Daily prose

I didn't come home until midnight last night. A mess is the symbol of my dormitory these days. Seeing this, I have no mind to care about it. Everything in the house is randomly placed, in a mess and disorganized. I took the psychology of desire that I haven't closed yet and lay in bed watching it. I this fellow, at the moment, like a puppy gnawing at a bone, that hungry look, that never give up. ......

As usual, the campus morning broadcast is chirping the same song, which makes people wake up. When I opened my sleepy eyes, I saw black and white paper lying quietly under my cheek. After a night's sleep, I was wrinkled and unrecognizable. "ah! My book! Damn it! " Lower your head and stick your face on the page. The slightly wet page is covered with the aftertaste of facial cleanser. Sleeping with a book and waking up with a pillow several times, because reading is unintentional? Or are you addicted to books and content to read poetry books?

After washing, making up and eating, I turned on my mobile phone and realized that I had to call my old father after dinner last night. "How can you forget? Call again after class at noon! " I'd better log in first and then watch Sohu News. After these exercises, I walked into the classroom and stepped onto the three-foot platform, practicing the great task of "teaching with heart and educating people with love". Outside the window, it is raining in Mao Mao. I thought it was bad weather again, but after the second class, the weather cleared up and a full sun spread all over the earth. Holding a book, I went downstairs, stood on the last stair, looked up, covered my forehead with my left hand, squinted at the fiery red sun, trying to expose my wet heart! But the thought of "if the heart is sunny, it is fearless and sad" makes my heart not open-minded.

Put the book on the corner of the table, and then sit in the chair and play with your mobile phone. After several rounds on Sohu News website, I returned to Yilin website. The article recommended by Yilin today is China's Awkward Father's Day. Looking at this title, it seems that I touched a nerve for a while, so I opened the link without hesitation and went straight to the original text. It is mentioned in the article that Taobao released a set of interesting data on the eve of Father's Day. "The data shows that as a festival, Father's Day is not as lively as Valentine's Day, nor as warm as Mother's Day, nor as cheerful as Children's Day. Only 320,000 treasures are related to the keyword' Dad', and China's father suffered an embarrassing Father's Day. " After reading it, I stared at the screen of my mobile phone and fell into an unprecedented self-blame. No wonder China's father was embarrassed on Father's Day. Isn't it because people like me ignore his father's love?

Who planted my unexpected life? Who irrigated my material world with nothingness? Who supported my desolate and lonely spiritual home? It's you, it's you, it's you, my old father

two

When I reached school age, you jokingly told me that as long as I could earn money to buy a schoolbag, you would let me study. I listen to you. I picked up the octagonal scattered on the ground and sold it. I took more than eight yuan and bought my dream schoolbag, which is a military green one-shoulder canvas bag. You really kept your promise and took me to school.

On the day of school, I was already behind when I got to the classroom, because I had to catch a long mountain road. The teacher put me at the last table. I cried secretly in the classroom all morning, and after class was over at noon, I went home with my schoolbag on my back (at that time, all the children in our village were running students from grade one to grade five, so they got up for breakfast at four or five in the morning and walked for an hour on the mountain road to get to school, so they didn't go home for dinner at noon, and didn't go home for dinner until after the third class in the afternoon). When I got home, you were surprised at first when you saw me after busy farm work, and then you frowned. "Is there no class in the afternoon?" You asked. "Yes, I sat at the last table and couldn't see what the teacher wrote." I said gloomily, pursed my mouth and frowned, looking abusive. You didn't scold me or hit me, just let me go back to school after lunch. The next day, after the first Chinese class, the teacher suddenly transferred me to the second table in a friendly way. Back then! It feels like eating honey, so sweet that the whole body is happy! After class in the afternoon, I was the first to rush out of the classroom and hurried home without waiting for my partner. "Dad, the teacher transferred me to the second table today!" I shouted and jumped ... you! Just a faint smile in front of me, your face tired from a day's work, suddenly, the waves simply opened. I didn't know until I grew up that you had been to school. When we were studying by ourselves before class, you asked the teacher to rearrange my seat, and the teacher adjusted my seat.

