The sadness of college entrance examination immigrants

He comes from the foot of Helan Mountain in Ningxia. His world was full of ridicule and inferiority since childhood. /kloc-at the age of 0/3, a family accident made him an abandoned child in the eyes of others, and eating became a problem.

With nothing, he has ten thousand reasons to be sad and take revenge on the world. When he was desperate, he had 10 thousand opportunities to give up on himself and accuse him of being angry. In the end, his destination is Harvard University on the other side of the ocean. This "orphan" who once struggled in the corner of fate shines brilliantly and beautifully. How did he do it? When the whole world deviates, listen to an abandoned child in Ningxia-Zhang Zhiyong to tell you the story of self-help. ...

How lucky you are: the warm sun in the gap of despair

My name is Zhang Zhiyong, and I was born in a remote village on the outskirts of Lanzhou, Gansu. 1992. One night when I was 7 months old, my mother put me next to the kerosene lamp and went to work. When she came back, my left face was covered by a dark kerosene lamp. From then on, I left a scar on my left face, and "Xiaohua Mall" became my nickname.

As long as I can remember, my father retired to Helan County, Ningxia, and our family moved there. Those strange eyes and sarcasm are even worse. Every time I cry because I am bullied, my mother always hugs me. At night, I am often awakened by my mother's crying in my sleep.

After attending primary school, I was often stopped and tied up with a rope in a tight corner. They call it "action to kill cats". I dare not tell my mother, because she is more bitter than me. Since my father became a contractor, his temper has become irritable and perverse, and he has beaten and scolded his mother if he is slightly unhappy. I stood up and stood in front of my mother. My father turned his anger on me and my mother tried to protect me. "Mom, bear with me again until I grow up ..." I shed tears of unyielding hatred at the foot of Helan Mountain.

On the day when I was in tears, I bought my mother a pair of leather shoes as a gift with the breakfast money I had saved for half a year. Mom's eyes are red: "silly child, mom, as long as you study hard and live like a person!" " "In those days, her arm was always black and blue, and she kept saying," Son, if you don't live up to expectations, you must get along! " "A few days later, she disappeared. I searched like crazy, but my mother really disappeared. She didn't take the shoes in the cupboard. Mom left, she didn't want me, and that was the beginning of the ordeal. After mom left, dad had his own family. After that, my father and I began to separate. Under the pressure of life, I went to work in a barbecue shop. In June 2007, I absently finished the senior high school entrance examination and was admitted to Helan No.1 Middle School. In order to study, I can only continue to work in a barbecue shop and raise money to pay my tuition!

At the beginning of military training, I took all my belongings-a blanket, a soft mattress and a quilt-to report to school. Along the way, other people's luggage was carefully prepared by their parents, and only I was present with a "joke" on my back. Because it was too "bloated", I was squeezed by my classmates and almost fell off the military vehicle. In ridicule, I looked up at the sky and tried not to shed tears. After the military training, there was no empty bed in the school dormitory, and I was homeless. Just when I was desperate, Aunt Li, the owner of the barbecue shop, took me in. The sofa near the door on the first floor of the barbecue shop becomes my bed at night. The barbecue shop has two floors, the mahjong room upstairs and the barbecue downstairs. Get up at 5 o'clock every morning to clean, string labels and cook sauce. Come back from self-study at 9 o'clock in the evening and help entertain the guests upstairs and downstairs. At two or three o'clock in the morning, customers playing mahjong left one after another, and I was awakened mercilessly by the cold wind pouring in from the door. Soon, the spring of the sofa was about to be broken by the guests, so I picked up some bricks from the outside to support it. The cold outside came in angrily, and I clung to the radiator tightly, but my hands and face were still covered with frostbite.

