked to death on that mud, but I would have frozen to death. We fought in the mud. He rolled over, held me down and kissed me rudely. He kissed me everywhere on the cheek. I didn't shy away, but kissed his forehead again and again. I have never played such a game with such a person. If my parents knew I was playing with mud, they would really break up with me.

On that day, my mood kept beating like an electrocardiogram. First, when he put mud on my hair, I was very angry and depressed. Then, when my shoes and shirts were muddy, I fell into despair and was absolutely depressed. Finally, I went to heaven. We laughed impudently and covered every inch of each other's skin with mud. Finally, the two of us lay in the mire, panting.

"Shen Yulun, I can see that. In fact, your psychological age is five years old. Last time you said you were ten years old, you were overrated. "

"Happy?" He turned away.

"Ha ha, just be happy." I also tilting face gherardini to meet.

"This feeling is happy, understand? This is your so-called childhood, and childhood is like this. This is a healthy childhood. "

I was just about to get up when Shen Yulun put a leg across me and said, "Baby, your brother will participate in your life in the future, and you won't have any regrets, but it's not enough for me. I'll make up for all your past that I didn't participate in. If you don't have a childhood, I will give you a childhood. If you want to have a childhood all your life, I will accompany you to live in your childhood world forever. Do you understand? "

I laughed with a snort of snow, which was particularly strange, because my eyes were full of tears, because I was convulsing and suffocating with laughter, because I heard myself laughing strangely, and the sound made me feel that I was crying.

Shen Yulun's eyes were as red as rabbits, two dirty rabbits, and then he put me on his chest handsomely, with no effort, but I couldn't resist.

When Shen Yulun was menstruating, she saw two clay figurines, Shen Yulun and I, standing in the living room. I thought she would be crazy and out of control, but she just raised her mouth and said, "Did you go to school again?" Eat first, then take a shower. "

"This, should be a bath before eating?" I whispered to Shen Yulun.

"Eat first, while it is hot, Xiao Nini, you are just a daughter, so you love beauty!" He's menstruation is calmer.

Shen Yulun didn't stop laughing. I stepped on his toe, and then I smiled and shook my head. When I was a child, my mother told me that it is the most elegant to solve all the embarrassment and difficulties with a smile.

However, I found that the mud on my face might be caked, and I laughed as stiff as a ton of Botox. The moment I shook my hair, I suddenly found that I was actually very suitable for taking the comedian route. Think about it, my head is covered with caked mud, and I shake my hair which I think is elegant.

Shen Yulun and Menstruation saw this move and immediately said sympathetically, "Look, you have a cramp."

"Cramp? Hehe. " Hearing this sentence is really cramping.

I thought my graceful little gesture was actually regarded as a cramp. Shen Yulun was overjoyed.

When eating, I still sit up straight and nod and smile from time to time, but I also find that the more elegant and weird Shen Yulun is, the more he laughs. He and menstruation sit opposite me, so every time he laughs, I kick over to vent my anger. Every time I fly over, I smile proudly at him. His face is still stiff, and he smiles more happily.

The more smug he smiles, the more excited I am. I flew straight to his crotch. Shen Yulun suddenly sprayed a mouthful of soup on my face and said, "Fuck."

I still smiled gracefully at him and his menstruation, picked up the paper towel, and gently folded it into a triangle to wipe the leaves, soup and, of course, mud on my face. Then something even more shocking happened. It was the first time I heard Shen Yulun swear, and I believe it was his first period. Then Shen Yulun said with emotion, almost in tears: "When you grow up, grow up, really grow up, and your menstruation will be relieved." I almost sprayed it this time. Who is this family? The heavenly soldiers will come to earth.

Shen Yulun took a bath first. When he takes a bath, he has no clothes to change. Two days ago, his clothes had been changed and not washed. Think about Shen Yulun's size and muscles, which are all accelerated by eating snacks. Obviously, his clothes don't suit me at all. Then Shen Yulun came out of the shower and told me, no problem. He found clothes for me. I believe him once, because I have no choice.

In this small town, well, I really have no hope of getting a shirt and trousers that suit me. Most importantly, if I really customize a suit here because of this, Shen Yulun, who is menstruating and reading the diary at the moment, you must think that I am very affected, because if I read this diary, I want to rush up and beat Shen Kenni:).

When I came out of the shower, Shen Yulun held back a smile and handed me the clothes. I knew it would be bad. Sure enough, I have two choices, one is the ancient school uniform, her cousin's high school uniform and her cousin's pajamas. I recognized my school uniform, but my pajamas were all pink strawberries. I realized how much I wanted to read the plaid pajamas that Shen Yulun gave me. Before I decided, Shen Yulun put them directly in my hand and said, "I just want them. Then he continued to laugh besides convulsing.

I put on my pajamas angrily and felt like a big pink strawberry. The most important thing is that his so-called cousin's large clothes are still very tight on me, which is obviously too small, especially on the shoulders.

Then Shen Yulun and Menstruation asked us to watch TV with her. When they saw me go out in this suit, they suddenly said, "I told you, it's really a prostitute." Then turned to look at the plot in the dog blood TV series. In the TV series, the girl and the boy finally overcame the misunderstanding of hard steamed bread and sweetly guarded each other. Her period is coming again. I secretly looked at Shen Yulun, and this idiot nodded seriously to me again. I almost flew over again.

The day before I left, Shen Yulun took me over the mountain behind his menstrual room. I climbed the mountain in his cousin's school uniform, only to find that it was a reservoir.