In the second grade, due to the expansion of the school, it is required that every household within the jurisdiction of Majie Village Committee must pay the construction fee of 30 yuan before each child is allowed to sign up. There are five people in our family, and the total payment is 150 yuan. Plus the tuition and miscellaneous fees of our three sisters, it is an astronomical figure for our family, which is mainly farming and supplemented by part-time jobs. I vaguely remember a little friend of mine who was dragged home by his father to herd cattle because he couldn't afford the tuition. However, our three sisters were unaffected and still went to school normally. However, the next week's street day, our fat ox was taken to the market by you and sold.

After entering the third grade, you told us that you were going to Guangdong to earn money. Look for the three of us at school when you leave. Brother is eating the white sugar cookies you bought, and one of them is giggling. I couldn't stop choking, tears wet my face, and even the biscuits in my mouth were soaked by the tears flowing in. You wrote a small note with a burnt carbon rod, put it in my pocket (the note said "Xiaoxiu, be strong") and left. You are still in the market.

When I came back, I looked like a blackhead and saw two golden awards on the wall of my shrine. I got them for the first time since I was a student, in the third grade and last semester. For the first time, you showed a very proud smile on your face. That smile spilled on your dark face. How can you be so happy?

Since then, I have won several gold medals at the school graduation ceremony every semester. When I get home, I'll leave them all for you to post for me. Day after day, year after year, the old house that was originally surrounded by people was covered with golden walls. ......

In the sixth grade, I was admitted to junior high school with the highest score in the town.

three

After entering junior high school, my schoolwork increased and I was busy every day. I want to save more time to study, so I choose to live on campus, and my brother still lives outside. After living on campus, besides finishing my studies, I am also addicted to extracurricular reading. The school canteen is oily and tasteless. I lost a whole body after eating the canteen meal. One day after school at noon, several of our classmates cleaned at uncle's feet. At first, I vaguely saw a familiar face in the shade opposite the playground. He stood under the tree and stayed there all the time. When we finished sweeping and went to the canteen for dinner, I realized that it was you who stood at the foot of the tree and never gave up. Dad, at that time, because I often read extracurricular books in poor light, my eyesight has begun to blur. I feel sorry for you. I can't see you in the distance of the playground. When you saw me coming to you, your usual smile hung on your cheek and took me out of school. You said, "Look how thin you are, you need to mend it." You took me to a restaurant to eat a bowl of lean rice noodles. Although it is not a delicious food, the bowl of rice noodles has fixed my eating habits until now. When I am anorexic, when I miss you, my first thought is to eat a bowl of thin rice noodles.

In middle school, in order to meet my request to change my volunteer, you go to the school to discuss with the leaders and get them to agree that I should change my volunteer who has entered the county No.1 middle school to the state No.1 middle school.

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When I entered high school, you personally sent me to school. Along the way, you were very happy carrying that brand-new wooden box. The paint on Huang Liang's wooden box matches the happy expression on your face. Looking at your happiness, I made up my mind: I must be admitted to the university. After signing up, you take the remaining 50 yuan and rush to the station. I leaned down from the sixth floor window and looked down at you coming along the path of the apartment. The farther you go, the closer I follow. "So, leave me alone to live in this small town without friends?" Suddenly, I turned and rushed out of the dormitory, went straight downstairs and chased you away. However, when I arrived at the school gate, I looked around and saw strangers. In vain, I can't find your whereabouts at all. I had to leave in anger.

