The mother hates her son.

I have only heard the proverb "Only mothers are good in the world". Even the first song children learn in kindergarten is that only mothers are good in the world. But this is only for most people, not the vast majority, just the majority. ...

Red star kindergarten, at this time, once again sang a familiar melody: Only mothers are good in the world, and children with mothers are like treasures. If you throw it into her arms, you can't enjoy happiness. ...

The whole kindergarten is humming this familiar song. I don't know how many times I sang it. It is also the first song I learned on the first day of kindergarten. Only one child didn't sing the song. He can't even sing such a melody, let alone the beginning of this song. The kindergarten teacher asked Xiaoming to start singing this song, and Xiaoming said I couldn't. The teacher knew there might be something hidden, so he had to give up and let his deskmate and monitor Xiao Kai sing at the beginning. Everyone sang along, so Xiao Ming had to sing along. He is different from others when he sings. He sings the whole sentence when others sing it. When Xiao Ming sang, the first sentence "Only a mother is good in the world" was not sung, and "A child with a mother is like a treasure" was only sung symbolically for three or two sentences. It is better to sing than to read the text silently, just like having a Chinese class. Xiao Ming didn't win attention, but covered up his mind.

Xiaoming is six years old and very handsome. Every adult in the village who has seen him will unconsciously touch the child's face. What's more, for example, an elderly grandfather will poke Xiaoming in the face with stubble to show his love for Xiaoming. To this end, Xiao Ming is always distressed, stinging people's stubble, accompanied by a strong smell of tobacco. I don't know yet, this is also a kind of love and concern from others.

Xiaoming's mother left him two months ago. When she left, she came to visit him at the gate of the kindergarten school. When she left, she kissed Xiaoming on the forehead and said to Xiaoming, Go home, son, and go back to class. At this moment, Xiao Ming's mother felt like a knife until Xiao Ming disappeared from his sight. But Xiaoming's mother is still looking around and always wants to see her son more. I don't know if I can see my son again in my life.

Xiaoming's mother was bought by Xiaoming's father to be his wife, which is illegal. Xiao Ming should be an only child, but he doesn't have an only child certificate. Xiaoming's mother hates Xiaoming's father, which has also planted the seeds of hatred for Xiaoming's young mind. Xiaoming's father is very happy, because having a son will not be looked down upon. Although the daughter-in-law is bought, the son is a relative. His theory is really "only fools have what he thinks". Xiao Ming's father is not a bad guy, but also an honest farmer, but he is also in the business of buying wives.

People are too honest, which is the standard reason why single young men over 90 don't get married ~

Actually, it's not. Generally, this kind of young people actually have the hope of looking forward to a better life. Who isn't? I'm afraid an old lady broke something. Xiaoming's grandmother is a talkative old lady who wants to take care of everything. To be precise, she killed Xiaoming's father and Xiaoming's uncle and was single all her life. In the villages in the north, men always call their wives our family. The so-called family refers to a man's wife, and what the wife says is worth a thousand words. Xiaoming's grandmother and husband died early, and the old lady lived with her two single sons. In fact, during this period, many people told their eldest son about marriage, but they were all cut off by the old lady.

When it comes to marriage, it is inevitable to mention money. At this time, the old lady seems to be crazy. Oh, why so many? Selling our house doesn't have that much money. Always say that there is no money to be poor, in fact, there is still some money at home. Both brothers are diligent, and the old lady has saved some money over the years. People in the 1960s, who had never seen the world, were always afraid that they would not be able to eat again, so it was very important to look at money. The importance has exceeded that the son does not marry and the boss does not marry, so the delayed second child does not marry. Damn old woman. So afterwards, others advised that the old lady might have understood something before catching the last bus. Traffickers sell girls to remote mountainous areas in order to give birth to a son for the old bachelor to continue to burn incense.

