Jiangnan Love Prose Essay

Part 1 Last night, the west wind withered the green trees. I climbed up to the tall building alone and looked across the road to the end of the world.

In my initial impression, traditional literature and online literature are two opposite extremes. I always feel that traditional literature is thick and rich in connotation, while online literature is impetuous, vulgar, and tasteless. Just like a woman who is glamorous on the outside but vulgar on the inside, there is always a huge difference between her and the real Lan Xinhui. This subjective prejudice has not been qualitatively changed deep in my heart until now.

I have been fond of writing for a long time, but because I don’t like to get too close to the so-called “Internet writing”, I mostly write and draw alone in my free time, just for my own entertainment. Although the writing is good, it is difficult to make great progress, and the price of being complacent is being too arrogant, and then arrogant, subconsciously forcing oneself to be on the same front with the famous people, while being self-satisfied, but still doing nothing. Unappreciated talent.

The thinking of "literati" is always very strange. On the one hand, they want to stand out and soar to the sky with a representative work. On the other hand, they are complacent about old works that even they are not satisfied with, and they fantasize about getting some great job. favor. I admit that I have had such a mentality, and it is this mentality that makes me eager to push my works out so that more people can see them.

However, the online world is complicated and complicated, with thousands of websites, each with its own merits but also densely populated. It’s really hard to make a quick decision as to which place is suitable for you to live in. This is like facing hundreds of job requirements at the recruitment site, carefully selecting, shopping around, and finally deciding on a job that is average and suitable for you. You may not like it, and others may not like what you yearn for. Fuck you.

In such a general environment, Qidian and Under the Banyan Tree were defeated one after another. My first stop was Good Mood Original. Good Mood's rigorous attitude towards article editing and review, as well as its general direction of focusing on traditional literature, seemed to be tailor-made for me. So much so that when I think back now, I can still clearly remember the surprise and excitement when we first met.

And just like a good mood is my first love, it is not the sweetheart who ends up in my arms. After a short stay in a good mood, under the introduction of my fellow Bingcheng Miyuki, I walked into the misty and misty world of Jiangnan.

People are weird sometimes. When you gradually accept and become accustomed to something, it becomes difficult to become too interested in similar things. To me at that time, Jiangnan was such an existence. Being used to a good mood, I felt a little uneasy and a little excited when I first came to Jiangnan. Just like entering a new school, facing a new living environment and new classmates, there must be a process of facing and adapting.

Therefore, in my private mind, it is always inevitable to weigh and compare these two websites repeatedly. If the same article is submitted at the same time, which website will review the article faster, and which website’s editor will write the comments What makes me even more satisfied is the details, as small as clicks to follow up and review, and so many details. In the end, of course Jiangnan stood out without hesitation and won more of my attention.

I have to say that Jiangnan has done a good job in many details, and more importantly, it is the sense of belonging. This is something that a good mood does not have. In a good mood, there may be a few very close friends, but the communication is always limited to a small group of people, and it is not possible for people to proudly say "I am a person in a good mood." As for Jiangnan, you don't need to know too much in depth to feel the strong atmosphere of home, which makes people feel at ease and comfortable for no reason, so that they can trust and even rely on it.

Of course, when I talk about this now, it feels a bit self-proclaimed, but it is indeed the first impression Jiangnan Misty Rain gave me.

Science students always have amazingly keen observation and summarizing abilities. One of the great benefits of Jiangshan Society is its transparent management. Through the writer group and the forum, you can always see all aspects of the society's operation. Unlike other websites that are always covered with a layer of mystery. "The joy of participation" is probably something that many managers enjoy most but are least willing to share.

I don’t like to make irresponsible remarks, but I like to study and ponder alone, and use a critical eye to examine the shortcomings and highlights of the management model.

During that time, I visited almost all societies in Jiangshan, even Wutong, which had been closed for more than a year, was not spared. And learning from each other’s strengths to offset weaknesses is one of my good habits. So during that time, Qiu Wu Piaoxu, as the head of the club, was constantly disturbed by me.

What surprised me very much was that, as a manager, Qiuwu Piaoxu showed rare patience and kindness. I have to believe that there is such a thing as "personal charm", even if she treats everyone the same, even if she has to face dozens if not hundreds of people every day, even though you are just an ordinary person among the many people she needs to negotiate with. One, but she can make you feel in her calm words: In her eyes, you are the unique NO. 1, so that you can trust her unconditionally.