Eat no more than one bowl in the store at first, and wash clothes once a month. Relying on others, I know how to be an employee who doesn't hate the boss. Aunt Li always gives me more bowls of rice and quietly throws my clothes into the washing machine. "Silly child, aunt loves you dearly!" Thank you for being on my lips, blocked by tears. When the whole world left me, I wrapped myself tightly like a hedgehog and just wanted to grow up quickly. Until Aunt Li appeared, like her mother, she slowly melted the hard ice in my heart and raised a little steam and heat of life. That day, I burst into tears in front of Aunt Li, because she sounded like my mother.

Since then, the time submerged in the smell of cumin and the sound of mahjong has become more relaxed than ever. I began to study hard, work hard, get along well with other people in the shop, and have a smile on my face.

In the second semester of senior high school, Aunt Li closed the store because she was going to settle in Shenzhen. Before leaving, she took my hand and said, "Only you can change your destiny!" "I was shocked, but in the end I tried my best to calm myself down from the loss and fear and clung to the black leather schoolbag she gave me. The heat it gave me made me feel inferior and sad in the depths of my soul: at that time, my father had moved my account out; I am the only independent householder among all the students in Helan No.1 Middle School, but there is no tile house. In desperation, I finally got up the courage to speak to the school. I almost exhausted all my strength and uttered a cry for help: teacher, help me.

Vow about dreams: the light of inferiority complex boy is shining.

The school and teachers were shocked when they learned about my experience. Soon, the school exempted my accommodation fee and arranged for me to live in a dormitory.

I live a collective life, but the inferiority complex in my bones still makes me a loner. At that time, my English was poor. You have to throw an eraser in every exam to get the answer, and you will never fail the exam. I dare not and don't want to communicate with others, so I decided to learn English in the most primitive and rigid way.

At 5: 30 in the morning, I stood on the road and recited English loudly almost crazily. After studying at night, I have to do it again. Was expelled to the park by the surrounding residents for disturbing the people. That day, the aunt who cleaned the park came to me carefully: "doll, don't be hard on yourself." Don't yell every day! "She handed me a hot steamed stuffed bun. I bite down, this should be the best steamed stuffed bun in the world! I laughed and explained to her in a hoarse voice why I screamed. She patted me on the shoulder and said, "Baby, I bring you steamed buns every morning! " "

Crazy shouts and aunt's hot buns accompanied me through the cold winter. My English score soared to 130, and I got a surprise: my voice became very rich and broad.

With the improvement of my grades, my self-confidence has also improved all the way. Under the guidance of my classmates, I learned to dance and host, but I still dare not open myself in front of others. At this moment, the math teacher Xing Hu came to me. He treats me like a son, and I affectionately call him Tiger Dad. Tiger dad repeatedly encouraged me to let go, and I promised him to try. It was June of 20 10, 1, and the third grade of senior high school held a grand welcome to the new year. I am wearing a red and green clown suit, and my "pale" face is painted with two red and round "monkey butts". In the surprise, my heart was pounding and I danced a swan dance. The audience burst into laughter and applause, and then all the lights went out. It lasted for a minute in the dark, and the applause continued. I quickly took off my clown costume and turned into a sexy and elegant Latin dancer. After a passionate samba, everyone stood up and gave a thumbs up.

I became the brightest star on the stage, and tears rolled down my cheeks. It turns out that I can really break through myself and subvert myself if I want to. Since then, I have frequently served as the host of various activities with my excellent voice. My academic performance is getting better and better. Days, like this, glow a little.

On the eve of the college entrance examination, I signed up for the pilot selection examination in five northwest provinces. The physical examination was conducted in Yinchuan, which was my first time in a big city. Clean and tidy roads, skyscrapers, colorful neon lights, even the smell of air is so different. Yinchuan is like this. What about a bigger city? Suddenly want to see the outside world.

The results of the final physical examination showed that all the physical indicators were fine, but the scar on my face brought me into reality and I lost the election.

