How many chances does a 40-year-old divorced woman have to be happy?

When people get married, it is a very coveted and mysterious marriage palace. Wearing a white wedding dress and stepping on the red carpet, we walk hand in hand into the only memorable place in our lives. When it comes to marriage, it is indeed very accidental. After I graduated from college, like many young people, I had a dream and wanted to create a world of my own outside. However, things went against my wishes. After constantly hitting the wall, I joined a company. Worked as a clerk. Regarding the ease and freedom of work, my previous thoughts seemed to have gradually faded away. Every month, I followed the example of the people in the moonlight tribe, indulged and enjoyed the slightest sense of fulfillment that life brought me. Being free from the rhythm of commuting to and from get off work is indeed very nostalgic. It was a very special day. The company held its annual annual meeting. At that time, my sisters and I drank as much as we could and talked about our dreams before graduating from college. Many memories came to mind at once. , I have no extravagant expectations for the person in my heart, and I treat it with a let nature take its course. Just when we were walking out of the company in a daze, we bumped into a man. He had drunk a lot at that time, so I casually said: "Who is it? Don't block my way." After saying that, I vomited all over the floor. Some of it splashed on the man's feet. I woke up immediately and said quickly: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." The man was also very gentleman. He quickly took out a tissue and handed it to me, saying, "Please drink less alone from now on." After that, He let me lean under the street light and was busy hailing a taxi to take me back. When I was almost home, I asked him what his name was, and he told me that his name was Wang Jun, and he worked in a software company. We exchanged phone numbers with each other, and then we went home. That night, I couldn't sleep, thinking about a lot, and gradually fell asleep. When I went to work the next day, I received a text message. It said, Did you sleep well last night? Just a few words really stirred up waves in my heart, my face suddenly turned red, and the shyness of a big girl appeared silently. In the following days, he sent messages and called me every day, and we fell in love. After several months, we got along well, and gradually he said that he wanted to be with me. I thought there was nothing wrong with going home, so I agreed, and we boarded the train to the north. The joy of going home filled my body and mind, and I was riding the fast train with the harvest of love. I was very happy to take him home. When I got home, my parents were happy and unhappy at the same time when they saw that I had brought a boyfriend. They had originally hoped to marry me to someone nearby so that they could be with me when they got older. They. But now that the daughter they have raised for many years is leaving, you can imagine how they feel. Within a few days of being home, Wang Jun told me to take me back to their home and ask his parents to do the same. Look at their future daughter-in-law. After we discussed it, we said goodbye to our parents and went to his house with Wang Jun in a troubled mood. After meeting his parents, they felt very good about me and asked us to arrange the marriage. In the next few days, we were busy preparing for the wedding until the wedding was over. We were really excited and exhausted. After the wedding, we set off on the train south again. Wang Jun went to work and I was ready. Preparing for pregnancy, one month later, I gradually started to have pregnancy symptoms. Wang Jun seemed to be very impatient in taking care of me. The feeling of vomiting was very strong at the time, and I felt like vomiting all the time. Sometimes. I asked him to help me clean up, but he ignored me. I argued with him several times, but his attitude didn't change much. I was still so carried away. One night, we went our separate ways after the quarrel. I fell asleep, and in the middle of the night, he forced himself to have sex with me. When I refused, he forced himself to have sex with me. Afterwards, I started to bleed from my lower body. I was very scared. I asked him what to do, and he said it was okay. Just rest. It got better in a few days. The next day, I felt unwell. I called him and asked him to accompany me to the hospital. He said he had to go to work and asked me to go alone. I didn't say anything at the time, so I went alone. I went to the hospital and waited for a long time. The doctor said I had a threatened miscarriage and asked me if I wanted to have a miscarriage. I said what effect would it have on the fetus? The doctor then prescribed some medicine and gave me some instructions. Then I dragged my exhausted body back home and lay on the bed, my tears slowly flowing out. In the evening, Wang Jun came back and saw me in bed. He didn't ask me how I was feeling or what the doctor said. Then he asked me if I had cooked. I yelled at him, "Can't you do it yourself?" Didn't you see that I wasn't feeling well? He said disapprovingly that just a few days' rest would be enough, it's no big deal, the baby is gone, we can still have it in pregnancy, we are young and it's easy to get pregnant. After listening to this, I asked him if women were just tools for reproduction and venting. He had nothing to say and went out silently, leaving me alone in the room. For him, I really regretted it a little bit, but I felt that marriage is for life and cannot be hastily. Then I went out to eat casually. I got home and suddenly felt a severe pain in my stomach. I clutched my stomach and lay on the floor. I had no energy at all. It took me a long time before I recovered a little. I went to the toilet and my pants were soaked with blood. I hurriedly called him, but the call came back. The prompt tone made me give up on the bottom line. The number you dialed cannot be connected at the moment.

I was really helpless and lost, so I had to change my clothes, go downstairs, take a taxi, and go to the hospital. The doctor said that the fetus had completely fallen out. I was completely speechless after hearing this, so I did it in the hospital. After a check-up, the doctor said that in a natural miscarriage, the abortion will usually be clean, so there is no need to take medicine, and you can go back and have a good rest. My mind was completely empty. I walked slowly on the street, as if I had really lost my way. Looking at the brightly lit streets on the noisy street, my heart was so dark. Can't get out of the light. Suddenly a familiar figure appeared in front of me, and there was a charming woman next to me. I shouted, Wang Jun. He turned around and saw that it was me. He quickly pushed the woman next to him and asked me, how could you do this? Here, as if possessed, I rushed forward like crazy and hit him, but he blocked my hand. He pushed me. I was already very weak, so I fell to the ground. He didn't care about me. He just said, don't get too nervous here. If you have anything to say when you get home, he held his hand. The woman's hand disappeared from my sight. I cried there alone for a long time. For a long time, the onlookers said three or four things to me. I ignored the looks of others and walked hard on the street step by step. I couldn't find a reason to go home. I really wanted to die. But after thinking about my parents, I decisively gave up. I think I must divorce him. I was really tired during this period and suffered a severe blow to my body and mind. It made me completely understand that it is so difficult for a person to meet a man who truly loves and understands you in this life. I don’t ask for it, as long as I Thinking too wonderfully.

After ending this marriage, I flew to another city and started a new journey. This relationship made me understand that what marriage needs in many cases is to increase the joy of life. The two people care for each other and respect each other, rather than burying themselves in the grave. If he is not good enough to you, why bother yourself to get married. If he is good enough, how can he wrong you in marriage.

It’s really not that I don’t want to, but that many marriages will look so unbearable without love.