The failure experience of the first interview: the negative impact of confused thinking

The failure experience of the first interview: the negative impact of confused thinking

I found out about my civil service examination results in late November last year, and at the same time as the results came out, The state has announced the minimum control scores for civil servant interviews. At that time, the Nanchang Customs Anti-Smuggling Bureau I applied for was a provincial-level, sub-provincial comprehensive management position. The national score line at that time was 105 points, but I scored 109.3 points, which means that it was only 4.3 points more than the minimum control line. I checked the registration status of the position I applied for (the number of admissions was 1), and 175 people passed the registration review in one ***, which should be said to be the largest number of applicants among all English and Japanese professional positions. After the results came out, I actually didn’t have high hopes for getting an interview. This went on for nearly a week or two, probably in early December, when one day I suddenly received a phone call from Nanchang Customs. It informed me that I had entered the interview and asked me to mail the registration form and other materials before November 15th. When I arrived at the customs, my parents were very happy that I had entered the interview, because before that, I had taken three or four such open recruitment examinations, and was eliminated every time in the written examination. I compiled the registration form and other materials and mailed them out via EMS the next day. At the same time, preparations for the interview began.

Another ten days have passed like this. During these ten days, many departments of the central government have begun to conduct interviews one after another, but these departments under the customs system have not done so at all. There was no movement. It wasn't until January 20th that a message was posted on the Customs Admissions website, roughly telling interview candidates that interviews with the Customs system would be concentrated on the 27th and 28th. Since I was in another province and the Spring Festival was approaching, I thought I might not be able to make it if I didn’t prepare early to buy a train ticket, so I ordered a train ticket for the 26th at the ticket booking office in advance. At this time, I still I didn't receive any phone notification from Nanchang Customs. A few days passed. I waited until the afternoon of the 24th and called Nanchang Customs. The staff there told me that the customs had announced it on their homepage that day. Specific interview arrangements. Specifically, the lottery will be held on the 26th, the psychological test on the 27th, and the structured interview on the 28th. It is also noted that if you are unable to arrive in time to draw lots for some reason, you can contact the customs first.

Since I had already booked a train ticket for the 26th, when the customs called me on the evening of the 24th to officially inform me of the interview time, I mentioned this issue to them, but they repeatedly told me that there was no room for accommodation. , and strongly recommended that I fly there, emphasizing that if I could not arrive on time, I would be disqualified for the interview. In other words, what they posted online before, "If you can't arrive in time to draw lots for some reason, you can contact the customs first," is completely nonsense. I'm not afraid of you laughing at it. For me, who has just started working for less than half a year, I All the savings may be enough to take a plane to the interview without food or drink.

There is no way. I asked someone to refund the ticket for the 26th that night, but it is definitely impossible to take the train to Nanchang on the 25th, because there is only one train to Nanchang from where I am every day. I took a train at 6 a.m. After getting up on the morning of the 25th, I asked for leave from the company (according to the company's regulations, nearly 90 yuan will be deducted from wages for one day of leave). I rushed to the long-distance bus station early in the morning and spent a lot of time I finally bought a long-distance bus ticket to Nanchang for 150 yuan. After nearly five hours of driving, it was already past two o'clock in the afternoon when I arrived in Nanchang. Since I was not familiar with the place, it took me a long time just to find a guest house near Nanchang Customs. for an hour. Next, I packed up my things hastily, made some bread for dinner, and went to bed early.

The lottery was drawn at 10:30 a.m. on the 26th. When I arrived at the lobby of the office building, the lobby was already full of people. Everyone spoke Mandarin with different accents and greeted each other. Seeing so many people rushing from all over for more than 20 positions is enough to show how popular the civil service examination is today. A few days later, most of the people here could only face the fate of being eliminated. I couldn't help feeling deeply disappointed. At the same time, I also felt a lot of pressure. When roll call was taken in the hall, only four people came for the position I was interviewing for, including three girls studying English. They were all from Nanchang University in this province.

The lottery for our group was held in the conference room on the 7th floor (or 8th floor) of the Customs. I sat in a row with three other girls, waiting to have their ID cards and graduation certificates checked, and then the lottery started. After a short exchange, I gradually became familiar with them. One of the girls kept asking about each other's grades and seemed to be joking with everyone: asking who knew anyone. In fact, in my opinion, this is more of a trial between each other. When it was officially our turn to draw lots, the girl who had never shown up also arrived. Everyone started to draw lots. Two girls stood in front of me and drew first. When it was my turn, there were still three lots left in front of me. I casually I took one. Unfortunately, I happened to take the first one, which meant that I would be interviewed before the four of them during the interview. Anyone who has gone through an interview may know that this visa is not a good one for me. After everything was done, I went downstairs with the other four girls. When the elevator reached the third floor (I can’t remember exactly), the girl who arrived last said she still had something to do, so she went straight to the third floor of the customs office building. When the elevator door closed, the girl who had been waiting with me before The three girls looked at each other and smiled. I thought about the conversation they had before, and I couldn't help but feel a little thump in my heart.