That night, the moon stars are sparse, the stars are sparse, the lake is sparkling, cicadas are singing, and the air is filled with flowers, which will only bloom in a quiet night, like a ghostly soul. In addition to Shen Yulun's breath, there is a rustling wind around me, gently stroking my hair tips and ears.

I took Shen Yulun's hand in amazement and said, "Originally, it can really be so beautiful. Is that what you said? The place you described? "

"Well, today is the last day to bring you here. Do you like it? " Shen Yulun's deep outline looks better under the reflection of water light.

"I like it. I like it very much, really. " I threw myself into Shen Yulun's arms with excitement.

Shen Yulun scratched my head. We looked at the water, and the whole city was shining.

Then we didn't talk for a long time, just thinking like that. Shen Yulun always wants to ask me something, but he always hesitates. I know what he wants to ask. I pretend I don't know. This is the most satisfactory result. I thought so at that time, but later I found that suspicion should never be put into feelings, especially in a serious relationship. Doubt will condense into misunderstanding, misunderstanding will destroy all the beauty, and finally the beauty will become fragmented.

After a long time, Shen Yulun finally said, "Wife, these days are the happiest time in my life. Thank you. Do you think it's okay for us to settle here in ten years? There are few people here, and it's very quiet. A day here is as long as a year in the city. Here, your world can only be me. "

I really want to say something, even just nod to him, but I just smile, I can't promise, just like my mother said, in the face of difficulties, smiling can be solved satisfactorily.

Shen Yulun may know my answer. No, it should be said that he knows me. I am ambiguous. Hehe, even today, I am still like this. He hated this side of me from now on, because I was hurting not only each other, but also myself.

This year, because of the growth log, I began to try some intersections. You can see in the log that we drink and travel, and sometimes we just open the curtains and quietly look at the car through the glass window. He will come over and say something that will make me quiet.

Shen Yulun didn't wait for the answer he wanted. He looked up at the stars in the sky. He stroked my hair with a wry smile. This smile is tolerant.

And then tried to press me into his arms. Like every time, I stood there straight and waited for a while. I don't think my mother's way is right. Smiling really can't solve all the difficulties. For example, now, because I have laughed till my eyes are full of tears, Shen Yulun has been working hard. He was angry. I know.

I bit my lip, still holding it with all my strength, but I didn't go to his arms. This time it was different.

Many answers don't need to be expressed orally. Sometimes, a gesture, even just a look, is all the answers. For example, if I throw myself into Shen Yulun's arms now, I have actually given him an answer, but I have also made a promise.

Shen Yulun was very angry. He gritted his teeth, tugged at my hair and pressed me against his chest. I really didn't recover, and then he gently said sorry.

When I came to my senses, I pushed him away with a heavy hand. I opened my mouth and looked at him in surprise. My eyes are full of questions. His behavior reminds me of my father, who would pull my mother's hair like this. As a result, he got up and took off his coat, leaving only a white tight vest. He came up to me again, grabbed my head and pressed it into his arms.

I was angry, too. I kicked him in the lower body with one knee. This kick was so heavy that I regretted it when I kicked it out.

He grabbed me by the collar and pushed me to the ground. I won't go crazy with him again. I was about to get up and leave when he grabbed my throat from behind. I am really in pain.

I turned and slapped him in the face: "You are fucking sick! ! ! "

I didn't know how enjoyable it was until I heard myself say this sentence. He laughed at once when he heard me scold him. The abstract place is the first time I covered my mouth and didn't understand how to jump this sentence. Then I laughed, cried, cried and got excited.

"If you like it, just say it. You want it, right? " Shen Yulun became more excited. His eyes are full of longing. He gulped down the saliva. I pushed him away and kicked him in the stomach, just like Li Haoran kicked him for Betty last time.

I think he already knows the answer, and I'm really beginning to suspect that decameron is not a game, and it may not end.

Shen Yulun stood up for the last time and put me completely on the dam. I couldn't break free with all my strength, so I had to hit him in the face with the last usable head. I work hard because my head hurts too, more than my heart.

Shen Yulun was very anxious. That's when I really believed that he could do anything to me, including killing me. His eyes were evil, and he could eat the whole night that night. His smile hung cruelly on his lips. I screamed and believed that people only make sounds when they are desperate. You don't have any language, such as "help!"

He unzipped me, and I knew this day had come.

His nose was covered with blood. He kissed me slowly and slowly, which was different from every time before. He stopped asking me if I could, and I didn't shy away. He closed his eyes and put his lips on mine. I opened my mouth slightly and bit his lip heavily. The taste buds on the tip of my tongue are all sweet and familiar.

At that time, when he crossed his arms with a glass in a bar, the glass on the table was full of his blood. At that time, I filled my glass and swallowed every drop of blood he shed for me in despair. I can't stop crying for joy.

His smile began to distort, and my eyes became blurred, because I stopped struggling and I was greedily swallowing his saliva. Instead, he began to be afraid of me. He gradually loosened his hand, left my mouth, adjusted my clothes, sat up and looked at the lake without saying a word.

I sat up straight with him and stopped crying. He was about to say something. I kissed him again. He stared at me. I started riding on him, holding his cheek with both hands and continuing to kiss him. My tongue keeps exploring every cell in his mouth. He is getting breathless. Like me, his hand on my waist began to touch my whole body. He smiled ghostly and said to him, "Shen Yulun, if this is what you want, you can tell me earlier. You don't have to spend so much energy on me. I will give it to you. "

"I'm sorry." Shen Yulun finally cried. Haha, Shen Yulun, you lost again. You lost because you love me more than I love you.

What I want is that from today on, I want you to cry, I want you to suffer, I want you to accompany me to hell, and I want you to accompany me forever.