Excerpts from novels and essays

He and she have been missing, missing August, missing this life, missing Tanabata, missing love, and missing this life. Just like the purple skirt he mentioned, Xiao Hui never wore it again, and hung it in the closet all the time, not because she didn't want to wear it, but because she couldn't bear it anymore.

1

Throughout August, Xiaohui walked through the subway in Shenzhen. Because her work is killing her. She could have gone back to her hometown town to be a small civil servant in the Finance Bureau, but Ennuo asked her to stay. Ennuo said, if you stay, our love can stay.

Ennuo went to a computer company in Shenzhen, and high flyers of Peking University was wanted everywhere. Xiao Hui went to an ordinary school and studied history. She thought, which company would want a history student if it lost its head? Unless this company wants to know what Qin Shihuang did besides repairing the Great Wall! When I am crowded in the subway to find a job every day, Xiaohui thinks that she may have been born in the wrong age. Where can people in the fast food era manage it?

So, she stopped for a moment when she met the music of nature holding a thread-bound book to read. The man opposite, plaid shirt, brown trousers and a big cowboy bag, is reading a book "Drawing in Mustard Garden", which she read in middle school. Two days later, he read a very yellow thread-bound book, as if he could shake it out with a little shaking.

It seems that Xiao Hui is not the only one who likes nostalgia.

I saw his name on the cover. Teana. It's a classic name. Like him, Ennuo has no such temperament. He looks like a new favorite of the computer industry. He likes to wear a suit and say in front of the mirror, don't worry, I will become Zhang Chaoyang in a few years, and there will be beautiful women around him at that time.

Xiao Hui said, Bah, Zhou Ennuo, don't act like a mean person. Am I not beautiful?

are you beautiful? Zhou Ennuo said that it's just a matter of five points for beauty and three points for smartness. In the future, I will find a beautiful woman like Michele Monique Reis to keep my eyes. Knowing that he is joking, Xiao Hui is still unhappy. Such a man really doesn't know what will happen if he has money.

On the tenth day when she met Teana, Xiaohui was almost exhausted when she was looking for a job. The temperature outside is almost 4 degrees. I bought a subway ticket for three yuan and wandered around the subway. I looked at my resume and the job advertisements of various companies, and my heart was gray. I didn't know how to spend this August. So sometimes I lose my temper with Ennuo, saying that he is full of knives for love, and Ennuo said, don't feel wronged, you can go back to your small town, and whoever leaves in this world can live.

I thought he would talk sweet words, but he said such bland words coldly. How did he become like this when he first entered the society? I used to chase myself like a big infatuation, and my heart cooled down when I thought about it.

when she entered the subway, she felt a little dizzy, and then she remembered that she hadn't eaten anything or had a sip of water since morning, and she was afraid she would get heatstroke. I was thinking about it when I saw the man in the plaid shirt, and I felt so soft that I couldn't see anything at the moment.

when I woke up, I was in a man's arms. The man has a faint fragrance, like a cool one with perfume. She opened her eyes and said three words: I'm sorry.

The subway rumbled away, leaving only him and her sitting in the chair on the platform. He unscrewed a bottle of ice water, handed a sandwich, and then said that it was too hot to run as little as possible. Her heart was sour and tears almost fell. This kind of words, grace didn't say a word.

2

When we meet in the subway again, she and he will smile at each other. She has regarded him as a friend since the bottle of ice water and the sandwich. And he still often reads an old book in the subway. When he looks up at her, his eyes show a faint smile.

Xiao Hui avoids his eyes. She knows that this kind of man is fatal to her.

at this time, she finally found a company to work, which has nothing to do with history. She is responsible for collecting documents and cleaning. After work, she has sex with Enoch in the rented house and makes him braised hairtail and green vegetable egg noodles. It's a hut of more than 3 square meters. Without air conditioning, she is often too hot to sleep all night. In August, it was so hot, Ennuo was still clingy, always endless, and then she fell asleep, without asking her about her work and feelings.

it's Scorpio in the subway who looked up one day and asked, have you found a job? Xiao Hui nodded gratefully. He added that it would be good to stand firm in Shenzhen. Take your time and it will always get better.

From beginning to end, Xiao Hui didn't ask him what he did. When they met, they nodded to each other. She read the thread-bound books he changed back and forth, and once she actually saw that he was reading Li Yu's collected works. How smart and intelligent people who can read Li Yu are. Ennuo likes to watch The Matrix, and she likes to watch those desperate movies, such as Four Hundred Years of Surprise. A woman turns into a zombie for the man she loves, such as Rouge Kou, which always makes her love with Ennuo impossible.

She always feels that there is something missing in her love with Ennuo. But the music in the subway makes her feel warm.

Often, they are only 1cm apart. Even, she can feel his breathing, but she dare not look up. In this hot and humid and ambiguous August, she inexplicably feels so happy and sad. Occasionally, she will avoid eye contact and never avoid it again. She is afraid that she will faint again. The Tanabata text message "Missed Tanabata, Missed Love, and Missed this Life".

