Who are you in Silent Confessions?

First, introduce the background of the story:

Judging from the phenomenon that Chinese immigrated to the United States in the middle of the19th century, the wave of Chinese exclusion continued until the1930s, but it was not completely excluded from the system and cultural psychology. For example, until 1967, interracial marriage was illegal in 16 states in the United States.

Second, the character introduction:

James:

19 was born in the 1920s and 1930s. He is a Chinese American. His father is a maintenance worker in his school and his mother helps in the kitchen of his school. The image of black eyes, black hair and yellow skin is "different". He felt inferior since childhood, spent all his time studying, and finally went to Harvard. There, he met Marilyn in the first lecture on "Cowboys in American Culture", and then they fell in love and got married. On the wedding day, Marilyn's mother said to her daughter, "You should find someone more like you." This sentence has always been in his heart. After marriage, they avoided talking about the past. He had no friends and always avoided a cautious life different from others.

2.marilyn:

I dreamed of becoming a doctor since I was a child, but my mother who teaches housekeeping wants her to be a woman who manages housework (commonly known as housewife). In order to become a doctor, I took a chemistry class with a group of boys in college, which was ridiculed by all kinds, but after I met James in senior three, my original study plan was completely changed. Married and became a housewife. It was many years after her mother's death that she realized that she had not been happy these years when she packed up her mother's belongings, so she abandoned her husband and two children and went to school alone. Just before the exam, she found herself pregnant and gave up her dream again. After returning to China, I mistook my daughter Lydia's concern for herself for her dream, so in the next ten years, I trained my daughter to realize her dream of becoming a doctor.

3. Lydia:

She clearly knows her mother's dream of becoming a doctor and her father's desire to have friends and live a confident life. As a result, she tried to make herself live what they wanted, become the adhesive of a family and the apple of her parents' eye. With the pressure of study and interpersonal relationship, especially when she found that her former spiritual pillar brother expected to escape from this family, she began to despair, but she dared not refuse her parents because she was afraid that this family would break down again and finally chose to commit suicide.

4.ness:

He also understands his parents' unfulfilled wishes and sympathizes with Lydia's situation, but as a child, he is eager for his parents' attention and love, so he is also dissatisfied with this twisted family. After reading the reports of human beings going into space, I deeply liked space flight, learned space knowledge every day, and finally got into Harvard (which my father hoped he would get into). From the moment he began to apply for university, his desire to escape from this home was particularly urgent.

5. Hannah:

Being neglected by parents, brothers and sisters since childhood, lacking love and longing for love. Because of this, I always observe every subtle expression of others.

6. Jack:

Ness's neighbors like Ness, but Ness hates him. A bad boy in everyone's eyes, but he clearly knows what he wants and bravely does it.

Third, the ending of the story:

Lydia's suicide changed James and Marilyn, changed their attitudes towards children and life, and the family began to have love.

Fourth, a little feeling:

No matter which of these roles we are more like now, I hope to find my true self in the future:

May we all get rid of other people's expectations and find our true selves.

Don't expect anyone to give you a dream, realize it by yourself.

Never give up your career because of love and marriage.