I didn't lose heart, and I was determined to be admitted to Ningxia. However, back at school, fate gave me another sap! The teacher told me that because I am an independent hukou, I can't apply for a foreign university for three years because I don't meet the hukou requirements stipulated by Ningxia to crack down on "college entrance examination immigrants". In other words, even if I get the first place in the county, Ningxia University is the only choice. I want to cry without tears.

In desperation, I took the college entrance examination a month later and didn't do well. I only passed two courses and only got the admission notice from Ningxia University. Just as I had resigned and started working in Korean restaurants to earn tuition, a teacher who had worked in the county education bureau and was familiar with my situation came to me and encouraged me to repeat my studies for one year: "Next year, we plan to declare your situation as a case and apply for special approval."

I jumped up and threw the rag in my hand into the air: "The outside world is waiting for me in Zhang Zhiyong!" After that, although most teachers didn't approve of my repeat study, I started my "senior four" career with the support of teachers such as Tiger Dad.

After repeating this year, I tasted courage and my grades were stable at the forefront of my grade. 20 1 1 One day in March, I was suddenly called to the office by the teacher of the Education Bureau: "Zhiyong, I'm sorry, I didn't approve it ..." I forgot how I got out of the office and how I walked back to school, except that I cried all the way.

In the next few months, I took classes in confusion until the college entrance examination. This time, I lost even more. I'm two points short of the second line. Maybe this is my destiny! Holding a volunteer form, I wrote down a university in the province in despair, and the column of major was full of "Mining Engineering". I wanted to be a miner, like Sun Shaoping in Ordinary World, and find the final destination in an unknown mining area.

Tiger dad found me when he learned of my volunteer, and asked me to repeat it. I looked disdainful: "That's what happened during the exam. God won't let me go. What can I do! " The usually affable Tiger Dad got angry: "Zhang Zhiyong, are you giving up on yourself?"? It's your own problem that you didn't do well in the exam! " I am not convinced. I joked: "Tiger Dad, I will be a miner in the future, and the beneficiary will write you in the life insurance ..." He slapped me hard: "You disappoint us so much! A coward like you has no face to be an enemy of the world! "

I was suddenly awakened! In the harsh sunshine, I covered my hot face and felt ashamed. Past events: aunt Li, tiger dad, and so many people who have helped me ... they not only sympathize with me, but also have high hopes for me. One by one, they live no easier than me. They are using their body temperature to resist the tempering for me. In a flash, I woke up. I have nothing. What am I afraid of? What are the obstacles? Come on!

I once again walked into the teaching building with my schoolbag on my back. As a famous college entrance examination brother in the school, someone pointed out: "Look, the college entrance examination brother is back ..." Tiger Dad patted me on the shoulder, and I looked up and responded loudly: "Yes, come on, be careful not to be knocked down by my brother!"

There is nothing wrong with my grades. The problem lies in my state of mind. In order to relieve my stress, Tiger Dad stipulated that I must go out for outdoor exercise during recess and take two hours to take part in physical exercise every day. Every time between classes, he will come to me and "show the way" with me. After studying, I have to take a bus for more than 2 hours every weekend to go to work in a training institution in a neighboring county. During the wobbly driving process, my "senior five" pressure disappeared.

20 12 college entrance examination, I got the first place in liberal arts in the county. Tiger dad and I high-five each other: "boy, good job, you survived!" " Considering the economic pressure, I gave up universities in first-tier cities and filled in the major of Chinese as a foreign language in Jiangsu University, which is far from Zhenjiang and has a good employment prospect.

The county subsidizes my tuition and living expenses. I have to solve it myself. I decided to use my summer vacation as a tutor. At the suggestion of Tiger Dad, I rode my bike, took a plastic bucket and a brush, tinkled through the bustling crowd and promoted myself in the streets of the small town. The white shirt was sweaty over and over again, and the sweat dripped on the bicycle, knocking out the most beautiful sound in midsummer ... A holiday, I recruited thirty or forty students-my living expenses for one semester were solved!

Awesome, brother! Be a better you under the Harvard sky.

