We never planned to meet

Guangmian, I think you are like the light that once illuminated my dim life. In fact, we passed each other once in the past five years, in front of the glass of the aquarium. You tell the girl next to you that there once was a real mermaid here. She was beautiful and kind, but unfortunately she turned into a bubble in the end.

Bai Yan: Born in the late 1980s, a Virgo. You can live for fifteen days without going shopping. You can live for seven days without eating rice. You can live for three days without calling Honey. I can't live a day without writing.

1. When the clouds break and the sun rises, you are the beam of light

I remember that the sky was a bit gray that day, and the wind picked up, and it just blew my scarf to the middle of the road.

To be precise, it is a street that has just been connected to buses. There are old buildings on both sides. The walls on both sides of the entrance to the small supermarket, barber shop and dry cleaner on the bottom floor are all without exception. It was painted with a big red word "Demolish". The iron windows, which have been smudged by oil smoke all year round, are stained with sticky black oil. Except for the struggling plants placed on the balconies of a few residents to bring some vitality, the whole street has an air of lingering depression.

Why do I remember it so clearly.

Her name is Yu Weifeng, an educated youth from Shanghai, whose parents divorced early in life. When she was 17 years old, she was sent to Lianyungang.

In fact, I didn’t pay attention to these tiny details before, but the moment I thought my life was about to disappear, I suddenly saw everything in front of me clearly, including two sparrows parked on the wires that followed a cry. The scream of brakes, the scene of extremely frightened flying high.

When I woke up, Miaozhi was already in the hospital.

The unfamiliar environment made me instinctively frightened, especially when I squinted and saw a person along the undulating quilt. It was a head of hair completely different from Wenjie's, clean, well-defined, and full of energy. There wasn't a trace of dandruff on the black coat, nor was there a nauseating smell of alcohol.

From this, I was sure that this male Charles, who was sleeping soundly by the window, could not refuse, so I had to nod again. Seeing that it was getting late at night, I asked Lan Cai why you didn't go home yet? This person will never be Wenjie.

At this time our eyes met.

Later I recalled that look many times. It was very bright, as if it was shining on the entire lake that was reflecting the red sunset.

Only four words came to mind, past and present.

If not, why would you blush slightly when you met my astonished eyes, then grinned, "Mermaid, you finally woke up."

I was stunned for a moment until you took out a business card with the name of the External Relations Department of the East Lake Aquarium written on it, as well as your name, Ji Guangmian.

Don’t worry, the fever has gone away. The doctor said you are anemic and should pay attention to your health. After you finished speaking, when Shen Hongfei saw that I didn't respond, she kept silent, her big eyes restraining her emotions. At this time, Li Xingduo hoped that he was not Shen Hongfei's boss. That way, she could mock him, ridicule him, and ask for gifts on various festivals or occasions for no reason, just like she did to her friends. Once, Li Xing heard that Shen Hongfei asked for a pair of winter wool socks in the name of "Winter Solstice". Li Xing couldn't help but guess that the other party must be a boy. Thinking about things like wool socks, would any girl buy them for girls? So he got up to stretch his muscles and said he went out to smoke a cigarette to refresh himself.

In fact, in the past two or three minutes, I have vaguely remembered everything that happened yesterday. Understand that it has nothing to do with your car. On the contrary, if you hadn't stopped the car in time, I might have been playing chess with God when I was on the way to buy medicine because of a fever.

I touched my pocket and my phone was still there. I habitually pressed a series of numbers, but then I deleted them again.

Throughout the whole night, there was not a single missed call or a single message. Suddenly, my nose felt sore from grievance, and tears welled up in my eyes.

But you came back at this time, carrying a bowl of wontons mixed with the flavor of shrimp and green onion.

The taste aroused my appetite. At this time, I was so hungry that I could no longer care about my sadness and grievance. I was reserved and polite, said thank you, took it over happily, and took a sip of the soup.

After we got to know each other, you accidentally mentioned it once, saying that when I was drinking soup, I felt like I got it. I understood that the panic these days must be because she didn’t want to miss me for the last time. Just leave.

I knelt on the ground and gave her paper money, and my tears broke down again. I said: "You haven't told me yet, do you hate me..." The long-awaited marshmallow child looked innocent and satisfied. . You also said that it was that expression that killed you instantly.

But I didn’t tell you that dawn had arrived, the clouds broke and the sun rose, and you were the first beam of light I saw.

2. Time is a sharp knife

I often imagine that I am a fish, and I will never do the stupid thing of leaving the ocean just because I fall in love with a prince on land. . This way I can always dive under the sea and enjoy freedom and comfort. Occasionally, I poke my head out and look at the humans running for life on the land, feeling emotional or pity.

You will never have to go back to that loft on a remote street when night falls.

There is always a creaking sound when going up the stairs. The room is not small, but it is damp and dark. Still, I was reluctant to open the windows or light too many lights. Because I don’t need any more light to see through the holes in my current life.

When returning home, Wenjie squatted in the corner playing stand-alone games. His phone kept vibrating, but he ignored it. I opened the door silently and found my own pot in the public kitchen that had been messed up by my neighbors.

Wenjie spoke less and less. I didn’t ask him how he was doing with his job because I was afraid of seeing the apologetic and ashamed look in his eyes. It's only been two years, and I don't understand how time has turned into a sharp knife, carving Wenjie and me into such a bleak and indifferent place.

Yes, before I met you, my life situation was not optimistic.

