Goodbye, Dalian! I will leave you eventually.

17 years 10 months 17 nights, I dragged my heavy luggage to Dalian Railway Station, and what was more serious was my restless heart. The night began to diffuse gradually, and the city lights shone faintly on the deep night sky. Looking at the night sky in Dalian, I suddenly felt a little nostalgia and disappointment.

It has been five years since I came to Dalian from 20 15, and these five years have left me many wonderful memories. Students who live together day and night, friends who care about each other, friendly colleagues, magnificent blue sea, clean and tidy streets, delicious salmon ... All the bits and pieces here are deeply engraved in my mind and become my eternal memory.

After graduating from graduate school, I worked in private enterprises and foreign companies successively, engaged in the computer industry, which is often referred to as "Cheng" and "code farmer". After working for more than three years, I lived in a rented room in the dark for two years. With the dark room, wet clothes and a waist that often hurts because of humidity, it seems that my heart is getting gloomy. It was not until the third year that I moved to a sunny rented house with a separate bathroom and could cook. There has been some progress in life, but I still haven't escaped the "fate" of renting a house.

Whenever I walk in the community and see others living in spacious, bright and beautiful houses, I feel inexplicable sadness and sadness in my heart. In recent years, housing prices in Dalian have soared, and the better houses cost millions. Even an ordinary house needs about 10 thousand square meters. Every time I see the crowds coming and going in the sales office, I will unconsciously lower my head and buy a house as a luxury that I can't even think about.

What I feel most in Dalian is high consumption and low income, holding a meager salary and thinking about a distant and unrealistic future. As far as I know, foreign colleagues who have settled in Dalian usually have their parents make a down payment and then pay their own mortgage. Some families have mines, but their parents paid the full amount directly. There are still very few houses bought through their own efforts. Basically, they are small houses with 50 to 60 flats in the suburbs, but the down payment is also 300,000 to 400,000.

I was born in a peasant family. My father is in his seventies and my mother has a heart disease. Although my family has been living in poverty, my parents have been sending me to graduate school. I can never repay my parents' kindness in my life. After work, I have been giving money to my family to make my parents live better. Every time I think of a sentence on the Internet, "You must grow old faster than your parents", my heart will be deeply hurt. Before I grew up, my parents were old.

Now I'm almost 30 years old, and I have no house or car. The pressure of life is slowly overdrawing me, and the hope in my eyes is slowly dissipating. Looking at the bustling streets, busy people and all kinds of luxury cars shuttling on the road, it seems that this city will never have a sleeping day. Every time I see these, I will be filled with emotion. I can only watch others laugh wildly in the bustling city, and I am just a passer-by in this city.

It is also an accidental opportunity. My partner saw a large job fair held in Changchun on the recruitment website, with schools in our hometown on it. We are going to give it a try, and finally both of them passed the written interview and entered the teacher establishment in their hometown. Because the consumption level in my hometown is low and the pressure of life is relatively small, we finally decided to go back to my hometown to work.

In fact, when I just graduated, my parents, uncle and sister always suggested that I go to my hometown to be a teacher. At this moment, my fate is so ridiculous. I looked around and turned around, and finally returned to the original point.

When I was a child, I was full of yearning for big cities. When I grow up, I know that a city full of flowers is not necessarily more approachable than a country with smoke. When I was at school, I was full of enthusiasm and thought I could conquer the world and change society. After graduation, I realized that I couldn't change anything except myself. People always have to face the reality, no matter how lofty the ideal is, it will also fall into the trivial matters of daily life. But this does not mean bowing and giving in, but seeing yourself more clearly.

Five years ago, facing the sea, full of passion and expectation; Five years later, facing the sea, it is full of regret and helplessness. The sea is still the old sea, but you are no longer the same! I know that those lofty aspirations in the school are like catkins floating in the wind, which can never be seen again; I understand that five years is like lost youth, which is gone forever; I know all regrets are like snowflakes flying all over the sky, scattered in every corner of the city. Instead of dreaming, we can only make do with it and perfunctory …

I was about to leave when I suddenly remembered that I had made an appointment with my friend to walk across the sea bridge again this Saturday. I had to leave Dalian because I left early and the rent was due. The agreement can't be fulfilled, so I can only say with a smile that I will wait for the next opportunity. But we all know, when is the next time? A year later, two years later, or ten years later? I sighed helplessly. A person's life is doomed to pass by too many people, including classmates, friends and colleagues. It is not easy to meet in the vast sea of people, and it is even more rare to become bosom friends.

I still clearly remember that 1 1 month, we walked on the sea-crossing bridge again, looking at the calm and vast sea and talking about our own ideas; A week ago, we watched this year's annual meeting and once again complained about the unequal opportunities because we didn't win the grand prize. We had dinner together the day before yesterday and complained that the company canteen was expensive and unpalatable. Everything is vividly in my mind, and it seems like yesterday. This memory will not be diluted and blurred by the passage of time, and the practice of time will only make this memory precious!

The whistle sounded and the train started. I looked at the night sky in Dalian through the window, and it was as dark and colorful as usual. I watched it all the time. As the train drifted away, it slowly lost its luster and finally disappeared into the endless darkness. At that moment, my heart seemed to sink to the deepest bottom, and darkness and loneliness enveloped my whole body. ...

Suddenly, the eyes were shrouded in endless darkness. The sleeper of the train is closed, so it's ten o'clock soon! I was lying in a narrow bed, touching the cold bed compartment, but I couldn't calm down for a long time. My parents worked hard to provide me with education, hoping that I could shine through the lintel and walk out of the countryside. But I still haven't left the countryside. I am sorry for my parents and unfilial son. I didn't meet your expectations of me. I let you down. ...

Snoring has started, many people have gradually fallen asleep, but I am still not sleepy. Maybe this is the farewell bar. I've been on this train many times, but this can be said to be the last time! This time, five years have come to an end.

Goodbye, my dear classmates!

Goodbye, my dear colleague!

Goodbye, my dear friend!

Goodbye, Dalian!

Although I have been home for some time, I still keep my mobile phone number in Dalian and watch the weather in Dalian every day. Yes, I still can't let Dalian go. I always have Dalian in my heart. After all, he brought me countless good memories. My dream rose because I came to Dalian, and it was fragmented because I left Dalian! But no matter where I am, I will always wish Dalian better and better!

My partner and I are both graduate students from Dalian, and my partner is a chemistry teaching major. When we graduated, we felt that we could make it through hard work. After several years of work, we have saved some money. Later, because I failed to do some business with my family, I lost hundreds of thousands.

My partner gave all the money she earned to her family, and I also gave 30 thousand to 40 thousand. Plus, I sometimes give money to my family, so we never have much savings. Moreover, we are old enough to get married, but we couldn't buy a house in Dalian at that time, so we had to go back to our hometown and work in the county.

These days when I came home, I was lost for a long time. I basically never go out except to work hard. I stay at home reading, writing and dancing every day, because I don't know what else I can like, or only these can bring me comfort.

Although I left Dalian, the lifelong learning consciousness I learned in Dalian still flows in my heart. I won't give up studying, although learning more may not make me earn more and have a better quality of life. But I still study very hard. Even if my life is always full of thorns and even failures, I will always lose and keep fighting!

Finally, thank you again for your comments. I wish everyone can settle down in their favorite place and will not leave any regrets in life. Life is happy, rich and comfortable!