Did you fall in love with this man named Teana? However, I met in the subway more than 2 days ago and even said only 1 sentences. But she likes to watch him walk out of the subway against the wind, a little lonely. On one occasion, she was just watching, and he suddenly turned back to his head. Then Zhan Yan smiled, and there were so many memorable contents in that smile.

when we go home again, she hugs Ennuo from behind. Ennuo, let's get married.

Ennuo said, stop it, we have just stood still, how is it possible?

Her tears seeped into Ennuo's shirt. Ennuo said, what's wrong with her? Break her hand and play video games alone.

for five days, instead of taking the subway, she changed to a bus. On a hot day, standing in the bright sun, thinking about people reading thread-bound books in the subway, suddenly want to hide their faces.

On the last day of August, she went to the subway again.

seeing him, he said, coming? Why didn't you come for many days? Sick?

Xiao Hui gawked at him. He also looked at her, as if it were as long as a lifetime, but it was only a few seconds.

I've been waiting for you for five days, and I want to tell you something.

don't say it. Xiao Hui said, don't tell me. She struggled inside. I have a boyfriend. She said.

He smiled. I'm leaving for France next week. Thank you for letting me meet you this month. Because every time I meet you, you are like a breeze blowing in my heart, and your purple skirt is very beautiful.

Xiao Hui forgot when he wore a purple skirt, but the man in front of him remembered his purple skirt.

When the tears came up, the subway arrived at the station, and he went out. When she opened the door, he suddenly asked him loudly, what's your name?

Xiao Hui's tears burst down and the door closed. She shouted in the subway: My name is Xiao Hui, my name is Xiao Hui.

Everyone looked at her. A little boy of seven or eight years old smiled and said, Sister, my name is rice. The whole carriage laughed.

that was the last time they met.

when Xiao Hui got out of the subway, she found that the autumn wind seemed to come, and she got in under her legs, and it was as cold as a while. The short skirt looked so rustling in the wind. She hugged her shoulders and felt a little cold. She knew that it was not the weather at all.

in August, Xiao Hui dispersed like fireworks, even leaving few traces. If there were, it was the caring eyes, the smell of thread-bound books, and the name with temperature. Teana.

3

Six years later, Xiaohui has been a supervisor in a company in Hong Kong. How long is six years? She really doesn't know, but the change in six years is so real. She has been working hard, studied MBA, and came to Hong Kong again. She broke up with Ennuo, because half a year later Xiao Hui saw another girl in her bed, the daughter of Ennuo's boss. In Xiao Hui's words, a woman with three points of beauty made Ennuo say goodbye to her feelings for five years.

After that, she talked about several love affairs. At the beginning, it was dull, and at the end, it was even more tasteless. She no longer had the love and sadness in the subway. Often, she would think of the man who read the thread-bound book.

Later, she went to Hongkong and lived a single life in working girl. She went shopping in Central alone, and went to the bookstore to read those old books. As the days went by, the love in Hong Kong was not like Hong Kong in Love in a Fallen City. Later, I met De Ting who came back from the United States. De Ting said, Xiao Hui, can we be cohabiting lovers?

Xiao Hui said, Deting, I just want to find someone to live forever.

De Ting said, Xiao Hui, you don't seem to live in this era. You used such a good bag and perfume for nothing, and your Paris foundation didn't hide your classicality. Unfortunately, fewer and fewer people can appreciate the classics. Everyone is looking for a fast food love. You are so weird.

Xiao Hui flicked the ash off her hand and said, Deting, you have to believe that there will always be people who believe in eternity.

On that day, I went to Central to talk business with a client and made an appointment at the Blue Night Coffee Bar. The atmosphere there was very romantic. She liked the elegance and tranquility. There were many beautifully printed magazines, coated paper, many avant-garde and fashionable things floating on the paper, and very beautiful words and pictures.

while waiting for a client, she often leafs through those magazines at will. That day, too, suddenly, her eyes stopped.

is a beautiful picture. The woman standing in the subway, the woman in purple, the woman with despair and love in her eyes, who is it, not Xiao Hui? For a long time, her tears fell down, and under the painting was the name of the work-"August of Xiaohui". The tears burst like a flood, and the author was the name that had been pressed in my heart for so many years: Scorpio.

it turns out that he is a painter.

There's another line of words, written by Teana.

He wrote about the creation process of this painting: In August of that year, in the Shenzhen subway, in the last month of my hometown, I met a cool girl. She walked through the subway every day, with a kind of classical beauty and sadness. But I passed her by. Because Xiao Hui's August is her own August, without me.

Her tears fell on the painting, and the falling tears explained everything: you were always there in Xiao Hui's August.

It's just that he and she have been missing each other, missing August, and missing this life. Just like the purple skirt he mentioned, Xiao Hui never wore it again, and kept hanging around in the closet, not because she didn't want to wear it, but because she couldn't bear it anymore.

miss you, miss love.