I’m pretty good, I’m always relatively “sober”, and I think I’m relatively sober. But when he was awake, he fell more completely than anyone else.

What is addiction? Just when you have free time every day and feel like you have nothing to do, you will always naturally think of her and pay attention to her every move. If you don't see her for a day or even a moment, you will feel very uneasy. When she A certain dynamic is not within your control, and you will feel at a loss.

I admit that I am addicted to Jiangnan.

For a long time, I stayed away from Jiangnan. My friends Feng Canxue and Qiuwu Piaoxu tried to persuade me to join Jiangnan as an editor more than once, but I rejected them both. Maybe it's because of my lazy temper, or maybe I'm not used to reading other people's articles as a teacher. In short, during that time, I earned a nickname in Jiangnan, called "The No. 1 Diver in Jiangnan". Diving means diving. The diving, complementing the "No. 1 Lazy River in the South of the Yangtze River" in the creek, is a wonderful sight.

Even so, I pay attention to and support Jiangnan in my own way. The fan novel "Misty Rain Jiangnan" can be regarded as a small meeting gift. The launch of the essay competition on the same topic made me see more of Qiu Wu Piaoxu's sincerity. Originally, I just made a suggestion as a bystander, but I never thought that she would let me take full responsibility. Then, with the publication of "Freehand Jiangnan", a momentary impulse gained the overwhelming trust of Jiangnan's management, which I never expected. Qiu Wu Piaoxu said with a smile that I was an "outsider doing things as an insider", and I thanked him for that.

It was the summer of 2012. I had spent my last summer vacation in college. I was so full of ambition when I returned to school, but I didn’t expect that what was waiting for me would be the ups and downs of love and entanglements in Jiangnan. .

Second, the belt becomes wider and wider, but in the end I don’t regret it. I feel haggard because of the beauty.

I made a three-part agreement with Qiu Wupiaoxu. The condition for joining Jiangnan to manage the society is that I will not hold any position. Qiuwu Piaoxu happily agreed. This has nothing to do with being indifferent to fame and fortune. To the outside world, I still regard myself as "President Jiangnan". Of course, this is a foreign language.

At that time, Jiangnan was as popular as ever. Whether it is the amount of articles published or the popularity of the community, it is far beyond that of his peers. On the road to success, there are also many turbulences. The turmoil itself has nothing to do with the outside world, but comes from the top management within the society. There are many outstanding people in the prosperous age. Under the premise of the development of the prosperous society, the game inside is becoming increasingly fierce. Talented people abound, and there are not a few who are qualified to serve as president. Especially when the kid lets go and doesn't care about the club, no one has really convinced anyone, so during that period, just "president" There are as many as 9 titles. Especially after a person like me, who is neither embarrassed nor embarrassed, joined, the relationship became even more delicate. (I don’t bear the name of president, but I exercise the authority of president.)

The thoughts of "literati" are difficult to fathom. He will not confront you with a real sword, but he is not willing to admit defeat. She wants to keep her beautiful image of a modest gentleman and a graceful lady, but also doesn't want her opponent to be too complacent, so she smiles on the surface, but she has her own problems on the inside.

This kind of relationship is very strange. If it is not broken, everything will be fine. Once the skylight is opened, it will be doomed. So at that time, Jiangnan seemed prosperous and glorious, but in fact it stood on the top of a cliff.

And I know very well that in order to break this deadlock and bring Jiangnan to real prosperity, we must first establish prestige, and secondly, reshuffle the Jiangnan lineup. Therefore, during that period, the former "No. 1 Diver in Jiangnan" finally stopped diving. Starting from the commentary column "Xiao Hou has something to say", the society's fourth anniversary celebration, super popular activities posted name contests and common sense tests, and even more Jiangnan led to the wave of "examination style" and "love letter style", and reached its true pinnacle with the essay solicitation for the same title of "The World".

