Seventh anniversary of employment

June 1 1 is the 7th anniversary of my present job. My marriage has a seven-year itch. In these seven years in the workplace, I have been itching several years in advance, and I am almost numb.

I still remember the anxiety before I landed in this job, the situation that my mind was full of information about a new industry two days before I joined the job, and the self-confidence, slowness and formality when I first adapted. ...

In a blink of an eye, I have been an editor for seven years.

In the first half of the year, it was a screw, small and transparent. Later, due to the turnover of personnel, the work content was adjusted, and I started to cooperate with Spanish magazines, and then chinese magazine. 20 17 took the initiative to apply to English magazines and overseas exhibitions, and started writing cover articles because of poor performance. The person in charge of the agency department ... has suffered many physical and mental challenges and gained the most growth. That year can be said to be the highlight of the workplace, and then it entered the dark moment of the workplace.

Everything is sudden, and overtime is going crazy. At that time, I didn't have a basic understanding of the workplace, my professionalism and personal maturity were not enough, I couldn't open the pattern, and I didn't have the awareness of learning from others. Under the pressure of workload and deadline, I just want to bury my head in the fire, bite my teeth and think perfectly. I survived that year's Zhuhai exhibition, which was my strength to persevere. During that time, I was too busy to doubt my life every day, and I couldn't help but be particularly confused when I got home from work.

Finally, after finishing the exhibition in Zhuhai, I went to Linxi Pavilion in Cambodia to heal the wounds of love. Once I pulled away from my work, my previous inner support collapsed. The salary is not satisfied, the date is delayed, and the mentality is suddenly out of balance.

It was a sad and embarrassing time. I feel that my value has not been recognized and my contribution has not been seen. I am very wronged.

After crying, the salary rose a little, the departments merged and the positions were revoked. Before he could catch his breath, the recruited colleague was appointed as the department manager soon after he joined the company, and he was caught in a lingering embarrassment and self-denial.

20 18 after a business trip to Mexico, I saw nothing to look forward to. I watched others flourish, suffering in emotions, blaming others, alienating myself, and gradually becoming willful and marginalized at work. The little trapped beast in my heart wants to rush out but can't.

After 20 19 paddling, I still feel alienated and impetuous. I have tried coach consultation and job interview, but I know in my heart that my inner strength is still scattered and has not gathered.

When the epidemic broke out in 2020, we reached a settlement with ourselves, let go of our inner struggle and let nature take its course.

In 20021year, we moved into a new office building and ushered in a new turn. With someone's departure, the feeling of being tortured and neglected and hurt disappeared. I had a little respite in my heart, and gradually established a sense of connection with David, and established some sense of security and self-confidence from my work. Work began to become less painful, and even small partners had dinner together.

In 2022, the mentality is more mature, the state is more stable, and I know what choice I should make. Although I still didn't move, I calmed down a lot.

When I wrote these past stories, I realized how unprepared I was. No wonder I couldn't seize the opportunity when it came. These years of suffering, I really don't know how stubborn I am.

Shed a lot of tears and complained many times. Finally, I slowly accepted the reality that it backfired, gradually understood some truths in the workplace and life, and slowly grew up. If there are any gains in these seven years, these are the biggest gains.

Now, my eyes are open, my heart is calm and my strength is gathered. I hope to meet the right opportunity at the right time and place as soon as possible, devote myself to a suitable and interesting job, and maximize my potential and value.

Today, P.S., the boss of Mindfulness Group, got an offer to work in Sweden and achieved his career goal (director) in his twenties. She set a good example for me and let me see how far and high the career path of women of the same age can go.