20 12 September, I set foot on the train to Shanghai. 12 midnight, Tiger Dad's text message jumped out: "Birds will soar when they grow up. Go ahead, we will wait for you to soar! " I want to laugh at Tiger Dad, what an old-fashioned encouragement, but tears come up like water bursting its banks-in recent years, Tiger Dad knows how I broke away from the curse of fate!

Jiangsu University, here we are. I carried heavy luggage and shuttled through the crowd alone. Most of them are parents who come to send their children to school. I'm used to this contrast. After cleaning the dormitory, I couldn't wait to put on my shorts, walk past the teaching building, pass by the canteen and "travel" on the campus full of flowers. This is my new world!

After reporting for duty, the first class meeting was held soon. When I was running for the class committee, I was the first to go to the podium and made a silence: "Students, I miss you so much!" " "Imitating Feng Gong, it took me several days to think of the prologue. It really aroused everyone's laughter and attracted everyone's attention. I immediately expressed my strong hope to be elected and become the secretary of the Youth League branch!

At the end of September, I accepted an arduous task-presiding over the joint welcome meeting of the five hospitals. It was the first time that I stepped onto such a big stage, and I was shaking when I stepped onto the stage. The lights dimmed and a bright light focused on the center of the stage and gathered on me. At that moment, I suddenly wanted to escape. Soon, I calmed down, and one after another inspired me. I tried my best to perform and shuttle between the audience. "Zhang Zhiyong, sing a song!" "Moderator, jump one!" There are voices coming and going, and I know I won again.

After the school learned about my situation through the general survey, it listed me in the database of poor students and provided me with a post of work-study program-cleaning the college mock trial. At first, I was worried about being seen as a "poor" me outside the aura. But soon, I told myself: "You are self-reliant by your own hands, there is no shame!" " "I did a good job. The host on the stage and the cleaner under the stage, I am comfortable and confident.

Next semester, the Academic Affairs Office will send some students to the United States for paid internships. As soon as I saw the notice, I told myself: I must go. My sky should be the whole world!

In order to save enough money to go abroad, I took 13 part-time jobs on and off campus. When I was working in a restaurant, I was scalded by vegetables, scratched my fingers by cups and severely humiliated by guests. When cleaning up small advertisements on campus, I wet the advertising paper with a wet rag and then remove it with a spatula. It was so cold that I just finished wiping the first advertisement when the second one froze and I tore it with my hands. One winter, my feet were frostbitten, and so were my hands and face. After lights out in the dormitory at night, I will review my lessons with a flashlight.

Other people's children can study carefree, but I have to run around for my livelihood and dreams. This is my own hard life and my opportunity. Just as I was struggling to go to the United States for an internship, the college teacher sent me a message about the Jiangsu provincial government scholarship program for studying abroad. When I saw the relevant information of business administration and finance major in Harvard University and read it carefully, I found that my qualifications met the requirements of candidates, and my dream was amplified again.

So, when filling out the volunteer form, I only wrote "Harvard University Enterprise Management and Finance" among the four volunteers. If you want to go, you must go to the best! Two days later, I successfully received the interview notice. Just before I walked into the interview room, a teacher stopped me: "Zhang Zhiyong, do you know that Harvard University is a semi-scholarship?" His words chilled me by half, but the relevant data have been reported, and I have no chance to change to a school with full scholarship. Those who do not attend the interview are deemed to have given up automatically.

What shall we do? I paced anxiously outside the conference room, and my dream and reality were torn in my mind. Soon, I was determined: "teacher, I'm going to Harvard, and I'll solve the economic problems myself!" " "Three days later, I was told that I had successfully passed the interview at Harvard University.