On the other hand, under the premise that Qiuwu Piaoxu vigorously introduced new people, it dared to appoint new people, and a large number of writers and editors with super high standards emerged to join. The water is still cold, where is the end of the world, Lu Ze, Man in the Boat, Chen Ge, Zi Mo Qing Han, Shui Mo Ge Ge, Xiao Er, etc. are all gradually active in front of and behind the scenes in Jiangnan. At the beginning of November, the absolute core of the Jiangnan Muzihua Fragrance and Spring Rain and Sunshine Exodus system, Lu Ze and Where Tianya took the initiative to take over the baton, and through a series of personnel changes and adjustments, established the main body of the system with Qiu Wu Piaoxu, Vanishing Ruomo and me. Jiangnan’s new lineup.

That season was the happiest time in Jiangnan. There are no disputes about fame and wealth, no vanity, everyone gathers together happily, occasionally complains in the group, occasionally spells and writes articles together, occasionally makes jokes, occasionally... It is a kind of pure happiness that cannot be more pure, and everyone around me is happy. All my good friends are here, full of ambition and full of confidence in the future of Jiangnan.

However, as time passes by, the prosperity is destined to not be smooth. Just like the change of game versions, the old tactical ideas may not still be successful under the new system. In September 2011, the ranking system of Jiangshan Club was adjusted, pushing Jiangnan to an unparalleled height. In January 2013, after 16 months, the ranking system was changed again, and Jiangnan stepped down from the altar.

Originally, the victory and defeat changed hands, and the ranking changed, which was normal. But for Jiangnan, who was accustomed to the king's posture, it was like a bolt from the blue. Times are progressing and concepts are changing, but we focus too much on internal petty troubles and ignore the changes in the outside world. Our opponents are steadily improving, but we are stuck in our ways.

The price of failure is painful, but the painful training is priceless. Fortunately, Jiangnan did not sink because of this, nor did it collapse. Instead, it became extremely united, showing strong cohesion and vitality. During that time, Lu Ze and Qiu Wu Piaoxu became the two benchmarks in Jiangnan. The soy sauce party was in full swing, and the water army was mighty, creating countless myths and writing countless legends along the way.

In the second quarter, Jiangnan won. Win beautifully, win wonderfully! However, this ranking battle also brought huge backlash to Jiangnan. At the end of the second quarter, Qiu Wu Piaoxu was exhausted mentally and physically and chose to quit. Before that, A Wu, Ruo Mo, Shui Mo Ge Ge, etc. also all faded out of sight one by one.

In July, I will take the rest of Jiangnan’s troops and embark on another journey. The people in the boat and Zimo Qinghan resolutely took up the banner, and the newly added simple hobbies, Jian Xi, Yanran Panchenxi, etc. are also full of stamina. What's more, wherever the world ends, the bamboo leaves and so on will stick to each other and never leave. At the beginning of July, I withstood the pressure to cancel the agency publishing by famous writers, insisted on the creation of grassroots writers, and managed to survive the third quarter with difficulty.

However, the older generation members continue to leave, the new authors are not accepted, and there are too many trivial matters in my life and work, and I have no time to devote more energy to taking care of the society. Even though I am iron-clad, I also gradually felt tired. At the editorial meeting in early September, I proposed the idea of ????retiring. Regardless of everyone's surprises and attempts to stay, after seeing the dust settle in the first quarter of Jiangnan's third quarter, I finally officially withdrew from Jiangnan in early October.

Looking back on this journey in Jiangnan, it was really extraordinary. And every time I think about it afterwards, the memories left to me are actually beautiful. The influence of some people and things I met through Jiangnan, as well as my creative ideas, may last a lifetime. There are so many bright and sincere smiling faces, so many lovely Jiangnan people. If I really had to describe them one by one, I would probably not be able to describe them all in three days and three nights. However, if I really wanted to be grateful, I would choose two people.

Qiu Wu Piaoxu, a leader with a great ambition, is the spiritual core of Jiangnan Society.

Her existence in Jiangnan is no longer a simple ID. She weaves a sky in Jiangnan with her tolerance and understanding, and gathers a large number of writers. And her extremely profound writing skills have also played a very good role in creation and set an absolute example. Whether in public or private, she can make people admire and trust her from the bottom of their hearts. However, when you truly enter her inner world, you still feel her fragility and perseverance as an ordinary woman.

