What made you instantly decide to be shaped like this all your life?

After the college entrance examination, I want to be extravagant and squander emptiness. Among my classmates, I heard them say that the sinister villains in the university, that they would have cars and houses to find objects in the future, and that they would gossip with whom, and suddenly found that they might not be in the same world. KTV, bar, billiards hall ... They are busy with them, as if we are not in the same dimension. Slowly, I began to fade out of their sight. Loneliness may be a good thing. This may be maturity. Beijing is such a big city. Walking in the street under the sun, I suddenly felt at home. The university is high-spirited and pretentious, and wants to travel to big cities and experience the traffic under neon lights. Now naked resignation is very angry, and his self-esteem has been shattered in interviews again and again. Next month's rent, pet cat food, my credit card ... I want to say stress, but I can't say it. Before I was mature, I experienced vicissitudes and felt that I was stereotyped.