Gongshan recruitment

In July, 2020, I finished preparing for the last exam in Baise, Guangxi Zhuang Autonomous Region, and then I left my study materials at Baise Railway Station.

0 1.

I graduated in 20 16, which is not bad in that college that didn't make the list.

Like all fresh college students, I tried my best to buy counseling materials and read books in the year of graduation, just to have a "compilation" as soon as I graduated.

One month before graduation, Xiaoli and I took an exam in go to dali.

I was accompanied by Yang Shuai from the Agricultural College and his girlfriend. I am confident in the exam, because I have memorized all the counseling materials and I am not familiar with them.

I applied for farm workers in Hekou county, limited to Honghe hukou, majoring in secretarial science, but the number also reached 1: 500.

On the day of the exam, Xiaoli and I were not in the same test center. I am in Xiaguan No.1 Middle School, and she is in Dali College. When the test paper was handed out, I found that I had never read those questions, and there were no questions in the counseling materials.

100 multiple-choice questions, I basically rely on luck. I have probably guessed the result of the exam, but I overestimated my ability.

Check the results after one month, and the results are not satisfactory. The difference with the first place is 10, ranking 12. Xiaoli didn't enter Zhaotong's poverty alleviation staff, but Yang Shuai from the agricultural department was successfully admitted and went to Longchuan County, Dehong Prefecture.

Although disappointed, I didn't lose heart.

I continue to study hard, because I am a non-normal major, so I can't be a teacher in Courtfield, and there are few positions I can apply for.

In July of the same year, I took an examination of the career establishment of Honghe Prefecture again. After graduation, I went home and went to a training institution in Kunming. I spent hundreds of dollars to buy a bag of counseling materials to prepare for the exam at home. The scores of several mock exams are all above 1.75.

On the night I went to take the exam in Mengzi, my father and I had a quarrel, and my mood was unstable, but I adjusted my mood and took the exam.

After the exam, I began to look for a job to make a living.

Check the results after one month, and the score is 175. This score was still very high in that year. If I apply for Pu 'er and Nujiang, I can go ashore, but in Honghe Prefecture, my score is really not high. The first place is 20 1, and the second place is 189.

I finally ranked eighth with 1: 350, full of disappointment, but I still comforted myself that I still have to take the exam next year.

02.

I went to Kunming with my luggage to find a job and started selling doors and windows. It's really hard to make money by yourself, and finally the days of asking for living expenses from home are over.

But I still want to take exams in my heart. I want a stable life.

At the end of 20 16, I successfully completed my undergraduate studies in Yunnan Normal University by myself, and I will receive my diploma after taking part in thesis defense in the spring of the following year.

Whether the undergraduate major is Marxist philosophy or non-normal major. Speaking of the initial intention of choosing this major, it is pure love.

Because I don't know anything about employment prospects and professional problems, I have taken many detours, and professional problems have become obstacles on my way to exam compilation.

Some mistakes have been made and cannot be made up. The only thing I can do is to try my best to correct the wrong path slowly.

This process will be very hard and difficult, but I believe that the end will come.

In the spring of 20 17, I came to Longling county, Baoshan city, 800 kilometers away by myself from Kunming, and started my career as a rural teacher.

It was also in that place that I tasted hardships and experienced me, which made me more independent and stronger.

One advantage of attending classes at school is that it is convenient to compile exams.

It is easier to start a business in western Yunnan than in central Yunnan and eastern Yunnan, while several cities in western Yunnan, except the remote Nujiang area, have restrictions on household registration in other places (including Dehong, Lincang and Baoshan).

On May 20 17, I was employed by the People's Government of Dulongjiang Town, Gongshan County, Nujiang Prefecture.

Before entering the exam, I have checked the local traffic conditions. Although remote, the folk customs are simple. I have been wandering around the world for many years, with no attachments. As long as my job is stable, everything will get better gradually.

The exam is very troublesome. In addition to online registration, you have to go to the local area to take the exam.

It is an extremely difficult road from primary school to Nujiang.

The school is on the top of the hill. If I want to go to Nujiang, I have to go down to Baoshan first, and then transfer from the city to Liuku.

May and June are rainy seasons, and the mountains are foggy. Because the bus to Baoshan only leaves once a day, and my location is in the center, the driver doesn't want to pick me up near the top of the mountain, so I can only walk alone through the deserted mountain road to my car.

03.

Give students homework, carry heavy test materials on their backs, and start climbing mountains and mountains at five in the morning.

I clearly remember that there are graves and Woods on both sides of the mountain, and there are only crickets and crows around it quietly. I never dare to stop myself, because I'm afraid I won't go any further after I stop.

Every time I see a distant village, I feel happy. Finally arrived at the destination, finally saw passers-by, and the inner anxiety can finally be put down.

On the way to Nujiang, it rained all the way. On the day of the exam, I felt that I played very well. There is hope without accident.

A month later, the score, test and theory were all 178, but the score of Nujiang was not high that year.

After waiting for a month, official website began to publish the rankings. I don't know that I failed again, but I have entered the interview. Just because I am not a Lisu, I was overtaken by the candidates behind me.