During my school days, apart from studying, I either read extra-curricular books in a corner of the campus alone, or slipped out of the campus and shuttled through the streets of Wenshan, looking for China coins in various pawn stalls. Three years in State No.1 Middle School passed quickly. The results of the college entrance examination have been announced, and my results are average. I thought I was satisfied, but I can go to college anyway. But my family seems a little lost, especially you. I know what you are thinking, but I didn't agree to go to cram school. I don't think it's important to go to a famous university. The key is to learn solid knowledge by yourself. Therefore, I decided to choose Lijiang Normal University, a little-known school.

five

This time, you decided to send me to school. Although I have repeatedly said that I don't need your personal escort, I can do it myself. But you still don't trust, stubbornly choose to accompany me to report to school. Just like when you entered high school three years ago, you made my bed yourself, regardless of my objection. I stood behind you, watching you make my bed in a hurry, and my vision became blurred ... After you helped me with all the admission procedures, you led me to see the class teacher and said that you were going back, so please take care of me. Teachers used to sit and deal with documents. Seeing your sincere and frank account, he stood up in surprise and nodded frequently. I cringed behind you and blushed. When you left this time, I said to buy a bottle of iced black tea to quench my thirst on the way. You said no, just buy a bottle of mineral water. I remember, I was angry at that time. Why don't you appreciate it? I've been walking with you to the station. I want to see you get on the bus in person. However, you didn't even tell me when the bus would be released, and repeatedly urged me to go back to school. When I transferred back to school, you clearly knew that I was fragile, but you still called me strong.

six

After bidding farewell to my study career for more than ten years, I am like a runaway wild horse, heading for a free paradise of society. In the midsummer of 20 1 1, I hurried home without even getting my diploma. First, I was too eager to graduate as soon as possible and be self-reliant. After returning to my hometown, I rushed to take the teacher recruitment exam in Wenshan, but I failed. At first, I was a little sad. On second thought, I think it's a good thing that I failed the exam. I can just prove the business. So, in Lijiang, my classmates are still preparing for the graduation ceremony, and I have been looking for a job everywhere in Guangnan. On June 29th, my classmates bid farewell at school, but I worked as a sales clerk in a real estate company. No longer prepare for the recruitment examination for special post teachers in Yunnan Province on July 9. When you learned about it, you called from Beiliu Stone Field and gave me a lecture earnestly. In the face of sudden reprimand, I froze for the first time. You never scolded me! On the other end of the phone, I argued incoherently But you didn't accept my excuse. You didn't end the call until I promised you that I would carefully prepare for the special post exam. Hanging up the phone, I thought, take the exam! Let me take part in such a serious activity for the last time! But I just want to take the exam and don't want to make any preparations. I did the same thing. I haven't read this book carefully except the Knowledge of Special Post Examination I read when I was a student. In this way, it is basically a naked post recruitment examination.

After more than ten days, the results came out. After inquiring, I learned that I actually entered the interview! Oh, dear, I never thought it would end like this. I have absorbed the greatest salesman in the world in real estate for more than ten days. I also review the knowledge on parchment every day, hoping that one day I can get rich and help the poor. I didn't expect to pass the exam at all, but I know the result must be what you expected. Raise the phone, hold on, put it down. Raise the phone again, bear with it again, and put it down. What can I tell you? When you say that you have entered the interview, you will definitely tell me that you must prepare well for the interview, but I am not going to be a teacher yet. If you say you didn't do well in the exam, you will be sad again, but I can't lie to you. What should I do?

After work, a person sits on the lawn in front of Guangnan Hall and thinks. Sitting from dusk to dusk, I can't make up my mind With the tenderness of starlight, I walk alone. Back to the dormitory, I fell into mourning and fell on the small pillow on the bed. You brought me this little pillow when I was in the sixth grade. Since then, I have been carrying it for more than ten years. There is a smiling puppy on both sides of the pillow. This warm companionship, like your love for your daughter, has always been unknown, but it has always existed. Seeing things and thinking about people, my mind is rolling with everything you have done for me, my eyes are moist and tears fall on the warm smiling face of the puppy. This puppy seems to be telling me what to do.