Wenjie is my boyfriend. We came to this city with its unique and beautiful night scene two years ago. I changed countless jobs, rented a small house, each had a room, and kept my original promise. At first, life was full of hope. Even drinking the same drink from the same bottle and counting the stars together on the balcony felt happy.

But later on, I don’t understand what changed. The roadside stalls seemed to be getting less and less to his liking. Maybe he had encountered too many obstacles. The first thing he said every day was complaining.

That day he held my hand, with a long-lost tenderness in his eyes.

He asked me to close my eyes, I obeyed, and then he put a ring around my finger.

I can’t tell the material clearly, but I’m still pleasantly surprised. We had a rare moment of silence and no quarrels, so we watched a movie and had a somewhat luxurious meal. When he came back, he kissed me and smiled under the moonlight. He said, Qiao Wei, we will get better slowly. After three years, you can get married at the age of twenty-four.

Although life is not what I want, I am still full of expectations and have alternative small plans.

For example, I got married at the age of twenty-four, saved a small amount of money at the age of twenty-two, and Wenjie and I went on a short trip.

But in my plan, I didn’t meet you when I was twenty-one.

You messed up my plans.

3. Why didn’t I meet you earlier

Even if I live in a dirty attic, wear cheap clothes, and earn a very low salary for this city

One night when I was walking to my apartment after class, someone chased me. It was Amulgiya. She called me brother and went straight to the topic. It seemed that she had been brewing for a long time. She said that she was pregnant with that ugly man's child, and if she wanted to abort the child, she could only turn to her husband's friends for help. Most of his love was tokens. The girl was waiting for him to say not to leave. She waited and waited. He didn't say anything until she got on the plane. Luo Jialun's love token to Zhang Weizhen is two landscape postcards and two small landscape photos. Although it is not expensive, it contains Luo Jialun's desire to fly together with Zhang Weizhen. My heart aches. But I don't know what else to do. I think he will forget me one day. mind. Zhang Weizhen understood the meaning, and the love token she gave Luo Jialun in return was a jade photo of herself. When a girl gives her beautiful photo to a man, it naturally means the love in her heart. Luo Jialun wrote in his diary: "It's your photos that make me happy all my life." From then on, Zhang Weizhen and Luo Jialun began to pass letters, and their long love journey began. It's hard for her to keep her secrets from fair-weather friends. water. I still have the heart of a girl who loves beauty.

When I was young, I found jobs I liked, such as a customer service girl at McDonald's, a purchasing agent in a private clothing store, and a consultant at a cosmetics counter.

I have always felt grateful for guarding my youth, the only thin and profitable capital. Especially on the day I applied for the special job at the aquarium, I felt that the friendly smile on the receptionist’s face was too good to be true.

If it weren’t for the huge mermaid sketch on the recruitment list that caught my eye, I would have almost forgotten that besides being young, I also have a skill, which is diving and swimming.

Because when I was young, the sea was not far from my home. Even the small C?te d'Azur made my swimming talent possible.

Seriously, it’s an amazing job.

Wear a special "fish scale suit" and a sparkling "fish tail" every day. The makeup artist pinned various dazzling starfish sequins like shells on my long hair, which was curled and hung on my shoulders leisurely and casually. Behind the huge glass, I sat on the huge "reef" with squinted eyes. In the blue sea under my feet, colorful fish swam back and forth, occasionally brushing against my calf. The numbing feeling made me laugh uncontrollably.

With a beautiful female college student

You said I am beautiful.

So you remembered me at the first sight, so you5 called me, mermaid, the moment I woke up.

After we got to know each other well, you often came to see me through work. Through the transparent glass, your gaze is reflected, as clear as the water in the shallow sea.

Every time you come here, those beautiful colleagues will involuntarily straighten their bangs or straighten their clothes.

If it were someone else and given the identity of the curator's only son, it would be normal for the employees to react like this. But there is no arrogance unique to the rich second generation on your face, nor is there any youthful and frivolous arrogance. This is a new air-conditioned express train bound for Beijing. The common-seat carriage is crowded with passengers with different accents. Praise, at the age of twenty-two, he is as refreshing as a green plant.

You insist on letting me treat you as an ordinary friend. You take me for a ride and treat me to dinner. But there are only three things that can happen. The third time, I told you very seriously that I have a boyfriend. His name is Chen Wenjie, and he is Lin Jiani. He has been working in this bakery for a year and seven months. She wants to save money because the doctor said that to remove the "toad", skin grafting is required, which costs 20,000 yuan. painter.

In front of outsiders, I always introduce him like this. Although he stopped painting for a long time.

Every time I say this, others don’t believe it. Their faces always show disdain or ridicule. But you were just stunned, and smiled for a while, you had already guessed that a simple girl like you must have a good boy to care for you.

I don’t know why, but your trusting yet slightly hurt gaze makes me feel inexplicably flustered. I rubbed the ring on my hand over and over again. As a result, it suddenly slipped out of my control and fell into the huge pool before I could catch it.

I had just changed my clothes and was standing by the slippery pool with my bare feet. Just as I was about to catch up, I sprained my foot and severe pain hit me instantly. And I didn't expect that you would take off your shoes and jump down.

A long, long time later, in dreams or in a trance, the image of you emerging from the pool with your head full of water drops will suddenly appear in my mind. The orange fish slipped out of your sleeve, you held the ring high and waved to me with a playful smile.

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