How to treat your life for more than 20 years?

My greatest happiness was in June, 2022, 1 1. After ten years, my house in the eighth-line town finally paid off the mortgage, and the stone in my heart was put down. It feels good to be light without debt.

In order to repay the mortgage and raise the children at the same time, I have done everything, sweeping the floor in the mahjong room, working part-time in the supermarket and working part-time at the small table. Every job is to take care of children and earn some pocket money at the same time. I have never told anyone about it, and I know that others can't help me.

Looking back on this decade, from the age of 24 to 34, the best decade of my life, from nothing to today, I am really satisfied. It seems that I didn't have time to stop and think, to find myself, to be dragged forward all the way, to look back and to be sad. It is no exaggeration to describe this road by scratching around.

This decade, confusion, anxiety, hesitation, psychological pressure, somehow, muddle along, I do not regret, but regret.

Regrettably, I have never really known myself and found myself. Sometimes, I always ask myself, what did I think before? Why didn't you improve yourself before? Why didn't you think about it before? Why are you so stupid?

Of course, I know the answer, and I have no time.

I have no time to look forward, study and reflect. The pressure of life makes me too late to think.

Now, I can finally catch my breath. When I think about myself, I find that I don't have as good memory and strength as before, but I am still very happy. Fortunately, I'm not too old to move. Fortunately, I found the problem in time. Fortunately, I still have a chance.

Welcome to the next stage of my life. Thank you for giving me this opportunity. I hope you don't embarrass me.