Luoshen garden property

My first impression of Xiao Hong originated from a text "Huoshaoyun" in primary school.

"After dinner, sunrise. Red for a while, golden for a while, half purple and half yellow for a while, half gray and half white for a while ... "

At that time, I had no idea about this writer, but after reading the author's profile, I couldn't help feeling: Gee, she is only thirty-one years old and young and promising. How did she die?

Later, with the rise of the internet and the screening of various film and television dramas, I began to pay attention to this mysterious woman slowly, and gradually realized that, like those excellent literary works, her life was ups and downs and thought-provoking.

Xiao Hong, formerly known as Zhang Naiying, was born in a feudal landlord family in Hulan District, Harbin City, Heilongjiang Province in191.

With her unique creative style and aesthetic tendency, she became a strong fresh blood in the literary world at that time together with Lv Bicheng, Shi Pingmei and Zhang Ailing, and was called "the four talented women of the Republic of China".

However, it is such a woman writer who has made great contributions in the history of China literature, but she has a fragmented childhood, an ill-fated love and a ups and downs life.

The lack of love in childhood has become a permanent injury in her heart.

Since childhood, Xiaohong's relationship with her parents has been very weak. Influenced by son preference, Xiaohong's relationship with her mother has always been dull. Her father was indifferent by nature and naturally didn't give her the love and warmth she deserved.

When Xiaohong was eight years old, her mother died of cholera. Since then, Xiaohong has been living with her grandfather.

Fortunately, Xiaohong's grandfather is a kind and friendly old man who takes good care of Xiaohong. Xiao Hong's missing fatherly love and maternal love can be found in him.

Xiaohong's family has a vegetable garden, and most of his childhood memories were spent in the vegetable garden with his grandfather. These fond memories of childhood are also recorded by Xiao Hong in her literary works.

Xiao Hong wrote in Biography of Hulan River: My family has a big garden. The garden is bright, red, green and green ... flowers bloom, just like flowers wake up. The bird flew as if it were in the sky. This bug barks as if talking. Everything is alive. Everyone's skills are unlimited, so you can do whatever you want. Do what you want. All free. Cucumber is willing to give birth to a cucumber, so give birth to a cucumber. If you don't want to, you won't even have a cucumber, a flower and no one will ask. ...

The time when grandparents and grandchildren lived together became the best memory of Xiao Hong's life, and it was also a warm time that she could never go back in her life.

Grandfather used to be a scholar. He would teach Xiao Hong some ancient poems, such as The Amethyst. Those boring poems were unconsciously recorded in Xiao Hong's mind in the laughter between grandparents and grandchildren, which also laid a good foundation for her future creation.

However, the good times did not last long. 1929, the only grandfather in the world who loved her and made her feel a little warm in the world passed away.

Xiao Hong wrote in the article:

If I die my grandfather, I will die the most important person in my life, as if he died, leaving all the "love" and "warmth" in the world empty. My heart is tied with silk or iron wire.

After grandpa died, Xiaohong realized that she had no one to rely on in this world. Her father, cold stepmother and depressed family environment made her realize that she had no home and no home to return to.

"In the future, I will leave home and go to the vast sea of people."

From then on, Xiao Hong was like duckweed, helpless and wandering around until she lived a desolate and lonely life.

No one is anyone's savior

1928, when Xiaohong was studying in Harbin No.1 Girls' Middle School, an uncle at home arranged a marriage for her, and the other was a local primary school teacher, Wang Enjia.

Wang Enjia is handsome, and his brother is the principal of a local primary school. Both are suitable. On the whole, Xiao Hong is satisfied with Wang Enjia. According to Xiao Hong's classmates, Xiao Hong also wrote love letters and knitted sweaters to Wang Enjia.

If Xiao Hong can successfully marry Wang Enjia, she will definitely lead a stable and plain life, but Xiao Hong is a rebellious girl, and her ideas and consciousness that have accepted countless progressive ideas have also changed greatly. She is no longer satisfied with the small world in Harbin, and is eager to see a wider world.

Later, Xiao Hong and her cousin Lu Zheshun hit it off and went to Peiping together. Xiao Hong also began to study in the girls' middle school affiliated to the Women's Teachers College of Peking University.

At that time, Lu Zheshun was married, and the news of their departure caused an uproar at home. The family was cut off and forced to go home.

After being imprisoned by her family for a month, Xiao Hong returned to Beiping, and soon after, her fiance Wang Enjia followed her to Beiping.

Wang Dacheng, Wang Enjia's brother, was dissatisfied with Xiao Hong's going to Peiping to study, and broke off his engagement on behalf of his brother. In a fit of pique, Xiao Hong took Wang Dacheng to court, and Wang Enjia proposed to dissolve the engagement for his brother's reputation, but Xiao Hong lost the case.

At this time, Xiao Hong should draw a line with Wang Enjia. After all, people have the nature of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages. This man has damaged his reputation and humiliated his family. He doesn't want to associate with him anymore!

But blame Xiao Hong's strange brain circuit. Maybe she is not independent enough, or maybe she is still thinking about her old love. When Wang Enjia came to see her again, Xiaohong miraculously made up with him. They were in Dongxing Shun Hotel in Harbin.

Start living together.

The two of them lived a drunken life in the hotel.

Later, Xiaohong became pregnant, and their lives were in trouble, without any financial resources. Near the delivery date, Wang Enjia proposed to go home and take money to pay off the debt of the hotel, and never came back. Xiao Hong waited and waited, and from then on until the end of her short life, she never came to Wang En's house again.

Some people are just passers-by in your life, not returnees.

Xiao Hong and her fiance Wang Enjia owe the hotel 400 yuan (equivalent to more than 40,000 yuan now). The hotel owner put Xiaohong under house arrest in a dark and damp barn and prepared to sell her to a brothel.

In desperation, Xiao Hong turned to Pei Xinyuan, editor of Harbin International Association Supplement, for help. Pei Xinyuan sent Jun Xiao to the hotel many times to send books and periodicals to Xiao Hong, so Xiao Hong met Jun Xiao.

They had a good talk, and Xiao Jun had no intention of skimming the poems and calligraphy painted by Xiao Hong, expecting that this weak woman must be a talented woman. Jun Xiao was immediately attracted by this calm girl with stubborn eyes, and they fell in love at first sight.

Jun Xiao suffers from not having enough money to save Xiaohong. Just then, the Songhua River burst its banks due to continuous heavy rain, and the hotel was about to be flooded. The hotel owner forgot to take care of Xiaohong and ran away in a hurry. Xiao Jun also got the chance to successfully rescue Xiao Hong.

A few months later, Xiaohong gave birth to a baby girl in Harbin Women and Children Hospital. Because he was unable to support him, he entrusted him to the old man who guarded the hospital. Later, the old man moved away and the child disappeared.

From then on, Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun had a smooth and stable life together. Xiao Jun discovered Xiao Hong's creative ability and taught her to write. If Xiao Hong's initial literary enlightenment came from her grandfather and school, then there is no doubt that Xiao Jun is the real guide who led her to the literary road, and Xiao Jun helped her.

Although two people often go hungry and freeze together, they don't have enough to eat, but Xiao Hong finally finds a way out. Although they have nothing, they stay together to keep warm. It's better than spending a long night alone.