12 years later, Xiaoming grew up to be a great man. People are always curious. Everyone else has a mother, but I don't. One day Xiao Ming called his father, and his father asked him, when did you have this idea? Xiao Ming said that it has been there for a long time. His father agreed. If Xiao Ming doesn't talk, his father will never talk. This hateful time, dad. When I was a child, I would speak ill of Xiaoming's mother in front of outsiders, but I didn't know it was unintentional. The listener had a heart. In fact, he didn't mean it, but he did it on purpose. In every banter, there is a serious backbone and blood. In addition to bringing pity to the child, it will also bring him a little pride. It seems that Xiaoming's father is the omnipotent savior and saved Xiaoming, while Xiaoming's mother is an ignorant idiot.

I made a mistake and I'm still quibbling. Maybe it's his habit, and he doesn't feel wrong. He also has a famous saying: if I don't buy you, others will buy you, and others will certainly not treat you better than me. This is a sentence that Xiao Ming's father sang to Xiao Ming's mother as the conclusion of the quarrel, but every time he said quarrel, it was another round of endless quarrel, until everyone was tired, Xiao Ming's father didn't talk. Xiaoming's father still doesn't think he is wrong.

When Xiao Ming 18 years old, on New Year's Eve, Xiao Ming's father asked Xiao Ming to talk to his mother on the phone. On the other end of the phone, Xiaoming's mother asked Xiaoming: Do you hate your mother? Xiao Ming said he didn't hate it, and his mother asked, why not? Xiao Ming said, because I know my mother has difficulties. So good, Xiao Ming's mother said. Xiao Ming choked and answered, Yes. Xiao Ming is crying? Asked the mother on the other end of the phone. Xiao Ming said: No, Xiao Ming's mother said, then how did I hear crying? Xiao Ming said it was the voice outside.

Xiao Ming 18 years old dropped out of junior high school and went to work in a factory in Tianjin under the arrangement of relatives. The child is too young to do heavy work. He worked in Tianjin for two months and just resigned and went home on May Day. After returning home, I stayed at home for more than half a month. I don't know if it's out of concern or shame. Xiaoming's mother actually asked Xiaoming to go to the south to find her. Xiaoming went to a small town in the south of Jiangsu and Zhejiang.

Long-lost maternal love! At the bustling railway station exit of this modern city. Xiaoming saw his mother looking around at a glance. But for the word "mom", he always couldn't say it. Because of age and familiarity, no, not familiarity, he never called these two words in his memory. For children in ordinary families, these two words are so common, but for Xiao Ming, it is a flower in the mirror. I have heard of it, but I have never seen it.

She hates her stepfather and her 6-year-old son from her heart. What Xiao Ming hates is not his mother, but her little son. Whatever a mother says, she always mentions her youngest son. She also said that her youngest son had a good life and was born on the second day of the New Year. Doesn't this mean that your youngest son is better off than me? At this moment, I can't hear Xiao's words. Although he is a boy of 18 years old, he still wants to be a child who wins his mother's attention and love by being naughty in front of this familiar and unfamiliar mother.

In Xiaoming's mother's words, I just want to strangle him. That's true. Xiao Ming really wants to strangle his little son, because he robbed his mother of the love she deserved for her son. Sometimes Xiao Ming looks back and thinks that at that time, in fact, his mother loved him very much, but between his youngest son and him, he just wanted her to make a choice and make her love herself more. Her 6-year-old son also knows that this strange brother's visit shielded his mother from all her love, even though she called him brother. But I also hate this brother. Maybe there is no love and hate in the child's world, but at the age of six, he will interrupt all this when his mother and brother are talking and hugging, and rush to destroy the long-lost connection between mother and child. He may not know, and certainly will not think about the consequences of his doing so.

At some point, Xiao Ming really wanted to kill him. Because of him, my mother will not love herself wholeheartedly. In this May season, which is not too hot in the south, he is Xiaoming's sworn enemy. Xiao Ming doesn't want to see him for a moment, and even wants him to say goodbye to this world completely. In this way, mother will always love herself. Mother said that she had another son. If it's a daughter, mom will go back with you! Xiao Ming is still skeptical about this sentence. What does this sentence mean? If it is a daughter, will my mother really come back with me to the man she hates so much?

