When did you suddenly feel mediocre?

Everyone is like a grain of sand trying to shine, but it is not easy for such a big beach and so much sand to stand out and shine.

We are writing our life seriously, maybe it will shine at a certain moment, and we will be happy and proud of our achievements. But most of the time, we belong to the ordinary.

When I was interviewing for a job, I was waiting for a train to recruit for the city. In the waiting hall, there was a sea of people. Most of them are young people who take job-seeking exams. Everyone dresses up beautifully and tries to make a good impression on the examiner. We come from different universities in the same city, go to the same city to take the same exam and compete for the same position. The students walking together can't help feeling when they see the hidden army of job seekers. The pressure is so great that our college students are worthless. At that moment, we realized our mediocrity. Once the dream, once the passion, at this moment, disappeared without a trace, only the sense of powerlessness and frustration of repeated job rejection accompanied us.

When I first joined the work, I faced too many special groups because of the nature of the department. When we visited poor households during the Spring Festival, we walked into those families and saw the scene that some people were surrounded by walls, and the only decoration at home was the real estate advertisements picked up on the street. There is no place for them in that beautiful building. Someone is seriously ill in bed, and the medicine boxes are piled up in a hill. Some people's children are imprisoned for killing their wives, which leads to a difficult life for their only grandson, and they have to endure the eyes of their neighbors in the village.

"There are thousands of spacious buildings in Qian Qian, and the poor in the world are happy." I finally understand how powerless the poet Du Fu is in expressing such feelings. At that moment, I felt my mediocrity. Under the current economic level, the only thing we can do is to give them a minimum living guarantee. Other than that, nothing else.

When I joined the work, I was very proud of successfully solving the reasonable demands of the masses. However, when I saw a group of people deliberately distorting policies and disturbing public order under the banner of vulnerable groups, and the government had to blindly accommodate under the pressure of maintaining stability, I felt very mediocre at that moment. Our correct interpretation of the document can't convince them. The incitement of others, the ugliness and greed of human nature, and the accumulated distrust of historical reasons make us feel powerless.

When I feel mediocre, I pray that everything grows, I hope the world is peaceful, and I hope everyone has their own belonging and happiness.

I believe that when we find the value of our existence, when the world is full of fairness, justice and mediocrity, we will leave us.