Every time Jiangnan is in the most difficult times, they support each other, tell each other their heartfelt songs, and rely on each other for strength. Who would have thought that as the helmsman of Jiangnan, he would be under tremendous pressure with every move he made. Sometimes, you just need someone to share your feelings with and have someone to talk to. To her, I am such a person, and to me, she is not the same?

However, in the end, she chose to retreat bravely, while I chose to persevere alone. The fear of loneliness is terrible, but the power of trust is infinite. Whenever this happens, I always think of her, the joy of working hand in hand, and the happiness of guiding the country.

The second person I want to thank is Ruomo. I don’t know if you all have this feeling. When you devote yourself to one thing, it is difficult to have the energy to do another thing. Obviously, Jiangnan is a place that takes up almost all of my spare time.

I can no longer remember how I met Ruomo and became familiar with her until we knew each other. But because they have too many similar hobbies, they gradually talk about everything. Compared with the emotional softness of Qiuwu Piaoxu, Vanishing Ruomo shows more rational publicity. I am very lucky to meet such a person in Jiangnan, who gave me the motivation to write and inspired me on the long journey of Jiangnan, so that I never gave up on creation.

Perhaps sometimes you really need an external motivation to stick to your dreams.

In Jiangnan, I have been shaken and confused. This passion for writing has never changed since Jiangnan and beyond. After quitting Jiangnan in October last year, I slowly regained my status after settling down, and I felt quite comfortable.

At that time, I thought that in Jiangnan, I was always just a passer-by, coming here suddenly and leaving in a hurry. I never imagined what kind of attitude I would have when I come back again.

Three people searched for him thousands of times, but suddenly looked back, and found that man in a dimly lit place.

Perhaps I owe Jiangnan too much in my life, or maybe Jiangnan and I are destined to have a relationship that is constantly being cut and confused. In short, when the spring breeze blows away the biting ice, The flowers slowly bloomed on the branches, and I was back.

I still remember that when I first arrived in Jiangnan, the flourishing age of Jiangnan, which had just completed its transformation, was beginning to appear, and it was prosperous and beautiful; when I left Jiangnan, under the complicated appearance of Jiangnan, which could be crowned as a king, it was actually full of bruises. Along the way, Jiangnan has had a hard time walking, and Jiangnan people have had a hard time guarding it. Now, when Jiangnan, who has washed away all her beauty, stands in front of me with a very clear appearance without makeup, I suddenly have mixed feelings in my heart, and I can't calm down for a long time.

It was like for a moment, I suddenly understood what the real Jiangnan is.

Many old authors often complain to me, why do the people in Jiangnan feel so strange to him or her now? Where have all the people who used to play and laugh together gone? I didn't know how to answer for a moment.

The journey to Jiangnan has not been easy. Perhaps for most people, the reason why they can stay in a place called "home" like Jiangnan is because there are one or two people here who they care about very much, and when that person quietly... When you leave, you will find that you have nothing to love here anymore.

But, is this really the case?

I always believe that as long as you truly understand everything with your heart and communicate with your heart, you can always encounter one or two things and one or two people that move you at any time. Time flies, the world is changing, nothing is eternal, people have to learn to adapt to new environments and new things.

Writing is like this, making friends is like this, Jiangnan is like this, isn't life like this?

We often stubbornly resist changes around us, such as the change of the Jiangnan team and the departure of familiar figures. Scenes in which things are different and people are different can always make people feel a lot of emotions and screams. Perhaps, for many people, things in memories are always particularly gorgeous. But we often ignore what is in front of us and the beauty we can grasp now. Memories can be treasured and reminisced, but don’t indulge. After all, no one can go back and start over, but anyone can start from now on and write a completely different ending.

Today’s Jiangnan no longer has the impetuousness of the past, but it also lacks a bit of youthful vitality. But as long as we believe in ourselves and the people around us, happiness is always not far away. At present, Jiangnan has slowly come out of its confusion. The team has basically stabilized, and the management system has gradually become standardized. All kinds of talents have emerged frequently, and new and old authors have mingled together. The initial results have been shown. Although it is still far from the prosperous period last year, But this is a new beginning, a new prologue.

Jiangnan, I’m here! At this moment, when I say this sentence again, my heart is still unavoidable. Even though time passes and time changes, I just want to say that this feeling will never change.