Maybe it's just a saying that Xiao Ming's mother comforted Xiao Ming and hated her for abandoning him as a child, so as to comfort her conscience. Compared with her six-year-old son, she feels that she didn't give Xiaoming a mother's love, and she may feel that she is more or less sorry for him.

Xiao Ming stayed at his mother's house for more than ten days. She asked him to work with her relatives and sisters. Her sister works in the supermarket in the town. She is relaxed and not tired, and is closer to his mother's house. Xiao Ming went, didn't speak, asked him to call his aunt, and he didn't say much. In the northern countryside where he lives, all the elders he has met are over 50 years old before they can be called aunts or uncles. In front of this long, white and tall aunt, he felt that she was just his peers, at most, just a sister. Xiao Ming thought. This elder sister is so beautiful, with curved arch eyebrows, a pair of gentle and loving eyes, Highgarden's nose and pink cherry mouth. Big earlobe, full heaven, and long black hair, although it is wrapped in a hair clasp on the old lady's head, but this is the dress code for working in a supermarket, there is no way. This woman is so beautiful, Xiao Ming should be here now, and he is infatuated with her aunt, such a beautiful and moving girl. In later years, he regretted not working with this beautiful and charming girl many times. Xiao Ming's mother asked him to work here, probably because she wanted this lovely young aunt to introduce Xiao Ming to someone. Because there are many girls working in the supermarket, let Xiao Ming have a home here and be closer to her to make up for what she owes Xiao Ming these years.

Stories always happen in an ascending rhythm. Xiao Ming didn't stay in this small town in the south of the Yangtze River. Instead of staying, he was driven out of town by his mother. He was driven out of the home belonging to the six-year-old child and the home of his mother and father. Mother asked Xiaoming to follow his uncle to work in the factory and learn some skills. My uncle earns eight or nine thousand yuan a month. I heard that my uncle used to like gambling. Otherwise, there would be more than a few houses in this town. Now my uncle's family is still renting a house.

For ordinary migrant workers, primary school culture, not pinyin, literacy is not much, wages are already very rich. Not to mention them, even ordinary white-collar workers get this salary at 20 1 1. My mother asked my uncle to pick him up in the car. My mother told him that my son would go and have a look. Xiao Ming was silent again. I don't know how many times this long-lost mother-child conversation has happened. Xiao Ming doesn't want to do anything He doesn't know why he works. He said it was to survive. The meaning of survival is still like an unlit stove in Xiao Ming's heart. This is just a superficial phenomenon. Some people are alive, but he is dead. Xiao Ming belongs to this situation.

Later, I went to my mother's sister's. My mother called my sister's daughter, two years older than Xiaoming. I'm afraid Xiaoming has no one to play with here. My sister's daughter is about the same age as Xiao Ming, and there will be * * * topics to talk about. After playing for a few days, I immediately took my aunt's daughter to Yiwu. The idea is to let Xiao Ming work there with them, so that people of the same age can have more conversations. Contrary to expectations, Xiao Ming didn't stay there either. Aunt's family all work in an air-conditioning factory. The environment there reminds Xiao Ming of his previous experience in an electronics factory. He doesn't want to live such a boring life again, and then reincarnate into such a pace of life.

A few days later, I returned to my mother's small town. My mother said, you do nothing. Go home. Then he rode a battery car and took Xiaoming to the train ticket sales point to buy a sleeper train ticket back to Beijing. In fact, at the age of 18, Xiao Ming doesn't really want to go back. He just wants his mother to stay with him every day, just like when he was a child, always holding him, holding him and putting him to sleep. Although he 18 years old.

But people have to live, and mothers have to go to work to support their families every day. While his mother's man is idle at home, Xiao Ming thinks it's really his nature for his mother to marry him. When my mother was here, I took a day off to accompany Xiao Ming, but only one day was as pitiful as nine Niu Yi hairs for Xiao Ming who had been away from 12. At his mother's house, only when he saw his mother did Xiao Ming want her to hold him and hold him all the time. Xiao Ming also kissed his mother on the mouth. At this moment, I am extremely happy. As the song goes: A child with a mother is like a treasure.