I had lunch at "Little Sheep", because yesterday I ate casually, and now I felt a little hungry, so I put everything in the hot pot into my stomach. When checking out, the waiter told me it was 33 yuan. The price was not expensive, but it felt like a particularly eye-catching figure, so I hurriedly paid and left. On the way back to the guest house, I remembered the experience of drawing lots in the morning again, and for a moment my mood was extremely low. In order to feel better, I went to the August 1st Nanchang Uprising Memorial Hall (which was being renovated at the time) in the afternoon, and visited the commercial pedestrian street in Nanchang. It is quite prosperous. In fact, if you only look at the pedestrian streets of a city, you will not feel that it is a city at all. Advanced and backward, just like looking at Shanghai and Beijing in China, one may mistakenly think that China has become a moderately developed country. After that, I went to Tengwang Pavilion. The tickets here are quite expensive. After the experience of seeing the Yellow Crane Tower in Wuhan at the beginning of the year, I have no interest in "climbing the tower and enjoying the scenery" again. After returning to my residence, I began to practice my self-introduction and asked and answered some interview questions from previous years. This state has been going on for a long time since I received the interview notice. The closer I get to the interview, I feel that my verbal expressions and thinking and reaction abilities are getting worse and worse than before. At the same time, I comforted myself and felt that I could give my best in the interview.

The psychological test on the afternoon of the 27th was unremarkable. I have seen this content on the Internet before. In fact, I personally feel that such a test is not very useful in examining a person’s mind, because as a person who can For a candidate who enters the interview, he will never be stupid enough to choose some incredible answers and then eliminate himself. The weather was very good on the morning of the 26th. I went to the Shengjin Pagoda near my residence. Standing on the top floor of the tower, I had a panoramic view of half of Nanchang City. I worshiped the Bodhisattva there. In fact, when I came out from home on the 25th, my parents also asked me to worship the Guanyin Bodhisattva at home. In fact, I still believe this in my heart, because the current ability of human beings is not enough to explain the world. For all the problems that arise, humans are still insignificant in nature. Guarding the totem in your heart with a pious heart can at least give yourself enough confidence. But later it turned out that these were not enough to ensure that I could successfully pass the final interview.

The interview for our group was held on the afternoon of the 28th. Before the interview, all candidates were arranged to wait in the canteen hall of the customs dormitory. Candidates' mobile phones and other communication supplies are managed centrally, and even when they go to the toilet, they are accompanied by someone. This was done to prevent the interview questions from being leaked, as they would be the same for all candidates throughout the afternoon. The group in front of us was interviewing for a position in the Customs Regulations Office. Although registration required ten years of work experience, five candidates were still shortlisted.

I looked at the candidates who were about to walk into the examination room with me. Ten years had left indelible marks on their faces. Faced with such an interview, I originally thought they would be more qualified than me. They were calm and confident, but when it was their turn next, they all stood up from their seats without exception and began to become restless. In fact, it is understandable that such an opportunity is for everyone. Not many, because before this, they had defeated dozens or even hundreds of other opponents before they got the opportunity to come here for an interview. I once told my parents that even if I were asked to take the exam ten more times, I might not be able to get into the interview again. After all, this time it was 175 to 1. The competition was too cruel.

It was already around 2:30 pm when it was my turn for the interview. The examination room was in a very old conference room. The lighting inside was not very good, and the exaggerated red tone made my mood somewhat affected. There were nine examiners sitting across from me. They started by introducing themselves. I followed my preparations and went quite smoothly. At a certain moment, I felt that the entire examination room's attention was focused on me. However, in the later question-and-answer session, my thinking became somewhat confusing, and two questions in a row ended hastily, which definitely had some negative impact on my results. When I tried to save the situation in the third question, it might have been a little late. Regarding the answers to the next three questions, I actually felt that I still performed at my usual level. Therefore, the moment I walked out of the examination room, I was not very satisfied with my performance. There was no disappointment like when I heard the results later. After all, this is my first time participating in this kind of interview. More than a month ago, I didn't even know the specific interview procedures.

Since the results will not be announced until the afternoon of February 1st, and the deadline for me to ask for leave from the company is coming, for a result that does not have much hope, I decided to take the long-distance bus back to Changsha that night.

At four o'clock in the afternoon on February 1st, I learned about the shortlist of candidates through an acquaintance, and the girl who arrived later successfully entered the physical examination. Maybe she performed better than the four of us that day. ;