After resigning to the company leader, I packed my bags and went to Ako to prepare for the interview. Put on a business suit that you gave me money to choose. This suit is the most expensive one I have ever worn. Accompanied by my friends, I walked into the examination room. As soon as the interview was over, the examiner announced the results on the spot. I secretly ranked when I looked at my grades and learned that I was admitted! I'll call you as soon as I get out of the examination room and tell you the exam results. On the other end of the receiver, I can hear your trembling tone because of excessive excitement.

seven

It's Spring Festival now, so you come back a few days earlier than usual. I bought a winter coat for you and your mother with my meager accumulated salary. I bought you a brown leather coat, which I've been wanting to give you for years. Now, it has finally come true. I took it off as soon as I put it on when I tried it on, and I kept saying, "Off, off!" "But I didn't see the eyes I expected.

After joining the work, the financial situation always makes ends meet, and I often ask you for living expenses in various ways. You always say, save. I always promise, but I can't do it.

On the wedding day, when I left, I kowtowed to my elders one by one. My mother has gone into hiding, but the man's married man looked for her everywhere but she was gone. Finally, I found you. You rushed in from the door, holding your little sister over two years old and standing in front of the shrine in the main room. I'm wearing red clothes and a red tie. I look at your sad face with tears in my eyes, and I can't let it flow out. I knocked three times in a row, and the corner of my eye stayed at your feet. In Yu Guangli, I saw that your right foot had left in the direction of your room before I finished knocking. Grandma! "Say that finish, you turned into the room. I stood up and walked angrily to the door, but forgot to kowtow to my aunt who gave me my head.

eight

Entering a new family, I am not used to it at all. Suddenly I feel so lonely, without the support of your parents and the shelter of my hometown, I live in a trance every day, like a dog without a soul, and I have lost my whole heart. Every time I come back to my new home after work, I want to retire from afar. I don't want to step into this new home, but I want to go back to my hometown. It's not that my new family is unkind to me, but that I realize how difficult it is for me to give up my hometown. I didn't want to go home, and threatened that I was just a passer-by to my family. Now think about how stupid I am. People! Only when you lose it will you know what is precious.

Married life is like carrying Alexandra. The couple, who are burdened with nearly 300,000 foreign debts, keep receiving calls for debt collection, but only promise that the other party will repay them as soon as possible. And the enterprise I founded is still in its infancy, which is bleak for the time being. Faced with such great economic pressure, I gradually understood what the old manager once said: "Being rich is filial piety". If we are rich, at least the old people on both sides will not worry about our married life any more. It's filial piety to let you worry less!

Now, although I have encountered many difficulties, I don't want to ask you for help any more. Business problems encountered by enterprises, the plight of being besieged by villains because of the loss of mobile phones, the pressure of mortgage repayment, job transfer and resettlement, and so on. I chose to face them independently and began to understand the meaning of "be strong" you told me in those years. You are over half a year old and know your destiny. It's time to enjoy your family. Your shoulders are not wide, and the burden borne by your family is too heavy. Leave a lot of burdens for children who are about to enter the age of 30! Although I didn't give you any gorgeous gifts on Father's Day, I didn't even send you a greeting phone call, but, dad, you know, my daughter dare not disobey you.

Often after class, at dusk, holding a cup of tea, standing on the balcony on the third floor, staring at the opposite hill. I have been working for two years, and whenever I encounter something sad, I have to face this hill and think about the solution. Over time, I became attached to it. The hillock is short, but exquisite; Although it doesn't stretch like a mountain, it has a unique stability. Although it is not as strong and straight as a mountain, it has a unique gentleness in a small body. Aren't you just like this mountain? It is unremarkable, but it has always existed. You have no solid family background, rich background and profound knowledge, but you gave me the most wordless fatherly love. Thank you, not a "thank you" can express clearly; My blessing to you can't be fully represented by a "Happy Father's Day". For you, more is still the same silent love. I don't talk, I don't show, I am silent, but it always exists.