Xiaoming still left, leaving the home of a six-year-old child and the southern town. The whole family went to the railway station to see Xiao Ming off. When she left, her mother asked Xiao Ming to say to her man, Take care of my mother. Xiao Ming said this sentence to express his feelings for his mother and the man whose mother asked him to call him uncle. Xiao Ming's mother said: You are always welcome here, and so are your mother and uncle. This is your home. Xiao Ming left and set foot on the train going north. The hatred in my heart is still buried in my heart. With the passage of time, this hatred has not decreased, but has increased. Every time I think of it, it looks like a fresh cut. I sprinkled a handful of salt on it.

After returning to the northern countryside where Xiaoming was born, my mother will call Xiaoming from time to time to ask about the recent situation and help him find a job in Beijing. Xiao Ming still didn't go to the work place that his mother helped him find. That is, every time I call, two girls have a big fight. Once again, when Xiao Ming went to the toilet, his mother's phone called, which was the time to help him find a job.

Mom is talking on the other end of the phone. Xiao Ming said: Are you right? Xiaoming's mother: What's wrong with me? Xiaoming: Are you so selfish? Regardless of me, aren't you wrong? Xiaoming's mother: Don't talk nonsense to me. Even if I don't care about you and give you maternal love, you can't talk to me like this. Xiaoming: What qualifications do you have to educate me? You don't care about me. Xiaoming's mother: I see through you. No matter how good I am to you, you won't say I am. ? Did your parents have children just to let them say hello? Xiao Ming thought.

Come out right away and let my mother stay in the hospital. "You are an asshole, you are not human, you are selfish and ignore me." After that, I was still waiting for my mother's response. "Yes, I'm an asshole, I'm not human, so what are you? You are an animal, an animal. " ? Xiaoming: Thanks to you.

The phone hung up. Xiao Ming also finished squatting in the open-air toilet in the countryside. He didn't know that at this time, the mother over there had fainted in the kitchen. It's two o'clock in the afternoon in Jiangnan, and it's time for their family to eat. She is waiting to go out to play with her husband and children. It was Sunday and the children had a holiday. She cooked a delicious meal for the whole family. Xiaoming's mother is often praised for her delicious cooking.

Xiaoming got up and walked back to his home due north from the toilet. In the northern countryside, the yard is very big, and everyone lives in a house facing south. I dialed the mobile phone number showing the name of my mother's city again, and the phone was connected. That voice is not my mother, but my aunt. My aunt said, stop calling. Your mother is in hospital because of your anger. Answer in a very even tone. Xiao Ming said: Is my mother all right? Aunt Xiaoming: Nothing for the time being. Don't call now. If you want to call, wait a few days. On the other end of the phone, Xiaoming's mother sobbed from time to time. Although she didn't cry at the other end of the phone, crying silently is more heartbreaking than crying loudly. It hurts the bone marrow, so that the cardiovascular system will burst at any time, myocardial infarction, and the heart will stop beating until it can't breathe and die.

After that, Xiao Ming didn't call his mother again and didn't apologize to her. Time passed like this, until one night Xiao Ming couldn't sleep, and he suddenly remembered his mother's tenderness and his love. I will also remember the way he asked his mother questions and her mother answered them.

Son: Mom, do you love me or not? ? Mom: Mom loves you, son. Son: Mom, if you love me, why did you leave in the first place? ? Mom: That's really helpless, son. Mom doesn't want this either, but there's nothing she can do, son. You ask your mother these questions every day. You think you are in love with your mother. You ask me every day whether I love you or like you.

After the swearing words came out, mother's heart was cold. I thought that in a few days, the child might call to apologize and leave some hope. She didn't know it at that time, but she really had a bright future like a fly in a glass window, but she had no choice. This is the last chance that mom silently gave Xiaoming, a chance that mom won't hate him.

The mother hates her son.

I'm Xiaoming. There is love and there is hate. More or less, there is trouble when there is happiness. Unless you don't want it, everything becomes unimportant compared with your gentleness. Every minute without you is a torment. I can't forget you, Jacky Cheung sings. Forget about you, mom. I can't do it. At this moment, I don't want happiness and trouble. Without love and hate, there is no happiness.