For the first time, I feel that my efforts are not proportional to my returns.

After the exam, my body became very poor and I lost 38 pounds. In order to save my life, I temporarily gave up my rural teaching life and went back to my hometown hospital for surgery.

Lying in the hospital, I am very unwilling.

Borrow money for treatment during the hospital reexamination. When I can get out of bed and walk, I will go downstairs with my information and endorse it. I heard that there are not many restrictions on the establishment of teachers in Sichuan, so I tried to report to other places for the first time.

Besides, I think Yibin, Sichuan is not far from Kunming. In order to save money, you can only take the 12 hour night train.

At Yibin Railway Station, I met my college classmate. He helped me find a hotel and lived next door to me, so that we could take care of each other.

This exam, I obviously feel overwhelmed. I don't understand many technical terms of normal majors, and finally I didn't even check my exam results.

After I came back from Yibin, I was admitted to the hospital again. It's just that Xuanwei is recruiting teachers and needs me to register on the spot. At that time, I lived in Kaiyuan Hospital. There was a through train from Kaiyuan to Xuanwei, but it took four hours.

The process of the exam is also full of twists and turns, and the exam results are ok. I can rank 30th with 1: 1000. I have tried my best.

04.

After Xuanwei's exam, I took part in the exams of "three supports and one support" in my hometown and institutions, and the results were unsuccessful.

In order to recuperate, I can only give up first.

In the spring of 2065438+2009, my health also improved greatly. I quit my job in Lincang and went all out to take the volunteer exam in Xichou County, Wenshan Prefecture.

I was a little nervous during the interview, didn't play well, and finally came back for nothing.

It is also because of the blind choice of this life that I missed the love of my life. From then on, I can only wander alone in the vast sea of people.

20 19 participated in the exam of Jianshui institution, and his mentality was completely bad. Sitting in the examination room, I picked up the draft paper on the side and began to scribble. I don't want to take the exam again.

In this way, I ended my career as an examiner.

I began to think about how to make money and how to solve the dilemma of survival first.

It was not until 2020 that I saw the recruitment in Guangxi began to open the book that had already been closed.

When I took the Baise exam, I took the high-speed train for three hours. I am looking for a hotel and an examination center in a strange city. I didn't think about the result in my heart, but I just hope that this road will end soon.

Great rebellious psychology, so that I have no intention of taking the exam.

Finally, I calmly left the review materials in my bag in the dustbin of Baise Railway Station. I have been to this city after all.

It rained heavily in Guangxi that night, and the high-speed train back to Kunming was delayed for more than three hours, so we had to queue up to change it. The last high-speed train back to Kunming is 9 pm, which is already early in the morning.

I fell asleep at the table. When we arrived at the station, it was difficult to get a taxi in the early morning. I have to take a motorcycle, and fear and unwillingness surround me.

05.

After that, I calmed down and thought seriously. Why should I take the exam?

There are two reasons: first, I want a stable life and a stable income; Second, I work hard enough, my learning ability is not bad, and I can do my job well.

I wasted a lot of time on the way to the exam and didn't want to plan my career. I naively thought that only exams could make me realize the value of my life.

I tried to do sales and made a lot of achievements. I paid off the debts I owed during the operation and settled myself for the time being, but I have been stuck in my heart about the examination and compilation. Every time I want to let go, I still get tangled up.

More and more friends are admitted, and many people gradually choose to return to their families and careers. I began to walk out slowly.

I still have a lot of things to do compared with the exam compilation.

Because of the exam, I also lost many opportunities, giving up the door and window sales that I have been insisting on for three years and giving up the development in Zhejiang. Of course, I also gained a lot on the way.

20 17 when I was teaching in Longling, my classmate Yang Shuai's father gave me the warmth of family.

Uncle Yang has been suffering from polio since he was a child and can only crawl on the road, but he has always been self-reliant and devoted himself to adding water to the big cars passing by the roadside. He always encouraged me: "If you have a dream, you must work hard. Although it may not be successful, there will always be no hope without hard work. "

Every time I walk on the road, I feel like a person with a dream.

Every time I see a job advertisement in a place, I feel that I am about to be admitted.

But the examination and compilation consumes not only material and financial resources, but also mental torture.

When I saw my father and grandmother still living in a dilapidated house, when I saw that my family were sick and couldn't get any money, I knew it was time to make peace with myself.

On an ordinary day, I suddenly put it down.

I have failed so many times, and I have been tossing for so many years. It's time to calm yourself down.

As the ancients said, "If you are poor, you will change, if you change, you will be able to pass, and the general rules will not be dangerous." You should learn to turn when the road is blocked. Instead of not hitting the south wall and not looking back, it is better to go forward by another way. Learning to turn is wisdom.

This is not giving up, but looking for better opportunities. The end of the road does not mean the end of the road, but reminds us that it is time to turn.

Water to despair is a landscape, and people to despair are reborn.

Save your energy and keep your hair well, just for one day, I was on the "ashore" list published by official website.

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I am an egret, thank you for reading.