I have mixed feelings. "Come on, Zhang Zhiyong!" After learning this news, my classmate and monitor Mu Zi sincerely encouraged me. Mu Zi is two years younger than me and comes from Shaanxi. While she was studying hard, I served dishes in the restaurant. When she was busy with club activities, I tore up advertisements on campus ... such a gap made me seldom have a chance to talk to her. Now, the opportunity has come, I just ask the lion to invite me to dinner. "No problem!" She said yes. The woman's character, careless, makes me heartache. At that time, I clearly saw the opportunities and bridges I built for myself.

Where can I raise more than 200 thousand to go abroad? I have no idea at all, and I took several part-time jobs urgently. I am busy day and night, spreading out the money I earned and putting it under my pillow. It can be counted, but it is a drop in the bucket.

Not afraid. It doesn't matter. I gritted my teeth and insisted. At the last minute, my dear tiger dad gave me the 50 thousand deposit from home. I was in tears when I received such a large sum of money. Soon, a student I tutored, whose father heard about me, also wanted to sponsor 6,543,800 yuan. I resolutely refused to accept it. He insisted on giving it: "This is a tribute to the dream!" I wrote down the IOUs one by one and gave them to him before accepting the money.

When I was preparing to go abroad, I found myself secretly in love with Mu Zi, but because of my inferiority complex in my bones, I didn't have time to confess to her, so I had to devote myself more to my study.

In the summer of 20 14, I finally set foot on the other side of the ocean. At Harvard University, everything is as wonderful and magical as a dream to me. Afternoon sunshine, green lawn, classmates with different skin colors ... The seeds of dreams are planted in my heart again.

"Harvard, how beautiful!" I couldn't help leaving a message for Mu Zi. "Then enjoy your good time! Come on! " She is as enthusiastic as ever.

During my days at Harvard, I studied until two or three in the morning every day. The work and rest time in America is from 9 am to 4 pm, but this does not mean that the day's study is over. On the contrary, the autonomous learning mode begins after school, and a lot of homework and preview tasks are half of learning every day.

After studying at Harvard, I transferred to the University of California for further study. In California, I choose to live in a host family. I have formed a deep friendship with the beautiful mother family in the host family. They celebrated my first birthday for me. Beautiful mother said with emotion, if only I 18 years old, then she can adopt me and let me stay in the United States to study and live! Sincerely thank you for the emergence of a beautiful mother in your life!

In a cheerful and full atmosphere, I ended my one-year overseas study tour. During my stay in America, I got excellent grades in all subjects. I also won the "Excellent Learning Award" and "Outstanding Performance Award".

In the summer of 20 15, I returned to Zhenjiang. "Brother Harvard is back, welcome to Zhenjiang!" Mu Zi greeted me with a warm smile. I, too, have cultivated courage and confidence in the sunshine in California.

In the following days, Mu Zi and I have classes together, go to the canteen together and go to the library together. I got a haircut in Lee MinHo. It's called "Yong Ouba". I feel like I'm in tune with her like never before. Mu Zi, be my girlfriend! That day, I got up the courage to tell her, and she nodded shyly. ...

In June, 2006, Mu Zi and I graduated! Prior to this, I had received the admission notices for master's and doctoral programs from five internationally renowned universities, including UCLA, Washington University, seattle university and Boston University. But after careful consideration, I decided to give up, because my goal is Harvard. In July, Mu Zi went to the University of Hong Kong for postgraduate study. I personally escorted her to Hong Kong. On the eve of parting, we high-five for the oath: in the future, promise each other a better self!

Subsequently, I received the pre-admission notice of Harvard University Master of Education as I wished. A confident smile masks the past and misfortune.

This road and fate "love each other and kill each other". We don't give in or pay tribute to each other. I want to thank the meanness in the cruel world, and a hard beating has made me. I looked up at the starry sky: Aunt Li, Tiger Dad and Mu Zi flashed across the horizon, so ferocious and beautiful. I want to tell my mother who doesn't know where she is now. Do you know that your son is so unfortunate and so lucky? His contempt in the extremely cold life has long been covered by the heat flow of warm life. I want to fly higher and higher, high enough to be my mother's support. ...